I found a key
to unlock possibilities
a refreshing memory
to start anew
I found a key,
and that key was you

Your voice rings in my ears
such a tone no other can hear
the nights fading in,
tomorrow drawing near,
no longer shall I fear
the nightmares
that have disappeared

Awaken from my slumber
so tired and weary,
worn from the night;
so dark, so dreary
awaken from the beauty
I see when I dream
the forbidden imagery
I only see when I sleep

I found a key,
no man should ever obtain
the key unlocked a door
and there you were aglow,
but I could not hold you,
why do you torment me so?

dreams are such wonderful torture,
a goal you aren't meant to achieve
this key brought me to you,
laying here in my bed,
a jigsaw puzzle above my head,
I'm in love with every part of you
finally I can fall asleep,
knowing you'll be here beside me...

This key locked me away
I'll never see day
I'm bound to solitude;
So many letters, I'll never send
Because I'm never going to see you again

R.I.P. Jesse Michael Doseck (12-21-93 - 5-21-09)

To a dear friend,
our story's at its end,
the chapter cut short
in this book of sorts

I can't see your face,
the canvas left blank,
and these ships I will sink,
without pausing to think

Here pops a thought,
a thought from the past
from a time together,
which was our last

One argument it took,
for Him to close the book
its at this point I knew,
our friendship was through
I watched all of my ships
sink into the watery blue

Its four months today,
He took you away
I never got to apologize,
that morning the sun didn't rise
and it hasn't since

the butterflies have died,
it should come as no surprise

the fire in your eyes
will eventually subside
extinguished at the sight
of your life
denied

You define hate, everything I despise
you'll find another lover by tomorrow night

you're just another pretty face
with an angels grace
with a relationship to put to waste,
when it ends next month

You're like a ******* puppy;
you'll roll on your back for anyone who shows you affection

give me a reason why
you deserve a second chance
because I see not one;
live tonight, its the night of your life
but you can just as easily lose yours,
at the drop of a dime

I let down my guard,
and you taught me how to fly
I used to think you were one of a kind
Rather, a kind one won't find

Your porcelain skin
the face of a doll
Much too delicate
to brace your fall

I wasted an entire summer on you
Spilled out my heart
I thought I found someone who
could make me feel
a feeling so real

My emotions have decayed
Remove this knot from my stomach
And let me drift away

I will never trust you
I will never miss you
I will never love you
I will never kiss you

once a *****;
always the same
Its refreshing to know
some things never change

and if this is what
you call life,
then I'd sure hate to see
what death looks like

Our love thrown out the window
You no longer flood my head
So **** your rose,
I'd appreciate you more if you were dead

How did I wind up in this mess that I'm in?
You know we always said forever,
now we'll never be friends
you sealed our fate,
with a kiss on the lips
destiny took a twist
and now we'll never be the same

I'm sitting here (alone) with you,
locked in my conscience
trying to pick up the pieces
of whats left of this

I feel like I don't know you
after all we've been through,
All I feel is resent
and how much I hate you

Do I even know you?
how can I even pretend,
that these last few months weren't wasted,
you're so hard to forget

getting lost in your eyes
was my demise
the butterflies just won't end
and it comes as no surprise

I don't care anymore that
you wouldn't spare me the time of day
so we could mend all of this
And joke like it was yesterday
we built it all just to tear it away

We're dumb little kids
how did we wind up like this?

I used to think it was so hard
to find someone who
could make me feel that way
until I met someone like you
I just want to sit here
and laugh about who you've become
why do I find it so easy to say
you just weren't the one?

My dreams don't include you
I guess I've finally moved on

memories lost within the sands of time,
twisted and intertwined,
we find that we'll only get what we want
just to have it taken away from us

choose your destiny,
time is of the essence
I won't stay to watch you waste it
so whats it going to be?
hesitation will be our downfall

the silence screams louder than words
the quiet shatters like glass
blinding light illuminates my track
I've come to a cross in the road
this is my choice to mean more
than what I ever have before

though its less trodden ground;
I've chosen my path,
see you around