I'm thankful for all those who have touched my life
Those who have loved me
Those who have left me
And those who have broken me
Because at some point, I loved you
And you made my life better
Damian, you made me realize I love red
And you made writing integral in my life
You reminded me I could make a difference
You... You made me laugh for a while and you made me happy
We had good memories
I'm thankful for you
I don't want to hate you
I want to see the good in you

I'm so afraid of being alone

I'm so drunk right now
You were the only thing that
Used to sober me up
Haha I remember our drunken first kiss
F###
I hate you
I want to text you
Say that I f###ing miss you
Oh God
Sober me up
Before I do something stupid
Or let me fall away to sleep
Drunken headache
Oh give me strength

who knew five words could cause my heart to fall hard onto the tile floor beneath me

who knew five words could cause rivers to pour from my eyes, my swollen heart the only thing keeping me afloat

who knew five words could make me unable to leave my bedroom for weeks. a blue bird who had her wings clipped, a song bird locked in her cage

who knew five words could cause so much pain

Don't fall in love with me
Because I have so much love to give
I will suffocate you and drain you
I will leave you gasping for air
Don't fall in love with me
For I don't know how to love myself
I depend on others for my happiness
I am terrified of being alone
Don't fall in love with me
I am a natural disaster
I will destroy you
Please don't fall in love with me