Here the two eyes did fatefully collide
Though dwelled two souls they were one
And though she was not formally his bride
The battles only began; yet the war has been won.
But still arises new heights to the skies
Though he lost his life a myriad of years past
With warm and calculated lies
She convinced herself his breath was not the last

A million well threaded conspiracies
Yet no sunshine after a storm
And it always appears to be
There's a lingering undying warmth,
That no matter how many years it's been
for her it's ; forever twenty-sixteen

What has society become...

Where a birthmark is considered a stain against beauty
And we keep our voices silent, afraid to defend the weak,
where people cheer on violence, just because it's the easier route.
We've created isolation within crowds from bytes on a screen,
created complete violation of privacy from ones and zeroes
without realising that it's always been partially for nought, zero.
We've sat silently by while our friends beat on each other with words
that could **** the broken and the words spoken differ from words heard.

We've handed death in a bottle to those who sought it,
instead of providing the care and help they needed
because it was easier to coat emotions in pills
than help a person climb an emotional hill.

We've painted portraits of war, labelled it as history
Coated clear conscience with tangent trivial ties;politics
run rampant on our psyche and we judge people as items
pushing purchasing prices for those who hold quality.

My only best guess is to just hit reset
because the bigger picture hasn't been taken yet.

The tiles turned to dust,
The metals turned to rust.
The glass turned to shards,
That is when people turn to bards.

I'll carry the burden of a billion heartbreaks
As long as I know you'll be happy

I avert his gaze
his hand sliding up my thighs
as my voice muffles.

I let out a scream
silence is all I could hear
as I see his eyes.

His eyes pierce my soul
tainting that one part of me
that felt always clean.

I took a shower
I took a hundred showers
but it still lingered.

It will be ten years
it will be twenty full years
but I felt empty.

He picked up the dead rat and threw it on the table**,
We as freshmen of high school were always told this fable,
Of the great disgusting James who had no shame,
Oh but no one looked around and put autism to blame,
So while James is being poked fun at,
There's a dead rat at the table we sat.

To my new Hello Poetry friends who has helped me see the light once again. I know I've been an emotional wreckage the past few days, but I thank you all for the support you have shown me. I promise you I will stand on my two feet and carry the world on my shoulder again one day. Special thanks to carol, spt, nameless,rosalind, julie, lucinda and eve who have taken the time to message me and encouraged me to keep on writing as well as made me understand myself better so I can better myself. I thank you all. Thank you Hello Poetry for showing me what it's like to appreciate stars in my life without having to look upon the darkest part of our lives; the night.

I love you,
A million things come from just three words,
But when I say I love you,
It goes beyond words, I want to love you the way birds,
       Love.

     I want to love you like an albatross,
Reminisce on how our paths cross,
      Hold you in my giant wingspan forming a lover's cross.
Let you make your mark across my breast, crisscross,
To let you know that no matter how far I fly,
     Whether I'm low or a mountain's summit high
   My heart will always ever be yours.

   But that might not be enough
Because love is more than just things and stuff,
   So when I say I love you,
I want to love you like a seagull,
       Keep you sheltered under my wings, keep you whole,
I want to love you like a seagull,
      Tell you, like a seagul stealing food, is my heart you stole.
I want to hold you under my wings and lift you up,
      Or let you fly freely when you've had enough.

I just want to love you,
     Love you like expression of birds,
For I want it to be felt not heard,
           And that's why I want to be your loverbird.....

      But what is loving you really?

Are we official enough,
To go and do stuff?
Are we official enough,
To fall in love?
Are we official enough,
To eat till stuffed?
Are we official enough,
To finally wake up?
Are we official enough,
To finally break up?
Are we official enough,
To finally make up?
Are we official enough,
To finally unite us?
Are we official enough,
To make love?
...
Are we official enough,
To have kids?

If I should see the world for its blinding light
I'll find shades of pessimism in complete optimists
I'll find dawn in dusk and noon in night
I'll find that I am rather drawn to the distorting mist.

Blind sided by the lights provided
Trusting liars who stab at backs with knives
Misplacing words that I have confided
Upon those who find joy in destroying full lives.

Roses are red, Violets are blue
Is that even true?

We hang onto composure,
For when the sky bends,
When the wall closes in,
We hope it never ends.

We grasp at beauty we hold,
So when the stars starts to dim,
The night becomes frozen wastelands,
And everything begins to look grim.

We hold on,
Never letting go,
We stood standing,
Never letting anyone know.

One weekend passes,
I attend my classes,
But there's one realization,
That without hesitation,
I am a better man than I was.
A happier man than I was,
For I conquered my first,
Heart break.

Now off to party yo.
So I won't be writing
As much.

Ciaos.

Cya lovely folks around.

I'll still read so if you
Message me I'll still
Respond.

I didn't breathe.
I didn't sleep.
I didn't sing in the showers.
I didn't dance in the day.
I didn't talk.
I didn't eat.
I didn't drink.
Because I didn't see a point,
Of doing those things anymore.

Where the impossible is possible
Not in between improbable or probable
But in simplicity just possible.

Where Superman soars in the skies
Shooting lasers from both his eyes
Where glasses are the best disguise.

Where super human traits are in all of you
Where there's a special thing in all of you
That makes you more special than anyone; it's true.

It's my world,
Where everyone is a rose
And all rocks hurled
Only new strength and courage arose.

I was a boy,
A boy who could only see the dark nights,
Even as I was witnessing a sunrise,
All I saw was a dark night.
Everything felt bleak and hopeless,
Nothing to see and nothing to do,
Don't get me wrong I was never blue,
For there was no colour that described,
Seeing the skys tilt in my minds,
The grass as slithering snakes,
And the people I call friends,
Turn on me.

When I was fourteen,
Muddled up in the dark world,
That was my reality.
I got to know this one guy,
A heart so cruel,
That was not moulded by circumstance.
I could never look at him the same,
He had beat up a handicap kid,
A kid whos whole life was viewed,
At the height of a wheelchair.
Adding insult to injury he did it,
To steal the kid's phone.

I figured one day I'll see a world,
Where darkness does not blossom,
Where darkness is eradicated.
Yet as I walk around my neighbourhood,
It was never any different.
The people held smiles full of false hopes,
The parents who held their kids hands,
The couples who held each other to make out,
None of them seem to realize,
That evil lurks around.

I spoke with a mate of mine
We've been mates since nine
I asked him about his love life
Whether he's found a wife.

He says 'I don't plan to marry,
Too many burdens to carry '
I asked 'so what's your plan?'
He replied 'just do what I can -

'I'll take care of my birthgivers
Till they can't feel any shivers
In other words, simply gone,
Then I'll eventually move on'

I couldn't fathom how easily
He spoke about death of family
It felt really personally strange
I wondered if he was deranged

He then said 'everyone dies -
And we all must say goodbyes
So why pretend it won't be
When that's all some people see'.

He continues 'marriage isn't a must
It takes years of bonding and trust
Marriage is something people sell
To those who think alone is hell -

You don't have to be with someone
Just to consider doing something fun
So stop buying into lies society sold
Because sometimes even love gets old'.

I am choosing to stay single until
The day someone makes my world still
And I fully know that she's the one
Who gives me a feeling that I've won.

Should I never find this lovely lady
I can live alone till I'm eighty
Because I'll be able to walk a mile
All alone while carrying a smile.

Stop chasing love and it'll find you
It'll blind you and bind you
To someone who makes you feel
That the sky is not blue but teal.

One day
              Fine
Today
        Not so fine
Tomorrow
                  Hopefully so.

Cheeks
            Blemished
Eyes
           Sullen
Hair
          Mess
Me
        Hideous

One day
                     **FINE

"When the wind burns torturous,
And the heat scorches us,
Remember that I would always shield you",
she says as her arms reach for my back in a warm embrace,
dislodging all the shards of glass impaled in my heart,
"I won't ever let go, nothing will tear us apart"
She whispers into my right ear.
I gazed into her beautiful black eyes,
An overwhelming feeling that I was soaring in the skies,
I asked, "Are you drunk? cause that's the lamest ****,
ever".

....Somehow she knew,
That I meant
**"I would hug you in my arms forever,
I would give you my life,
I would give you everything I am,
And everything I have".

       She didn't hear the words,
But she uttered the three words that told me she knew,
                      "It's all ok"...

I just heard you found the one you've been looking
You've been looking for
I wish I would have known that wasn't me
'Cause even after all this time I still wonder
Why I can't move on
Just the way you did so easily
......

I overdosed
Should've known your love was a game
Now I can't get you out of my brain
-Charlie Puth

They say true love lasts a lifetime,
I wonder what kind of love lasts all lifetimes?

To miss Iverson
You sure write lovely haikus
Care to teach me please?

Do you feel like a window with no glass?
The way it's holding intact but lets everything pass,
Do you feel like a chair with a missing leg?
The way it can break any minute like an egg.
Do you feel like a book without any words?
The way you can be read but rarely ever heard.
Do you feel like a cow without its moos?
The way your voice goes unheard and unused.
Do you feel like a bird without wings?
The way you feel so trapped like you're bounded by rings.
Do you feel like a heart without a ribcage?
The way a book can be understood without turning a page.

I was but a speed bump in your road of life.
Dorothy followed the yellow brick road,
You followed that path with a heavy load.
Burdened by bleak tales from the past.
I tried to follow the same path with you,
I wasn’t the tin man so i had to say adieu.
I had a heart the size of a watermelon,
And for you, it continually beats in random.
I was happy to follow you slowly in tandem,
Even if it was for a while.
I wish you all the best with your new sweetheart,
And hope that both of you never grow apart.

I have four scars on my face.

The first one from a little girl
Apparently snatching toys
Is the equivalent of stealing
Hearts to a five year old girl.

The second one from a *****,
A ***** was lodged into tissues
And while weeping, I
Stupidly used a tissue that left
A ***** size scar.

The third one from a party,
One where I thought it would be
Smart to play traffic police to
A fight between two teenagers,
Screaming 'stop and go' for turns
Of punches.

The fourth one is a scar
That started in my heart,
A permanent indentation,
A resultant from too many sad days,
That forced a frown to be my natural face.
The fourth scar is the scar
That made me lose my smile.

You don't have to be perfect.
You don't have to be good.
You don't have to be anything
But yourself.

Which self you ask?
The self that you want to be.
The one that you recognize.

Please remember no matter what
My heart is still with you.

Remember my words,
I love you now and forever.

Remember your own words too.
Even if they were fake,
They are really true.

Please oh please don't give up.

I shed my armour,
Displaying my vulnerabilities.
I shouldn't have.

I do not love you as if you were oceans, or aquamarine,
Or the ice cubes that lay to melt as time passes.
I love you as precious petals are to be adorned,
by the stem, in between the Earth and the skies.

I love you as the stars visible in the day
but kept to say all the silent beauty of the night;
thanks to your love for the lit path guidance,
illuminated by a livid canvas, yet alive in my heart.

I love you simply because it is impossible not to,
I love you with every part of my cells and molecules,
so I love you because I can't not love you.

then know; if I live on with every breath, so do you
In my thoughts, my memories and heart,
In my thoughts, you spun the strings of my heart

Came to be in a place that is dark and desolate,
Because the light that materialized things faded,
Now its almost an abysmal pit of the ill fated,
Yet I still grab at the vines of renowned pestilence,
Stuck in an emotional pretense of feeling sedated,
Maybe....
            Just maybe....
                                If we hang....
                                       On long enough....
We'll eventually descend the same road,
       And
               Make
                          Our
                              ­   Way
                                         To
                                              Love
           ­                                             Again...

She is a billboard on the walls of train platforms
With the corners and edges coated in dirt
She remains there hanging and slowly being torn
But yet she never complained about being hurt.

Adverts of tampons and pads
Amongst some other strange fads
Bombarded the beauty of the billboard.
She was something money could never afford.

He came across the billboard.
Stared in admiration. ...

Brick by brick,
   The wall that we built,
        To barricade us from the world
Reinforced by our promises to one another,
             Strengthened by our love,
                Brick by brick,
                  Came  t
                              ­   u
                                     m
                                          b
                   ­                           l
                                    ­            i
                                                   n
                                                       g
   down,
           **Brick after Brick,
             Stone after Stone,
               Concrete after Concrete,
      Till there was nothing left.

Why does you car sound like its having diarrhoea,
Why couldn't you drive something like a kia,
More quiet and peaceful than that humming earthquake,
Our house literally began to shake,
Waking up the baby and everyone in the house hold,
Let me tell you something that you weren't told,
The louder the car does not mean the bigger the ****,
Just means the wall that is you has more bricks,
If you don't get that it's probably cause you're dumb.
So please either sell your car or remove whatever,
**** heap piece you added thats making me lose sleep.
My patience and anger for now will keep,
But you don't want to see me after a night of no sleep,
I am warning you.

The butterflies in my stomach, their wings flutter
as lapsing light unmatched your eye colour,
I wanted so hard to pretend this wasn't happening
pretend that I did not find who my heart desires
but there's a fire that spreads once it's ignited,
And I wish I could fight it; oh how I wish I could.
I could not ever go a day without you;
without letting my heart colour my world your hue.
You are you; you are perfect
You are beautiful, beyond the surface.
You are you, and you make me happy;
so please don't be mistaken,
when I tell everyone that I'm happily taken.
I am yours.

You can compare them to hotties,
But stars are celestial bodies,
With the light that they beam,
Only with the heart can they be seen,
So as they learn to set the scene,
We gaze upon their brightness,
Because in total darkness,
They are the only thing,
Bright enough,
To light up love.

I'm sat here
Wondering how it went
When the sky bent
Seemingly
I remember sixteen
No matter how many days
It's been
I remember you
Coming home
But it's all so different
I guess what I'm trying to say
Is I kinda wish you'd
Come home again
But then
I don't know if I'll be scared
Or saddened
Wondering if you missed me
Knowing that it's history
But I want you to know
What you really meant to me
And though I'd left you
At mystery
I always wondered whether we could come back
To where we first met
Holding the roses on my chest
Telling you you're beautiful, all over again,
But I've only partly mended
Oh how I wish to see you again
Giving you my favourite pen
Listening to the songs we'd love
Only to realise I'm all alone.
I just wish I could tell you
All of the things I paid hell to
I just wish I could smell you
Let you know,
I'm thinking about you
And all the things we used to do
I don't know if I can live without you.
I don't know if this is called living.

Sometimes it gets easier,
The feelings it passes
And with every class,
I come full circle
To missing you again.
I guess you were right
I am like a turtle.

Why is it that thoughts of you
Never seem to vanish
And though time could stand still
Darling know that's not enough,
I need it to reverse
And hope that you can come back home.
Maybe history is cruel
Keeping my mind on you
Just to see me go insane.
You'd walk through every door
But the one I want you to walk through
Is stuck between life and death
And so I promise this...
Even if it takes my last breath...
I will live to be the man
That you dreamed of,
I will live to be the man
That you envisioned to be perfect.

And I know I'm not much
Nor will I ever be right enough
But darling know that I'm going
To do what's right by you.

I will be a loving husband
I won't ever be a has been,
I'd give my wife
A man with full abs,
I'd give my wife
All the pieces of my heart
And though it's only words
Know that I've tattooed it in my soul
That I will be the man
You have always dreamed of.
That I will hold every piece of you
In my arms.

To love or not to love; That is the question:
Whether to hold hearts hidden in shade
Or to let loose the leashes and allow escape;
Was't in her beautiful smile,
Or was't in how her mind was such alike to mine,
Nay!. It was the way she looked like the sun,
as it shone light on the moon,
Never to expose its flaws
But to embrace its beauty.
The way she makes me laugh non-stop
Simple by just one message
Or the way she show her care for me
Despite never meeting me yet.
I can not wait to be able to confess my love
To her as we are immersed nothing
but each other's embrace.

To love or not to love; that is the question:
And to love , is always the solution.

Waking up to the screams of a crying baby,
Makes me appreciate my mum,
For not having dropped me off at a church,
And upon this I still wonder,
Why are there still mothers who would do so much,
For something that would drive most insane?

I wish I could confess
To say ‘ I could care less’,
It was my fault for being too careless.
Now I’m looking for spare parts,
To rebuild the pieces of my broken hearts.
I don’t remember if there were one,two,three or four,
Because I don’t remember having a heart before.

My days, I conquer
With the support of *****,
Just trying to live.

Sleep evades me,
My dark surly bonds,
To my old acquaintance,
Holds on tight,
Imperishable,
Insosmnia,
Is truly the writers
Affliction

Last night something died,
It crawled with its bleeding heart,
Upon my doorstep.

I thought I could help,
I thought I could save a life
But hope is fickle.

Buried in the dark
Where stars try to penetrate
The soil with its light.

I weeped at your side
And I'm sorry I couldn't
Have saved you dear friend.

I watched you fade, gone,
But in my heart you live on,
And I'm sorry dear.

The cloud fades away and the sun rises,
We jest about today being our new beginnings,
When nothing has really changed.

He lived once,
To see the sun,
To see the smiles,
To see the stars,
To see the moon,
To see the light,
To see the dark.
To see the girl,
To see the sickness,
To see the hospital,
To see the heart,
To see the scalpel,
To see the transplant.....


.....He died once,
To see her happy and alive.