as I Drive into the rain I ponder you... You lied to her everyday... You still do... How can I believe you? She lives with you and doesn't know your secrets... How can I believe that I do? So much that you say is a lie. we are a lie... We live a lie  everyday....we are so twisted up I don't even know what to say...

E.J.M.

Your lips taste like fire... they consume me greedily. ..
In bliss I lay before you... absorbing the sight of you above me...
I've never felt so powerless yet powerful at the same time...
Our eyes meet urgently...
Shallow breaths, hungrily devour....
faulty skin, and breath and tears
In the end I'm powerless...

E.J.M.

is this make believe?I wonder if I went away would you still believe in us? if I stay... It's like living a fantasy in a world of make believe... It doesn't feel make believe when I'm in your arms... Your real to the touch... When you're gone I ache...once you leave its like I imagined you here... Is this real? I almost want to put you with unicorns and Loch Ness monsters....You're gone and no 1 believes you were here. Period.i even wonder myself...

E.J.M.

you remind me of summer... Of the heat against my skin... Stifling hotness... The overwhelming sense of losing my breath... When I'm with you I can't breathe... I don't think about what we do... When you're gone there  are so many questions...I want to call but I can't... So many rules... Why can't we just be? Be who we are? and its summer and I think of you... And I miss you in the heat of the summer... its raining and I want to lay in bed all day with you but I never will...instead just snippets of you... And as I looked out over the woods I wait for you to arrive... To tell you all about my day and my week and maybe my month, depending on the frequency....heat lightning streaks across the sky but you won't see it...

E.J.M.

what's different about today... Rather than tomorrow or possibly Friday? why is it that some weeks you see me multiple times yet others not even a call... Weeks go by and I don't hear a word and then you're back just like you never left... Can you tell me you'll call Monday...yet I don't hear anything from you... You always come back... The question is why are we here? why do we come back? what makes you call me? can't you just live your life without me? isn't she enough? I'm not sure why you need us both? yet I must ask myself the same question... I'm not sure why both of us are here... Maybe we should stop coming...

E.J.M.

how strange I feel when you touch me... It's like you're here with me, but you're not ..you seem so far away... Wish we could stay this way forever, and every time you're here ....we go again... I can't fathom why we do this... Longing to see you.. I can feel my heart breaking yet I can't stop missing you...  never ending ongoing tumultuous events... I feel we should stop but I can't... So I just keep loving you until you break me...

E.J.M.

The breeze tickles my skin...
I'm reminded of your breath by my ear
The golden orb above heats my shoulders...
Reminiscent of your hands....
Listening to the wooded sounds. .. I think of you here...
As I gaze down your path..I wonder where it leads
The other way is mine...
Two paths to one location....
To come here over and over again yet not know the details by now...
Reminiscent of loving you...
All this time. .thinking I know the details of you yet not knowing anything of your path...
Anything of your day to day. ..
Who you really are...
What you really want....
I only know what you show me...
You whisper I love you...
I know that we do...
Yet there's that other path...

E.J.M.