All these broken pieces....
I'm a mess...
I wish they would leave me alone.
I can heal by myself.
But they won't stop..
Everybody needs something...
And I keep caring about them.
What about me...
Who's caring about me while I'm trying to save the world one ****** up person at a time?
At the end of the day it's me with all my responsibility.
I'm a mess...
Is it any wonder why?
I can't carry everyone else.
Just me... and the responsibility.

E.J.M.

I love you not because of words...
I love you not because of your perfection...
I love the pieces that I see inside you that complete me.
I'm scared, I'm broken...
I have no reason to trust you...
Somehow I still love you...
I want these parts of you that we have together.
If we can take the broken pieces of you away... if you can undo what ****** has done...
Am I being hopeful?
Overly everything is perfect, with a unicorn and rainbow?
Is it really you that I love?
I saw something in you that I can't give up on...
We are a mess.. I'm pressing charges against you and we talk of it as if it's nothing...
You aren't mad and accept what you've done. .. now that you're sober...
Can you stay sober?
That's what scares me....
I love you when you're sober...

E.J.M.

I made a decision....
Not a good one. .. but mine to make. .
I fell in love with an addict. .
Someone that could never love me enough because there will always be ******...
I can make you smile. .
Hold you close. .
Kiss your face. ..
But I'll never get you out of this place. ..
All these plans we made. ..
Manatee kisses, arm licks,  t virus swapping. ...
Was it you?
Was it ever you? Those happy moments together?
How can you live in the dark?  
Shooting up In a bathroom?  Alone...
I wanted to save you. ..
You didn't tell me....
I didn't know it would hurt this way. ...
To save someone that would rather have a needle in their vein...
I never could give you that euphoricness..
I loved loving you....
Those good moments catch me up...
You said I saved you.... I never did
You've chosen that high over and over again. ..

E.J.M.

Be careful who who share your soul with.
This exchange of feeling may scar you for life. .
For every soul you expose yourself to...
You carry pieces with you...
They become a part of who you are...
Be hesitant...

E.J.M.

Silent memories scream the loudest...
Thoughts of you echo in my head...
Fluttering scraps of paper blown into the wind...
These are what we've made...
This is where we fall...
It's all exasperated....
To be one... but not all
Small splashes reverberate in the stillness...
The ripples expansion....
Each one larger than the next...
More subtle than the last...
We are all the small earth shattering moments...
The beauty between....

E.J.M.