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 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
oni
and the worst part
is having all of these
ideas
in your head
about how you
are going to
change
your life
but you barely
have the strength
to stand.
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
neo
my stomach's twisting and i'm shaking
what do i say? god what if they think i don't want to talk what if they think i don't like them i need to say something

no nonono that was terrible why did i say that they probably think i'm so desperate for attention i have to bring up pointless ****

i want to be noticed
no no i don't i want to go home

should i send it did i word this right? what if they think i'm weird like it's such a sudden thing

i'm perfect i love myself
wait no what if people think i'm self absorbed i can't say that i'm trash
no that's not right either
they should talk more about themselves i'm talking too much about myself
**** **** fu ck
no that came out wrong
"hahahaaaaa i can't talk today i'm mixing up my words,,,,,,"

i can't breathe there's people everywhere they're crowd ign around me im suffoxuating hle p
This poem is old i just found it laying around
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
s
lost beyond
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
s
Sometimes I get lost
I get lost in my head
In my mind
In my brain
Sometimes I can't find my way out
I can't find common sense
I can't find sanity
Sometimes
I get lost
I can't find my way out
I can't stand up
I can't walk
I can't keep looking
But I have to keep trying
I can't give up
Yet
I need to find myself
I think I have gone beyond myself
But I'm going to keep trying
To
   Find
       My
          Way
Back out.
I just had to vent for a sec
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
Rhianecdote
I had a panic attack today.
Woke up with that feeling of dread
And I couldn't move.
Tried to change the thoughts running through my head
Still I couldn't move
So I cried
As I laid there convinced I was about to die
Cause it was the only thing I could do to know I was still *alive
Well this just happened...dang haven't had one of these in a while, forgot how scary they are :'(
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
Kate Lion
thud.
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
Kate Lion
i escape to the bottom of swimming pools
the harder it gets to breathe
the harder i kick
until my head hits the bottom

my ears pop
i am overwhelmed

i take naps on the freeway
the louder the horns scream
the deeper i sleep
it is relaxing 
to hear a chaos that compliments the white noise in my brain

my hangout is at the bottom of the stock market
but when the numbers come crashing down 
and everyone lowers their eyes on me
i disappear again

i walk barefoot on the asphalt, it's not my fault
that i want to know that searing pain can be caused by something outside of myself (my mind is not the only thing that's broken)

my finger hovers over the "delete" button
i feel better knowing everything could disappear

i don't have time
to accomplish anything

so i will scroll through facebook
scratch at my face
write a poem
and wish in my heart that you wouldn't worry so much
(i wish i wouldn't,  either)
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
Rose L
I see you in colors no one else can see
As if the light had split and lay you down for me -
painfully so -
arrogantly pursuing a spectrum so elaborate...
golden and gleaming...
God, do i try to keep up:
I see you as the red green blue black that resides under our protective layer of peach
Crimson cheeks and crimson thoughts
Ivy trailing hair of such unexplainality
mundanity fails to carry your weight -
But green seemed so innocently subtle to contain those veins
that stick out like a spill against ivory eyelids
sheltering yet more purple, bronze, a bouquet of vessels -- -
oh, god-ridden terracotta of your tips
red just doesn't cut it for me and blue leaves a sticky trail in the tongue when you're just so
unashamedly golden, apricotted, sparks of whatever next that i find in your eyes
colours i couldn't mix
no matter how hard i tried.
I can't stop writing about you in full colour. I don't know what that means.
(Yeah most of the words i write aren't real words thats purposeful :/ )
 Feb 2015 Elizabeth
BAM
She stares at the walls which encompass her life
Unsure why she can’t run through them at night
There she sits for countless years
Only to be kept prisoner by her deepest fears

She carries herself like a book with a smile
Judged by the cover, they all want a trial
Yet she’s bound tight by glittering stitches
To hide all of her unhinged glitches

She cannot keep still for half of a second
Dreading the moments she hears a small beckon
Left alone in the mind of a girl
Whose thoughts are dangerous when unfurled

She sees lovers dancing, living in dreams
Not all in this world is what is seems
You ask this girl what’s on her mind: she lies
For all she can do is deny

She carries burdens further every day
Unsure who will let her stay
Focus, let it all be clear
Then drown it out with another beer

She’s not certain who there is left to trust
In a life filled with unwavering lust
Pop another pill, smoke another stick
Anything to lessen the weight of bricks

She stares at these four walls and wants a door
Instead she lies down on the floor
All of these secrets kept inside bars
Filled with loud base and red guitars

She wanders these streets, quiet and obsolete
Who will be next on this long list of cheats
Cold whiskey, bright eyes, and stiletto knives
Where to go next in this web of lies

She floats out of her cage, up to the stars
Leaving the ***** and a hole in her yard
Bury the past, leave behind the secrets
Along with her heart, so no one can take it

She paints her road with glitter and oils
Maybe someday she’ll even be royal
But leave it with this much that will remain true
She’ll never be coming back for you.
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