Today I went to see you...
You told me to come by...
And I got away and drove there...
To where you were..
To where you told me you would be...
You were busy..
You were working as I watched the concrete pouring. ...
I knew you couldn't see me....
I sat and watched for a while...
My heart all a flutter ... butterflies rising up....
I finally traipsed across the mud around cars and work debris. ...
I wrote you a small letter....
I left it on your windshield. ...
Men in hard hats staring. ..
I walked to your car like I had every right. ...
I don't. ..
I have no rights when it comes to you...
I watched you work and I drove away ....
I was there like you asked...
I wanted so much for you to see me.

E.J.M.

Time.....
Such a strange concept. ...
One of which I had no concept of before you....
Now every moment counts. ..
Every ticking second. ..

One too late and I miss you....

that grasping of sands in an hour glass.
Halting THE falling....
Trying to gather them up in my hands.....
I can watch as time fades away. ..
Our time is few.....
Seconds ticking off.....

can't ask you to stay. ....

E.J.M.

The essence of your name ....
ignites inside me...

The way you grin....
Sets fireworks off within...

The beauty of your soul...
Burns me whole...

One touch of your skin...
I can't keep this inside me..

I literally glow when I catch sight of who you are.... I love the you that you hide

E.J.M.

We meet in our place every time...
Amidst the Pines and scrub...
In the dirt..
In a forest full of sun...
All these trees and no shade...
Our place reminds me ...
of Robert Frost and the path least taken
We leave our mark in this place as time goes by
And seasons change...
Like the mark you leave on my heart each time...
A meloncholy happiness that is us...
I always get a sandspur when I see you...
That small invasive stab to remind me what we are...
The beautiful green of the trees and the wind in your hair...
The brilliant sun upon my face as we kiss deeply...
I take us all in and treasure these moments. ..
Never knowing if we will have them again...

E.J.M.

You are the glue that holds me together...
The glue that I need when you say forever...
You hold me in your arms and make the world melt away...
Today we made plans for another day...
It's those plans and ideas that keep bad at bay...
I kiss your neck and imagine a time...
A time far away that we'll never be...
You're the glue that I need...

E.J.M.

The darkness of my life...
The day to day bs....
wow..... overwhelming
Love knowing that the person I built my life with could leave in the blink of an eye....
We stand divided... I guess....
Glad I work so hard. . For what?
Us?
Our life?
Sides taken.... I still pay all of the bills...
House rules...
Keep talking.....

E.J.M.

You say things will change....
For the better....
For us to be together....
To talk every day...

I want to believe you....
but I know things won't....

Change

It's so hard to alter the direction of one's life...
The complacency becomes so easily done...
You will stay where you are...
because its easier...

I'll either continue to stay or eventually leave you....

Change...

E.J.M.