i wish you'd write back to me 7.19.25 5:39 pm /17:39
oh, -------,
sometimes i wish you would write a letter back to me.

sometimes i wish you would log onto your old macbook
instinctively go to hellopoetry.com
type in my ariana grande username
find me and my words
find it, these lost sentences,
these trembling letters
i've been trying to send you.

i see why you don't-
the fear that maybe,
one day,
we will wake up and realize we don't love each other
that we don't know each other like we think
we do.

i haven't sent you a letter
because i don't want you to know but i want you to know
that i love you
but what if, what if, what if
one day i don't?

the uncertainty of being not torn apart
but drifting
finding someone new and
figuring out ourselves, finally,
finding that we don't need each other anymore.

of course that's not why you love me
or why i love you

i get that
i get that fear.

but you are not afraid
because you don't even know
that this whole time

i have been screaming
your name.

Strung prose
Like puzzle pieces
Broken across the page
No longer
Im too linear now
For all that
Maybe
Before long
I'll write
Instruction manuals
And think
They're poetic

Fear to ROAR
Fear to wear
Fear to strike
Fear to strike out
Fear to break

Fear of  Fear
When Fear Gulps
the you
In you
Let the fear be
the fuel for fire 🔥

i am weary of the
longing;     the black
cat blinksslow.    i
am tired of the loving
,loving take me home

Those glinting, scintillating, cascading, droplets 
Rippling the surface of my garden pond,
Are either reaching up or curtsying down.
It all depends, you see, on the Sun’s bright smile, 
Or on its shaded frown.