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Jan 10 · 93
WORDS! WORDS! WORDS!
WORDS! WORDS! WORDS!

I hide in a book
( in a nook )
as adults look for me

I hide in my book
( in the big bay window )
invisible to all adults

or a brush
makes my bed a tent
the torch reads the book

the book
my magic carpet
the smile of Scheherazade

I dive into the words
come up again at the last page
gasping for breath

asleep on the book
my head
amongst words

talking now
only in fragments
the burnt book
Jan 10 · 79
HOW MANY MILES. .?
HOW MANY MILES. .?

I try to
get back
to

the you
before you
died

you flicker
in the candlelight
I am trying to

not let the forgetting
happen
to you

but you begin to
fade and
falter

you tell me
to let you
...go

that it will be
easier
for me

but I would rather
own
the pain of this love

hold you all the tighter
smuggle you in a dream
across death's border

you are beyond Babylon
...the many miles to...
the childhood rhyme

I told you
"Can I get there by candle light..?"
I ask the dark

"...there and
back again..."
the emptiness echoes.

each night I fetch
your ghost
feeding it my pain

to keep you here again
only to have to
return you

when morning
brings a new day
you can never know

*

Brian was about ten or eleven when Jennifer Johnson's beautifully elegant and achingly sad novella HOW MANY MILES TO BABYLON  came out...I used to tell him the story and read bits to him. He had asked me why the book was called that so I would recite the little rhyme for him and then he would often repeat it to himself.

How many miles to Babylon?
Three score and ten.
Can I get there by candle-light?
Yes, and back again.
If your heels are nimble and light,
You may get there by candle-light.
THE MELAMINE TABLE TOP WITH
THE PINK GINGHAM TABLE CLOTH

You're kidding?

The goat is on
the table.

The goat comes in
( doesn't even bother to knock )&

stands on the table
for a good half hour

as if it were  an art installation
or some obscure goat ritual

that humans are
unaware of

as if it were a phrase
in a foreign dictionary

the equivalent of
the cat sat on the mat.

And when the goat
is done

it just jumps down
and leaves

just as it came

as if it were
the most ordinary

of ordinary things
to do.

Even now, I still see
the ghost of that goat

even though it was long ago
made into stew

as if the goat realised
that a time

would come
& come it would

when it would end up
on the table

but not of its own
volition.

But right now
it is standing its ground

on the Melamine table top
with the pink gingham table cloth

and becoming that something that
just can not be

forgot.
THE LOST MOMENTS OF CHILDHOOD RETURN

the trees stop running
the hills slow down
the station arrives at the train

he felt if he were to
let go of the tightly held red balloon
he would float away into the forever

the silence settles
upon him like invisible snow
even the noise is quiet

the teacher speaks to him
in visible italics
sarcasm staining the space between them

the teacher shouts in CAPITALS
he cringes in lower case
rubbing himself out

a snowfall of dust
upon the snail's back
sunlight shifts from foot to foot

a sunbeam slices through
the attic's ages
motes pretend they're atoms

the night like
black blotting paper
absorbs him bit by. . .

a yellow brick on a red brick on a
the ** ** ** of Christmas
my tonsils no longer mine

fields dozing
under an unrelenting sun
trees walking in shimmer

the world too big
to pack into the little words
he knew

in the space between
second and second
he sees the world as it is

*

These are the 'non-times" or times of no apparent consequences...remembered bits of nothing where the sense of a sense of things and how the world comes to invade my little head...where the thought can think itself but can't express itself in those building blocks of uselessness we call words.

They are of importance only in the fleeting sketch of my me-ness as it encountered a world that grew organically out of the time I was planted in. This is the place between second and second where the world comes into being.
Jan 8 · 80
AHHHH PEACE AT LAST!
AHHHH PEACE AT LAST!

goat is in the kitchen
chicken is in the living room
dog is in the bedroom

the cat is on the mat
the cow is mooing
in the window

the humans are out
visiting other humans
in the next village

if one could call it that
landscape is asleep
in the sun

animals
have the house
to themselves

*

When we returned all the farmyard animals had taken up squatter's rights in the house. We felt like intruders! When we tried to talk the animals into leaving they were like" "Wot? Wot!"
AND THE WAY UP IS THE WAY DOWN

"Footfalls echo in the memory..."

I still see you
in the rose garden

reciting Elliot in
those magnificent tones

although death
gently erases you

so that the roses
can be seen

through you
though your voice remains

true and strong
a swallow flies

through your eyes
you nothing now

but a ghostly aid
to my faltering memory.

I still miss your body
the shape of you

sleeping beside me
curled like a question mark

into my dreaming
back.

Never got used to
an empty bed.

Find I have to imagine you
conjure you up.

A sleight of mind
the smoke and mirrors

of desire
and wanting.

I prune my roses
"the poet's wife."

How we always laughed
at such a name

when you could never
write a word

only quote
your adored Mr. Elliot.

I prune
a rose that rambles

and oh dear
I appear

to have snipped off
your head

fading as it was
I will imagine another.

Your voice impervious
to the  secateurs.

"...for the leaves were full
of children..."

the children we
never had.

We lived our life
as if we had a wisdom

of our own
knowing

"If all time is eternally present
All time is unredeemable."
Jan 6 · 65
MEMORY MOTEL
MEMORY MOTEL

he burnt his draft card
she burnt her bra
they burnt their bridges

she was always Stones mannnnn
he a big Beatles fan
the only thing they argued over

took off for all that glittered
against their families' wishes
they rolled their own

the War happened
on the telly
kicks in her belly

saw the 60's through
saw through each other
divorced in '72

divorce was now
the war
the long battle

he took the boy
she took the girl
hostages to love

the kids hated
him...her
it

he runs through women
she runs through men
like its some competition

the needle gathers fluff
riding the black shellac
her life badly scratched

the needle falls
upon the floor she
don't know nothing no more

cleans her self up
kicks the habit
a health fanatic

becomes Mrs jones
....un-becomes
Mrs. Jones

now somehow here
in 2000 & 2 they
do the wife&husband thing again

they're happier this time 'round
he still a big Beatles fan
she still Stones...mannnnn!  

*

An almost iconic old couple so deeply in love they give off a tangible glow. I meet them on an old fashioned choo-choo puffing its way north to York. The train was a large catterpillar throwing a boa of smoke over its shoulder. I fell into talk with them and admired that their love must have been deep and profound to have lasted to this stage of their life...they laughed at this impression they gave and told me all about how they came about and how they came to be together so that their souls almost glowed with happiness and delight. The story they told me in deliciously thick Brooklyn accents was not the story I had expected to hear but an even better story than I could have ever possibly imagined.
MAYBE MINUS AN ANT OR TWO

after the picnic
they rolled up the sky
folded up

that particular patch of grass
plucked a few trees
put the sun back in its box

the kisses they hid
deep within themselves
so that

many years later
they could
unroll the whole shebang

savour the same scenario

down to the last dotted "i"
down to the last crossed "t"
maybe minus an ant or two

dressed as it is
in memory
but keeping the essential

ingredients...
the you...the I
until once again

it is
just as
it was

*


It's about a perfect day and with one last glance one tries to remember everything...burn it into the mind...each perfect detail. But Memory that imperfect creature will choose what to put in?leave out and so the stinging ants...out they go!
MY GHOST CHATTING TO MYSELF

knife flashes through flesh
the stunned silence
the wild scream of red

the pastpresentfuture
flows from the wound
time is thicker than blood

the assassination of Time
the body dying
to its sense of self

the world
leaking into
nothingness

my ghost
chatting to my self
in an amiable manner

the dead enemy
staring at
my dying

my friend whispers
"I'm not going to let you
die in this jungle!"

never thought I'd live to be
the old man
I am now

the friend who saved me
dead
only a week later

still remember the stare
of the Japanese soldier
looking bewildered he was dead.

*

What it takes to be a soldier...**** or be killed...he told me that he still sees that man every day of his life...the sweat on his skin...the sweet smell of his breath...the shadow of his eyelashes..

It was like watching a human being being turned inside out....the act of killing somehow dehumanises you...it doesn't matter that in this hand-to-hand fighting you literally come face to face with the person who is basically just another you and you...**** him by making this him ...an IT...**** or be killed but you also **** a part of your self to do it...the fall out is like an emotional atomic bomb that blights the rest of your life and poisons your future...it stops you being a normal human being...you know both what death is and what it is like to be death.
Jan 5 · 52
DU TEMPS PERDU
DU TEMPS PERDU

weather vane
rusted into a NNW
still facing into the long ago

paying little heed
to time or what
way the wind blows

the peal of a bell
nails our shadows
to the hard ground

the sharpness of sunshine
outlining everything
it touches

the smack of bat on ball
****** of tea things
broken china cup "...howzat!"

our shadows get up
walk silently away
they have business elsewhere

so here we are
trapped in this
one moment

staring blindly
into a future
we can not know

the white border
of the photograph
contains us

it is no longer
the 1930's
storm clouds gather

another generation holds us
between forefinger and thumb
war has come and gone

they must wonder what
we were
thinking when it was taken

we stare out at them
staring in at us
each unable to imagine the other

they remark that we
have their eyes...their faces
the resemblance there for all to see

they could just as easily
be us
"Ha ha...that's us...in fancy dress."

time doesn't seem
to have a moved
the weathervane still

doesn't know
which way
to turn
Jan 5 · 59
TO NOT TO BE OR TO BE
TO NOT TO BE OR TO BE

I travel into my death
forgetting this world of now
that has all but forgotten me

this world looks so
insignificant
like a planet reduced to a full stop

being dead
felt so alive
I didn't give the world a second thought

"...to infinity &. . .beyond!"
I grin to my self
seems a sense of humour survives

glad to lose the body
never did get on with it
think I'm going to enjoy just being thought

that's it
just thought
I think myself into being

I'm still me
only
minus my body

I think
then I am
my own creation

I've been to
nowhere & back
now I am an everywhere

here I am
& here I am not
the mesh of existence

I try to explain
my self to
my not-self

so now I
understand it all
it's. . .

*

A friend of mine telling me what it was like to die and then...not to die.
Jan 4 · 75
SHADOW PLAY
SHADOW PLAY

the shadow
(it seems)      
creates this stone

that I
(motionless
& still)      

sit upon
as if it were the centre
of this world

it is the summer
of my childhood
& the world

is making itself
known
to me

my mind
hungry
to learn

my own shadow
chained to me
like a soul to a body

longing
to escape
my mortality

it lies
like a fallen angel
thirsting for a Heaven

crestfallen at my feet
shadow plays
hide & seek

amongst the leaves
sunlight laughingly
chasing it

birds write
the notation of themselves
upon the telegraph lines

sounds morph
into each other
the moo of a cow

becoming the murmur
of a bee I try to understand
the existence of a me

the five-bar gate
prints its shadow
on the lane

smiling
at its own
distortion

wild roses
ramble from
hedge to hedge

honeysuckle
climbs
upon its own scent

I sit amongst
the milk churns
gleaming with the silver

of their laughter
as if I were one
of their number

waiting for a tractor
to escort us to
a faraway dairy

we three wise monkeys
(seeing)(hearing)(speaking)      
no evil

in this the innocence
of my new & only
world

*

"Often, when I was alone, I sat down on this stone, and then began an imaginary game that went something like this: “I am sitting on top of this stone and it is underneath. ' But the stone also could say “I” and think: 1 am lying here on this ***** and he is sitting on top of me.”

Carl Jung
Jan 4 · 59
STOLEN SUNLIGHT
STOLEN SUNLIGHT

that summer
the heat felt now
even from this photo

you looking in a window
I now looking in the window
of this faded photograph

I look at this photo
even in the dark
the Braille of your laugh

invisible
to Time
the me taking the photo

that 1950's summer
the sunlight stolen
trapped on paper

trapped on paper
your laughter
and its reason

the invisible me
making the visible you
smile for the camera

faded photo
the sunlight stealing back
its light
TÁ AN GHEALACH AG BRIONGLÓIDÍ
( The Moon is Dreaming )

I smiled
at the daytime
moon

all my life I had
been a lover
of daytime moons

a little piece of magic
hung up
in a sky

as if the moon had
shaken off its nighttime
moorings...sailed into our day

"Hey mister...mister!
a kid's voice breaking
into my moon reverie

"You've lost
yer moon!"
"?"  I puzzled

but sure enough
there was my moon
rolling down the hill

before happily plopping
itself into a nice
generous puddle.


I had rescued it it
from a charity shop
and knew it

would glow
in the dark
for my daughter

although
its Day-glo surprise
couldn't be guessed at now

it seemed happy enough
to be mud splattered
and acting |
as if
it were king
of its puddle

the kid pulled it
from its happiness
and punted it with

a fine Garry Owen
that I just about
managed to hold on to

it's dark side was
a bit
cracked

I rolled a pound
back down the hill
which was 50p

more that I paid for it
the kid just beamed
"Gee thanks mister!"

later that night
the moon hung
and twirled

on its string
above my daughter's
dreaming head

dreaming of its
own adventures
gazing at

the full moon
in the sky
daughter falling into dreams
Jan 4 · 43
GETTING TO KNOW YOU
GETTING TO KNOW YOU

carrying carefully
in my belly
your future smile

*

How my mother described the pre-Me before I actually came into existence as the me-Me that I now am...she said she had longings...to see my smile.  Then we sang GETTING TO KNOW YOU to each other from ANNA AND THE KING OF SIAM.

I trawl backwards and forwards in time...anyway the poet's mind is never chronological....this is the long long ago told in the forever present...I am a young boy getting to know...be aware of...my mother as she was before talking on the life task of being my mother...I am aware of her as the person she was...all the different selves....I could talk freely to her about everything and anything...I was always interested in the who she was and the why she was....I saw her as person in her own right...she was telling me what it was like being pregnant with me and how she longed for me....this was her lovely description of carrying me....and it lives forever in my mind in the present tense wishing for the future to happen. She was a lady in waiting and here via words I get to wait along with her...for me! So this memory hangs timeless in my mind...devoid of time....having no need of time and its tenses....not obeying any law but the law of love that does not abide by time's rules.
Jan 3 · 77
SHE SAYS SHE SAYS
SHE SAYS SHE SAYS

she presses her *******
cold against the mirror
tries to enter her own reflection

she says she wishes she was
someone else
so that she could make love to herself

after her shower
her hair cups her *******
like two alien hands

she says she
breaks into my (absence)
to steal my (presence)

she says she loves
the way I adverb her
the gentle "ly" in my voice

somewhere she
feels she's made out of a silence
where no sound has every fallen

she accuses me of
stealing her dreams
whilst she'd dreaming

she says she
adores being
on the tip of my tongue

she says my voice
is like the vowel O
in the word love

*


I wanted to get a montage effect of voices and conversations that just come unbidden back...like Godard's UNE FEMME MARIEE montage of images only mine would be of thoughts...feelings...emotions... traces of the love that would by now have floated away into the ether but slip back into the unconscious.
NO. 31 O'HIGGINS ROAD, CURRAGH CAMP, CO. KILDARE.

I climb a stair
that isn't there
stand on a landing

in mid-air
each step I take
creates the next part

of the vanished
house
lost to time

as see through
as a cartoon
ghost

this was
(still is) for me
No. 31

O'Higgins Road
my world
the universe of me

what was once
my bedroom...is now a cloud
a window become a moon

night
and its storm
sit in our living room

a bird tiptoes
down the stair
flying through

nine year old me
reaching for
the light switch

to turn on
what isn't
there
YES WE NEVER FOUND JESUS

I was there
the night
Jesus fell to earth

a great storm
announced
itself

and a glow-in-the-dark
plastic Christ on a cross
wrenched itself free from

its nails
leaving its hands
and feet behind

before it could be saved
our Golden Retriever
snapped it up

and escaped
the house
with Christ in its mouth

when at midnight
it had returned
from the wood

it was without Jesus
having  either lost
or buried Him

we questioned the dog
but it
wasn't saying anything

Jesus
was never found
even after all this time

all four of us
made up stories
of how now

He lived his life
and whether He
enjoyed His freedom

perhaps as a woodsman
saving Little Red Riding
from the wolf

or as a hermit
charming
the birds

or telling parables
to a troop of toadstools that
had grown up around Him

or
preaching to
a curious fox

guess he was happier
now at one with nature
and all his creation
ALL TAFFETA & TULLE

(For Angie Baby)

Frightened by the storm
he crawls under

his mother’s skirts
all taffeta & tulle

clinging to her
ankles

before falling
asleep

upon her feet.

She continues playing
her cards right

winning all before her

as the candles
gutter

and almost
go out.

She remembers her body
wrapped about him

her flesh
protecting his innocence

as now her dress
encloses his sleeping

unconsciously stroking
his hair

with her
left foot

his dreams now
pooled at her feet.

*

She was a remarkable woman with only a stump for a right arm but could play piano beautifully with her left alone. She also had a talent for  being able to do things with her feet just like you and I would use the hand. I remember her little boy being born and watching him crawl into being a fully fledged tottering walker. There was a great big storm and we were reduced to candlelight and kept on playing cards. Her little boy, for little boy he then was, crawled under the table and fell asleep for comfort at her feet. She continued the card game but stroked his hair with her foot as she played and went on a winning streak A woman doing the fabled multi-tasking but with a unique
difference.

Someone once said why didn't i write that detail about the arm into the poem but this poem wasn't about that and anyway it didn't define her or her life. What was remarkable was the terrible tender gesture of her hushing him to sleep with her foot whilst stroking his hair and...winning hands down. It was the beautiful gesture in the fantastic situation that eclipsed anything else.
INVOCATION
( for Mary Forde )

See the dead
bring in the hay.

Hear them call
all the cows by name

as the evening
ambles in.

Take the horse
out of her harness

whisper their thanks
to her.

Hands...rough hands
that mend a fence

fix a hedge
collect eggs...feed pigs.

The thousand tasks
of a farm dressed

in the glorious summer
of long lost ago.

Call them by their names
as you call them then

the child you were
reeling them in.

See them come
eagerly alive again.

Loving that you
have not forgotten them.

"Mikey...Seanie...Sonny...Granny...Nellie!"

Ghost voices
on the wind.

Fields fallow.
Home a ruin.

How time
crumbles away.

I gather you in.
Name you one by one.

Do not allow
time or death

to touch you.
Jan 1 · 55
HAPPY NEW...WHAT?
HAPPY NEW...WHAT?

the day
was standing
in the world

not knowing
just what
to do with itself

I was standing
outside
the world

not exactly eager
to be part of
the New Year

somehow I
had escaped
both time and space

but knew there was
no way out of it and
would have to return

a bird
sang
creation into being

and I had to step back
into the ways of the world
hoping against hope

that things would be
could be
better

but of course it was
more of
the same old same old


*


And now we welcome the new year. Full of things that have never been.

Rainer Maria Rilke
Jan 1 · 45
BIG HAPPY
BIG HAPPY

“You make me
so happy! ”

She says.

“Oh, I say! ”
I say.

“It’s such
a big happy

but it’s made up
of all small happies! ”

“The small happy
I can hold
in my hand

but the big happy
is like the sky! ”

She clutches me
hugs my knee
kisses my kneecap

then goes
out again

shouting to the dolly
she left sitting in the sand pit.

“It’s ok...I’m back! ”
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
EVER EVER LAND
(  for Mary Ford )

every year
Summer would come

and take the train
down to Cork

throwing trees
and fields at him

so that cows
and chickens came

to see how he was
getting on

since the last time
time had gathered them

together in
the one place

he talked to rivers
and skies

made up stories
for them to recite

back to him
which they did

so that they could live
in his mind

his Uncle Mikey
was a magician

making words do
whatever he told them to

Ballea was a fairy story
of a farm

full of happy
ever afters

that made him the Prince
of his own story

and that childhood
was a land

where he would
live forever
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
"... IN THE UNENDING AFTERNOON OF HER EYES..."

We drift from
Parisian museum to

Parisian museum
as if calling upon

some grand home
and the paintings deign

to see us
we the tourist class.

We are caught
in a deluge.

The unrelenting rain
tears time off

the present moment
revealing the past underneath

an older century
bleeding through.

How fragile are
les temps perdu.

I  whistle a motif
from César Franck.

"What's that ?" you say
"...the National Anthem of our love!"

I gaze up at Proust's
cork-lined room

102 boulevard Haussmann
now become a bank.

Imagine him there
glancing down at us

glancing up  at him
the slight movement of  blue satin drapes.

Or have I imagined him
as he imagines us

hurrying figures
from another time

the rain obscuring us
each from the other.

"Love..." Marcel reminds me
“...is space and time.."

his voice almost lost
in the rain's din

"...measured by the heart.”

"Allons Madeline....allons!"
A French mum scolds her sulky child.

The rain reigns
supreme.

*

By 1906, Proust’s parents had died, his brother had married, and he felt the family residence was too big. He moved to 102 Boulevard Haussmann(in the Ian Fleming novel Thunderball, it is described as "the solidest street in Paris" and the site of the headquarters of SPECTRE.) a building owned by his Uncle Louis, where he wrote the bulk of his work, mostly in bed.

Today the building belongs to the CIC bank, which has restored the bedroom, famously lined in cork for soundproofing, but the room’s contents are in the Musée Carnavalet, leaving the solitary chamber soulless..the silence listening to us not making a sound.
SPECTRE in some fictional alternative world still has its headquarters on Boulevard Haussmannn...a fact of which I was totally unaware being pulverised by rain and time....the moment coming apart at the seams.

A reconstruction, with original furniture, of the room where Marcel Proust wrote In search of lost time can be seen in Musée Carnavalet.

Off in a cramped corner were the reassembled pieces of furniture from Proust’s bedroom, including a five-paneled Chinese screen, a velvet armchair that belonged to his father and a writing desk, used mostly for piling books. He kept his notebooks and writing materials on an old rosewood end table beside the bed. Two other tables are adrift in this cramped tableau, one of which was used for his morning coffee tray, usually served with milk and croissants.

The original Boulevard Haussmann apartment was spacious but crammed with furniture, with double windows always covered by padded blue satin drapes. The bedspread was blue satin as well and there was a chandelier, which was never lit when Proust was working. The only light was from a long-stemmed, green-shaded lamp on the bedside table.

We were headed for the Musée Jacquemart-André, at 158 Boulevard Haussmann, the former home of banker and art collector Edouard André and his artist wife Nélie Jacquemart, recaptures the interior decor and lifestyle of respectable society. Proust was never a guest there, but he rotated in the same social circles, We were mere tourists...awed by the past.

As Beckett puts it in his essay on Proust...

"Life is habit. Or rather life is a succession of habits, since the individual is a succession of individuals; the world being a projection of the individual’s consciousness (an objectivation of the individual’s will, Schopenhauer would say), the pact must be continually renewed, the letter of safe-conduct brought up to date. The creation of the world did not take place once and for all time, but takes place every day. Habit then is the generic term for the countless treaties concluded between the countless subjects that constitute the individual and their countless correlative objects."

This poem is one of the countless treaties various individuals of me made with the moment in time that was mine being shared with Proust.

The enigma of the “little phrase” that “swept over and enveloped” Swann “like a perfume or a caress..." still lingers on as maybe Frack or as Proust admitted in a letter to Camille Saint-Saëns. I rather prefer Franck's Sonata in A major for Violin and Piano for its perfect cyclic beauty and its gentle reflectiveness.

But it was Franck's gorgeous Symphony in D minor( and the transformations of its four-bar theme )that I was lost in that day and became for me the "...national anthem of our love."

“It is only through art that we can escape from ourselves and know how another person sees a universe which is not the same as our own and whose landscapes would otherwise have remained as unknown as any there may be on the moon.”

The title comes from a lovely phrase that has always haunted me...

"...calmly imprisoned in the unending afternoon of her eyes..."

THE GUERMANTES WAY - MARCEL PROUST.
Dec 2024 · 41
WORLD WITHOUT FOOTFALL
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
WORLD WITHOUT FOOTFALL

The stairs sleep
in the moonlight

(haunted by shadows
& the ghost of shadows) .

They go neither
up...nor...down.

The stairs dream of stillness

of being
perfectly still

in a world without
...footfall.

And yet: my footsteps
awaken it

and it is compelled
to resume being a stairs

taking me up
to an attic window

with a broken latch
twisted shut with twine
& a tangled clothes hanger

where a moon
floats across its pane

as if drowned
& I

cry

at the absence
of you.
Dec 2024 · 70
A BIRD SOMEWHERE SINGS
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
A BIRD SOMEWHERE SINGS

he smiled
Death
smiled too

took a tiny sip
of water.
as did Death

Death now
mimicking
his every movement

shadowing him
becoming him
....in time

Death stared
out of the mirror
but the man didn't

recognise
that this was
his death

he had only
2 minutes
left to live

the man went on doing
some insignificant
ordinary things

D.I.Y.
finally
getting around to it

Death copying
the least
gesture

like a comedy
duo
in a vaudeville act

each little tic exact
like Groucho like Harpo
in his favourite movie

Death
lying on the floor
adopting the same posture

arms flung out
eyes staring up
into the nothing

the radio keeps on
talking
the phone rings

a bird
somewhere
sings
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE ******* TOWERS OF ILLIUM

"Is this the face that launched...."
the poet asks not knowing how

it all turned out
in the end.

And yes, this is the face that
ate a thousand chips.

No, they don't
tell you that bit.

Anyway, had an affair
with Troy( my toy boy )

and somehow it
all went wrong.

Listen now to Odyssey  sing
"If you're looking for a way out."

Plead with the ghost of
each former lover:

"Make me immortal with
a kiss...heaven is in your lips!"

Then cry myself to sleep
with a furry hot water bottle.
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
CALLING YOUR NAME
( for Brian )


“Love is space and time measured by the heart.”
― Marcel Proust



how, strange you were
and now
you're not

how, unbelievable I had
a brother
and now I've not

the world turned and somehow
you got off
Death -  that great Exit door

I have seen you dead
and still
believe it not

I follow in the footsteps
of your dying
speak your name

making you
come alive again
if only in sound

living
upon
my lips

you forever my brother
despite what
Death says

come
live in my mind
it's yours

see with my eyes
I'll share with you
what you can never see

be me
every now
and then

I've got life
enough
for two

carry you
through
all the world

carry you
through
all the days that remain

the price of this
great love
this great pain
Dec 2024 · 84
SHOE BOX
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
SHOE BOX

Curiously
no shoes

only a dance card
from 1932

totally filled in
by only 2 beau

who Tango'd &
Pas a Doble'd her

alternately
all night

waiting for her
to choose

one or the other
(both brothers) .

She choose the fair-haired one
(for his sense of fun)    

the red-haired one
(always so moody)    

never forgave her or
his brother

became a missionary
in Trinidad & Tobago
.

A lock of baby's hair
(still so perfect)    

bound tightly in pink ribbon

lost after only a week
of which they would never speak

as the dried up tears
like shrivelled mummified spiders

resting now
among a trove of birthday cards

that declare the passing time
gaudier year by year.

Old love letters
written in intense violet

on almost see-through
onion thin yellow paper.

The shoes she remembers
were a violent red

chosen for the same shade
red as her lipstick.

A neat ticket
for a Venetian vaporetto

unused from
1962

with a telephone number
scribbled in scrawl

hurriedly across it.

A beautiful button
(a work of art in itself)    

from a favourite cloak
left behind in a favourite pub

as England win
the World Cup

made her look
like Little Red Riding Hood

or as her hubby put it:
'A fairy tale...*** on legs! '

A ginger tom
(with one eye missing)  
sleeps on top

of all
this

as if it were his
own private berth

in this ship of foolish
things

her box of things
unaware

that Virginia
is dead.
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
"SO....THE DAYS HAVE WORN AWAY...HAVE THEY?"

Mrs. Havisham
ran from her dream
and into the arms

of her husband.
she was trembling
like a dying bird

held in the hand
tears falling on it
"Dearest...dearest!"

Mr. Havisham tried to
cajoled her back to
some kind of reality

"Oh, Mr. Havisham sir..!"
she palpitated
"I drempt I was on fire

and my world
was all cobwebs and dust
cobwebs and dust!"

"And, that...
I was never
married

and that I was
but a character in a book
by that Mr. Dickens!"

"Shhhhh...shhhhhh!"
her husband
shushed her

and she slept
in his embrace
as real as real

a ray of sunshine
entered their room
bowing before them

announcing
in a loud morning voice
"Your world........awaits you!"

*

I like fictional characters as they can be even further fictionalised! One can then give them other various possible possibilities and invent other futures...other lives for them and see how they unfurl themselves into whoever you make them be on just a passing whim. I've just wrote another called ROMEO &...MARY.

The title is of course my favourite quote of Miss H from the book but it always reminds me of a SAMUEL BECKETT line.

WAITING FOR THE MAN or UNHAPPY DAYS.
Dec 2024 · 75
THE TICK OF THE TOCK
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE TICK OF THE TOCK

the clock
stuffing yet another tick tock
into an already packed silence

the grandfather clock
stopping the mouse in mid squeak
pausing the spider that...weaves

"****!"
chanted the clock
"****! ****! ****!"

"****!"
the grandfather clock
freezing time for an instant

my young face
reflected in the grandfather clock
the big hand at my left ear the little hand at my chin

the seconds
swinging on the pendulum
of the old grandfather

"****!"
shouted the grandfather clock
lining up all the seconds into an hour

the grandfather clock
stopping grandfather in his tracks
to check his fob watch

TIME running
in fear of its life
chased by the grandfather clock

*

Tumbled out of bed with these running about my head...typed them in a minute and here they are running about the world riding ******* on an Internet....should have saved them for New Year's Eve but it was so nice to have thought them...wrote them and then Internetted them all in the space of 5 minutes. The grandfather clock just walked into my mind and asked me to write him so I couldn't say no...now ...could I?  

Next the nest of tables have taken fright and taken flight...oh now the chairs are staging a sit-in and the table has barred the door. I can't think...the light bulbs have gone on the blink. Help...the furniture is rebelling against its inhuman human masters.."It's curtains for you buddy boy!" the curtains sneer in a threatening manner. The windows don't know where to look. "It's all gone **** up!" shouts the unmade bed. The fridge is looking at me coldly. The chair is having it off with the stair. Where oh where will it all end! Helppppppppppppppppppp!!!!!
Dec 2024 · 55
DAYS WILL BE DAYS
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
DAYS WILL BE DAYS

The world awoke
to her.

Here it was
in all its glory

but it appeared to be
day-less.

As if it was just
a chunk of time

without a particular
day attached to it.

"How peculiar..?" she rubbed her eyes
"How...very. . .peculiar!"

But it somehow
smelt like a Sunday.

That stale smell of boredom
and time gone rotten.

Just then the clock
flicked over its neon green

numbers to create
the fact that it was

indeed seven and
indeed a Sunday.

She snuggled down
under her duvet

refusing to come out
and meet the world

which sent its sunlight
sneaking through the slats

in order to spy upon her
search her out.

She decided to see if
she could climb back into

the dream she had
been in

but it closed
itself to her.

It was no use.
Seven of the clock it was.

And a Sunday
to boot.

She yawned like a cat.
And the cat copied her.

Looking blindly for her glasses.
Finding them with her foot.

She tried to bring the world
into focus.

I don't like Sundays she sang
to the tune of I Don't Like Mondays.

Outside the window
the world waited patiently for her. . .
Dec 2024 · 111
FROZEN LAUGHTER
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
FROZEN LAUGHTER

we dashed outside
as the sky was
falling

“Crunch...crunch...crunch! ”
chanted the snow
as our footprints chatted to it

in a bold red
booted voice
and slowly a bird

wrote itself across the sky
with such careful
calligraphy

& our laughter
froze
right in front of our noses
Dec 2024 · 47
LONG NIGHT MOON
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
LONG NIGHT MOON

Winter tightens
its grip
on the landscape

fastens
the long night's cloak
about itself

a moon hung
above an horizon
for the longest time

the sun
hangs its head
in shame

I call your name
your name
like a spirit that my breath

conjures up
nailed to the night
with stars

each precious sound
written in frost
the world turns and you

are not on it -
I dare to speak
your absence

grief tightens
its grip
I fling your name

like a stone
at a careless universe
that is not listening

Death even further
beyond belief
than a small boy

can even
begin
to...imagine
Dec 2024 · 82
SNOWSTORMS ( for Junie )
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
SNOWSTORMS
( for Junie )

It was the most magical thing
I’d ever seen

a winter scene
with a stumpy little snowman

leaning on a broom
and snow coloured trees.

The snowman was always smiling.

Then the world shook
and turned upside down

and the blizzard began again.

Snowflakes falling in
slow motion.

I wanted them to fall forever.

My sister smiling at
my: “Again...again! ”

turned the little glass world
upside down

and once again the snowflakes fell
so slowly suspended in time.

I smiled at the snowman smiling.
My sister smiled at me.

I would spend time after time
forever after

playing with
suspended Time

stopping the world
to begin it again.

One day it fell
(shattered)    
and spilled out

all across the lace table cloth
lapping at the evil smelling geraniums.

The snowman was plastic
(and the snow was plastic too) .

Time poured itself out to
the edge of the table

& drip by drop
pooled itself on the living room floor.

Time was only an illusion
its mystery

nothing more
than my tears

crying for what could never be
again.

Somewhere in Time
a bus is crashing.

I can still see my sister smiling...

...a world falling out of her hand
Dec 2024 · 208
DER BERLINER REGEN
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
DER BERLINER REGEN

the past was busy
inventing the future
making it up as it went along

I was left out
in the rain
my mind rusting

my time
in the 20th century
was coming to an end

dawn saw
the 21st century
dragged in by the hair

and screaming
at the top of its voice
"I don't want to be here!"

"Ok ok!" I yelled
at the newest of centuries
"We better get on with it!"

"No time..."
like the present
it smirked

the Berlin rain
continued
to do its thing
Dec 2024 · 45
A HUMAN IS CRYING
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
A HUMAN IS CRYING

the dog is dreaming
under the piano
asleep across its foot pedals

the clock announces the seconds
in a loud hear ye hear ye
town cryer's voice

a bumble bee is arguing
furiously with the glass
of a cracked window pane

Time is
defeated
a human is crying

Time is different
for the clock, the bee and
the crying human

Time ceases to exist
lost in his grief.
his brother is dead

somewhere in the journey
around the sun
he has left the planet

earth continues on
without him
he sees his brother everywhere

strangers
wear his face
walk with his gait

he almost expects to hear
his voice in the dark
at the turn of the stairs

he sees him many times
in many mirrors
or in the back of a spoon

his face trapped
in a cobweb
it always appears as if...

as if
he has just left
the room and

will be back
any second now
but: he isn't. . .

the dog is still
asleep under the piano
the clock has run

out of time
the silence
is terrifying

the bee it seems is
dozing
on the window ledge

the human
is crying
...crying
Dec 2024 · 53
FROST AT MIDNIGHT
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
FROST AT MIDNIGHT

frost
etches a sketch
of its self

upon a window pane
drawing itself over
& over again

whilst outside
the moon
hangs suspended

above diverging roads
pondering which path
to take

as if it had promises
to keep
I just want to sleep

but I have miles to go before
reciting  aloud to the stars
Walter De la Mare's

THE LISTENERS
to myself
to keep myself awake.

the woods fill up
with snow
making everything

a ghost
of what
it was

the woods fill up
with snow...snow
memories of long agos.
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
AND THE WORLD WAS AS SIMPLE AS SNOW

You are like all
the dark shops of my childhood

where you enter
with the little ****** of a bell

and the world blossoms
into a myriad of things colourful

to sell
stacked

in impossible & impeccable
order.

All yelling
shining
glinting

wild & glassy.

And the cash register singing
with the hard earned money

and the little ****** of a bell
lets you out again

into a world
excited with the falling of  snow

& the palpable approach
of  a Christmas when Christmas was Christmas

and the world
was as simple as snow.


*

I used to save up all my little pennies throughout the whole year to get my Ma "4711" and me Da "Old Spice." These were their perpetual presents but they always pretended surprise. Then there would be the trek through falling snow to enter this magical store and to have it assault one's senses and zing all around you. I can still feel my hand in my big sister's hand...our footsteps echoing into the long long ago. This little scrap of remembrance is a little treasure that I hoard...real emotional treasure more gorgeous than gold.
Pennies meant that all during summer i would forgoe ice pops when all others would be licking theirs and I would be gasping for them. Every penny save was one step nearer that magical experience of being able to buy for them and their lovely lovely faces lighting up like they was little kids. I felt very adult then and it was worth it....seeing them see my presents was the best Christmas present I could get and it was hard earned a penny at a time.

I wanted a love poem that simply didn't say the ordinary I love you but pinned it on a feeling that totally enraptured me. "You are like...." and then we depart to the regions of a feeling that still shines as brightly for me as it did then.
Dec 2024 · 82
IF WE SHADOWS....
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
IF WE SHADOWS....

it was as if a cloud
had fallen asleep
in the lower field

it had already eaten
an unhitched wagon
and half a red barn

it watched us
approaching
from the yellow

windowed house
where the babies lay asleep
blowing spit bubbles

it seemed to smile in a
giant grey candy floss
way and then

started in on
first you and then
me or what

was left of me
that I could see
it had eaten all of you

except your excited voice
all you could see of me
was my nervous laughter

we had been evicted from
our known selves
and there was no known

forwarding address
we were all points of
the compass at once

“Moo!”
commented a cow
on the situation at hand

and “Moo” mimicked
the cloud having had
eaten everything

there was no place to live
except inside our thoughts
and our thoughts

walked our bodies
towards the barn that
like Mr. Schrödinger's cat

was either
there or
either not

“Moo!”
said a moo
“Moo!” said another moo

one moo almost
the clone
of the other

we had arrived
we were now
here

suddenly our arms legs and other
bits of our bodies were
returned to us

thanks to a light switch
that made us in our own image
so that we owned ourselves again

the cloud was sleeping
in the field one could almost
imagine it snoring

I clapped
my hands together
stomped my feet

“Ok!” I said
“…let’s get on with
the milking!"

*

Shadows look curiously 3-D in fog....and more real than us...I was thinking of Shakespeare's lines lost in the mists of my mind and walking with my little Tilly to milk the cows and see the new calf that had only arrived the other night. She had rushed in to tell me that there was a cloud fallen in the field and it was asleep. It was the first fog she have ever seen and this was her reasoned argument for it. We had to use the words "Fog, Lost, Directionless, Echo and Homeless" for the ideas to latch onto in the poem but not used the actual words themselves....say them without saying them....this was my attempt at doing that.
Dec 2024 · 55
IN THE TURN OF A TEASPOON
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
IN THE TURN OF A TEASPOON

so here I am
the earth takes another turn
without you...without you

I'm tied
to this earth
you're held captive by Death

sometimes I wish
that I could rescue you
but all I do...is...cry

all I got is my grief
Death the thief
only smiles

the earth takes another turn
(without you...without you)
so here..I am. . .


*

How even in the turn of a teaspoon with the freshly brewed cup of tea still smoking grief steps through the festive fun and we are greeted with the ghost of Christmas past. A teardrop later and the thought is pushed to the back of a mind and the ******* is taken out and the whole false ** ** ** of it all begins again. . .
Dec 2024 · 101
THE LONG HELLO
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE LONG HELLO

I left
my memory
in a run-down hotel

all damp patches
& peeling
plaster

who am I?
wish
I knew

maybe I'm a salesman
traveling
in lady's underwear

naw...that
don't
seem right

I looked into the blur
that formed & unformed
before me

constructing
in my mind's eye
a Hollywood smile

that's all stage set
nothing behind it
but...fakily real

she had an Art Deco heart
she wore on her sleeve
bit frayed 'round the edges

and a laugh
that lingered
like perfume

'Hi, Petal! '
her lopsided grin
was all femme fatale

she spoke in Film Noir
I knew
the lingo

'Remember me? '
she sighed softly
as if caressing herself

remembering
me
caressing her

I sure wish I remembered
it in intimate detail
I'm a stickler for detail

this broad was slim
but with curves
in all the right places

if ya get my drift
her laugh was all
lightness and lavender

'Good...good! '
she cooed
'I see

your *******
is at least
listening!'

I involuntary
covered my crotch
with both hands

as if I was naked
I wish
she was

her curves flowed
like very runny honey
over the back of a spoon

trickling on to
the tip
of a tongue

she was strictly
yum as in
YUM!

then she went
all Cubist on me
as if
she'd been badly drawn
by that
Picasso artist fella

I felt like a 2-D drawing
as she approached me
in 3-D

my conscience found
its voice down behind
the back of the couch

it wheezed and wheedled
like it was Peter Lore
'Ouch! ' I ouched.

'Ok...ok! '
I announced
in a too loud voice

'I believe
I know...
....who done it! '

'It was...'
I stammered.
'It was...' I stuttered

'Cut it...Cutes! '
she snapped
like knicker elastic

'I guess we both know the score.'
she somehow contrived
allowed her dress to fall

to the floor
where it pooled at her feet
like a green silk puddle

'Hey has anybody told you
you look just like *** a chelli's
Birth(I burp) of Venus! '

'Cut the wise cracks Jack...
it was the drink
...done it! '

'You just had
one bottle of Baileys
too many! '

'But now...
it's finished...ya hear
...finished! '

she threw the bottle
over her naked shoulder.
I listened to her

in glorious
Technicolour hangover.
She poured her body

all around me
like jelly
in a mold

'Hung over sure...
but
I think I got the cure! '

her kiss was like
the last page of a ****
good Who...dun it!

finally falling
falling
falling

into place
I kissed her
lovely face
Dec 2024 · 52
BAREFOOT
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
BAREFOOT

I follow
the road
of my father’s voice

journey with him
along white road
over green fields

barefoot
to school
& back

(shoes if at all
worn only
to church)    

picking up
the cuts & scabs
stubbed toes

his going to
school
would entail

in the early years
of the 1920’s
only so much

history to me
real
to him

his toes
knowing the wind
in the grass

for what it is
his toes
clasping a rock

fording a stream
Irish & poems
bubbling through his head

babbling along the tongue
words thrown to
those lost summer skies

startling a blackbird
spouting his poetry
with poetry of his own

(3 miles to school
and
3 miles back)    

his mind a skimmed stone
dancing along a river
over unforgiven stones

thorns attacking his feet
with undisguised relish

the vehemence of glass
glinting greedily
for the next footstep

the menace
of the twisted rusty nail
& its treachery

betraying the next footfall
as he walks over
the unremitting

years
into my eyes
wide with wonder

listening to him
tell of himself
as a little boy

to his little boy
the me of then
my eyes now

following
the road
of my father’s voice

as it wanders barefoot
through my tears
& memory
Dec 2024 · 60
THE WHO OF WHAT WE ARE
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE WHO OF WHAT WE ARE

the fog strips us
right down to our
voices only

leaves out the shape or
the skin we're in &
even what *** we are

we lose society's
references
how it elects to see us

stumble around in
this cotton wool
& somehow now

we re-emerge
our selves
tentatively again

you most definitely  
woman
I made man again

white skin
embracing
black skin

nothing now
but
love
Dec 2024 · 59
THE VERB “TO IS! ”
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE VERB “TO IS! ”

You ask me
politely

“What please
is the difference

between the verb
“to be”

& the verb
“to is”

“? ”

I laugh.

And you frown.

Pout.

“Laugh please
not at me! ”

“I have the desire
to learn learning! ”

“I’m sorry...forgive me! ”
“I do too! ”

And today
you give me

the gift
of the verb

“to is! ”

I hating
to correct

your lovely
words

when I love
what they do

teasing the language
(fire from embers)

as they glow
anew.

Always & forever
my love

is the
verb

“to is!
Dec 2024 · 73
TAKING BACK THE MOMENT
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
TAKING BACK THE MOMENT

the past sleeps
like a giant in a palace
made of years

a moment...thought
lost for ever
sunbeams trapped in a room

they flick and dart
all over the ceiling
goldfish in a goldfish bowl

memory dares
to waken the sleeping giant
demanding the sunbeams being goldfish

from somewhere in the palace
made of years and tears
the Past produces the moment

"Here...take it!" the Past rasps
begrudgingly giving it back
I take the moment and flee

far far
into the future
where nothing can touch me
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THE MOST HUMAN THING THERE IS

I watch intently
in my mind’s eye
an ancient Egyptian

scribe take up his pen
and write:
“My heart is in balance with yours.”

and laugh
at how
not an iota of love

has changed
since that then
& this now

through seconds
or centuries
Love flies

through hieroglyph
to cursive
English script

Love
the most human thing
there is
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
THAT LONG LOST CHRISTMAS NIGHT

our "I LOVE YOU!"'s
journey through the frosted air
dissolving in each other

we watch our words
travel across frosted space
our eyes hearing them

the words hung in the air
there
for all to see

our words
strung out upon the night
Christmas decorations

we like two dragons
labour to build
one snowman...one snow woman

we speak in speech
bubbles...word baubles
decorate the night

our words frozen
in memory's light
that long lost Christmas night
Dec 2024 · 139
LEARNING TO BE. . .
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
LEARNING TO BE. . .

been dead a week
before I knew it

thought the world had gone
a bit transparent

people walking through me
like ghosts

only I was the ghost
just couldn't get used to it

bit boring being dead
nothing much to do

except hang around old haunts
and try to remember who

the hell I am
who I used to be

and what

happens now
I mean is there a part 2 or what

or is this it

and when does Heaven arrive
or

does it?

I watch the rain
falling through me

my 3 year old cries
her tears hurt me

I want to cry but
- can't:

*

A friend of mine "died' for a couple of minutes and I asked her did she float to the ceiling and look down upon her self or go towards a beautiful bright light at the end of the tunnel only to be turned back? Instead she said she saw herself as her own ghost trying to get used to "this being dead lark" and watching her little girl crying over her. She thought: ".. if this is the afterlife...it *****!" and made a conscious effort to come back and come back she did! Dying wasn't for her! She is at the moment living...happily ever after.
Dec 2024 · 79
HEART GALLERY
Donall Dempsey Dec 2024
HEART GALLERY

you step forth
from your bath
as if

you were
a Bonnard
come alive

spread yourself
across crisp cool sheets
as sensationally

sensuous
as a Modigliani ****
or a Noguchi sculpture

here you
Matisse
if only

for a brief
moment now so
Ernst

now so
playfully
Picasso...ish

I smile
as you
Vermeer

"Come here & kiss me!"
you my Magritte
you my Dali

You my laughing
walking talking
'art gallery
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