I want to exhaust your language
until we are the flesh of stillness

I forget everything
when she is tightly wrapped around me
I around her
the simplification of social excess
that usually protrudes
long into the night
just before blazing orange dawn
I realize
like the last possible realization
that life is desperation
happiness is surrender

American
Whiteness
the greatest mental illness of all time
even before they were diagnosed
the world has become safer
because the world finally
has funded a wall around America
a padded room institution
where the dissociative disorder
can destroy itself
and not everyone else in the process
the casual crisis
is an emergency
whiteness the coup d’état
is wreaking havoc
on the human soul
domesticated whiteness
riskiest to do business with
spilling blood all around the world
quarantine the biohazard
whiteness on its journey of impunity
when my family was most vulnerable
to the morbid lust
of the mental illness of whiteness
we gently genocidally refer to as social construction
which is really the deconstruction
of the black human
and the origins of humanity
American
American built by the pieces of my family
glued and mortared by the blood and sweat
spilled from them
the most dangerous deconstruction site
in the world
biological warfare
spewing
leaking
uncontrollably
contaminating humanity
polluting its evolution
at war with symbiosis
for the purity of fascism sake
a coup d’état called American whiteness
which is also been a long
untreated dissociative disorder

at first liberty
was ability and will
to leave the ethnicity English
oppression thereof
then liberty
became the constant justification
to **** women and children
for their land and ***
liberty became the realization
the natives they had killed
were the only ones who knew
how to cultivate the land
for food
so the settlers of whiteness
then took liberty
to dig up and eat the old native bodies
to eat them
the liberty to decay faster
then it became the desperation
to keep slaves
even though
the beginning of whiteness
its presidents
knew that blackness was more human
than themselves
took the liberty to keep humans enslaved
even though the rest of the world outlawed it
the liberty to keep slavery
as the domestication of whiteness
slavery built whiteness
liberty reinforcing
**** to breed
liberty became the uniform punishment
for free slaves
liberty to follow successful black men
making new laws to re-enslave blackness
stalkers of whiteness
like J Edgar Hoover
******* in parked vehicles
liberty of white authority
to fog up parked car windows
desperate to see black men in white women
liberty became micegeny laws
liberty was once longed for
by enslaved humans
then it was surpassed
by the order of slave women
“stop letting white men and women **** us!”
liberty faded in the quiet of freedom
humanity has a secret constitution
liberty will never understand
as a foundation of civil war
to justify the dissociative disorder of whiteness
and the trauma it causes

preemptive militance of white America
paranoid and armed to the gold teeth
bombing with nuclear bombs as revenge
bombing around the world
just in case
what if black America was this preemptive
this militantly hyper vigilant
after facing the whiteness of extermination
for such a long time
perhaps black America
might want the government
to use some of the hard earned
tax money
military expertise
impunity
to eradicate
racist white terrorists in America
at all levels of society
like what happened to MOVE
to John Africa
the babies the children
in Philadelphia may 13 1985
the fed bombs from the state helicopter
whiteness on a paranoid
preemptive genocidal mission of impunity
on camera
the paranoia black America should have
justifiably so
not to blame
America should surrender to the preemptive desire
of black America to not be enslaved or killed
upholding the basic freedom
In America
save your tax money
for domestic peace

libra
the scales
justice is freedom
unequal attention
paid to either side of the scale
imbalanced
equal attention
beyond what has been added
to the scale
is the beam that supports
possibility of change
opportunity
movement
be the beam and give yourself justice
give yourself freedom
own dialiectics
own your language
confidence is inward
during freedom
one is not confined
to function only within the boundaries
or details of a part of the scale
the liberty to function as justice
makes us free

my father
black jazz musician
left America
to other countries
like France
Denmark
for respect
while my friends
fathers
for the status quo
of whiteness
went to **** people
in other countries
for a little money