And these are the hell texts I never send to
a child I never had a hard chance with
a distance relationship with a little girl


Dear daughter,

How's your day going?
Can we chat?

I'm sorry but I'm not having a great day.

Maybe a visit with my daughter
who I Love
to cry about
in my dreams
will help me get away from
my current troubles with sleeping?

Yes, I have recurring nightmares of having had lost you
in some weird strange city
and I'm driving or running around not ever finding you.

I'm Going up to strangers asking if you have been seen.

I've lost her...

I can't find her ...

It's just terribly sad stuff you wouldn't want to dream and wake up crying about

Or want to forget it
happened when you wake up...


Somehow, I feel it's really real or
has already been happening.

Sorry so 😔

Gives into the chase
Faints Squinting to believe your
One lie at a time

From Ben Dover MA
  U are not my soil ph
  a NYmph minute fan

Next to a Panhandler
Who sells you with, " all of this...
will be yours one day"

only The Three feet of air above you
Counsels you on your peice of cake

Trade A cot and A hot, or exchange work
       that will fry your eyes on a sidewalk,

and fake it better
Than your spare change of heart,

        yearns better than for you
        Not slipping up, bubble clairvoyant

The staked cairn
       My chin propped up on
       to cry to sleep in the cracks opening

How fun it'll be one day,
rolls up in dark
canvas sleep & dream where I'm winning.

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  All in
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