Star Gazer: Favorites

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

Send me on my way,
To the land of light
And dreams;
Where happiness and joy
Pour down into streams.
Send me on my route,
To the land of peace
And love;
Where beautiful golden light
Shines down from above.
Send me on my path,
To the warmth of arms
And hands;
Where I may feel safe
By the sea and sands.
Send me on my road,
To the fields of flowers
And stars;
Where butterflies flitting about
Kiss my many scars.
Send me on my journey,
To the place of beauty
And wishes;
Where love and light combine
In small, sweet kisses.
Send me on my way,
To the land of bliss
And dreams;
Where I won't wake
Until the glorious sunlight gleams.

September 19, 2016

#love #kisses #happy #dreams #joy #sweet #journey #light #wishes #bliss

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

Hurting

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

Hurting

I hurt.
You hurt me.
You took away my innocence.
How could you do this to a little girl?
I was so sweet and innocent.

But that was ripped away from me.
You cut into me with your lies like a knife.
You made me what I am.
How could you?

You will never know my pain.
You will never understand what you ******* did to me.
You will never understand anything.
Because I won't let you.
I won't explain myself to you.
I don't need to.
You took away my innocence.
My trust.
My happiness.
You took everything.
But I won't let you take the new light I've found.
I won't let your image cloud it over.
I won't let my ***** past form a fog over my new future.

You hurt me.
But guess what, *******?
I'm gonna get up,
and I'm gonna hurt you back.

August 12, 2016.
Wrote this today on BlindWrite. It's about my past, and the ****** who ******* with my head and messed everything up.
http://blindwrite.herokuapp.com/

#pain #hurt #past #***** #innocence #*******

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

The Best of Me

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

The Best of Me

I could end it all;
Right here, right now.
I'm home alone,
And I shouldn't be.
I'm dangerous.
I'm ugly.
I'm stupid.
I'm an addict.
I'm awful.
They shouldn't have left
Me all alone with my thoughts.
Because my thoughts
*May just get the best of me.

September 29, 2016

#suicide #cutting #pain #sadness #dark #hurt #thoughts #knife #pleasehelpme

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

Something More

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

Something More

I like when you show
That you care,
I really do.
You don't even realize
How happy it makes me
When you defend me,
When you protect me,
When you hug me tightly
Telling me "It's okay."
Even now, I mentioned
I missed talking to you;
You swooped in and
Decided you were going
To make it right.
So now we're talking more.
Once again, my wonderful
Best friend and I
Are enjoying our friendship.
It brings me joy
To hear you laugh,
To see you smile,
To listen to you sing
Melancholy love songs
And songs that we both love.
I just wish that our talks,
Our hugs,
Our games,
Our singing,
Our jokes,
Our songs...
I just wish they would turn
Into something more.

October 29, 2016
I've fallen even deeper into this pool that I've made full of love for you, and I can't get out.

#love #jokes #iloveyou #talk #laugh #inlove #bestfriend #hugs #singing #somethingmore

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

Depression Has a Hold On Me

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

Depression Has a Hold On Me

It's hard to get along
In life when Depression's
Hold on me is so strong.
Holding me under and
Causing me to drown
In my own thoughts of
Worthlessness, shame,
Pain, harm, death, sadness.
They're overwhelming.
I can't sleep, can't breathe;
It's begun to affect
My relationships;
It's hurt me more times
Than I can count.
It causes other conditions
Like anxiety and OCD;
Which in turn causes
My Dermotillomania
And over-analyzing
Ways of thinking.
I'm so tired of it.
I just want to sleep forever;
Lay in his arms
And just fly away into
A beautiful dream for
All of eternity.
Please, I'm so tired.
Please, I beg you,
Let me have peace and rest.
*I'm...
So....
Tired....

October 14th, 2016

#depression #sadness #death #anxiety #sleep #tired #helpme #ocd #bringpeace #dermotillomania

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

I Don't Sing In The Rain, I Hum Along To The Sound Of My Tears Dripping On The Floor (senryuu)

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

elizabeth

I Don't Sing In The Rain, I Hum Along To The Sound Of My Tears Dripping On The Floor (senryuu)

Laying quietly;
Humming harmoniously
In time with the rain.

December 27, 2016

#depression #sadness #tears #rain #sing #sound #humming

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

something spooky

Dec 2016 Star Gazer

Pretty girl

something spooky

the demons creep closer to the bed
Each night one more inch
We... I see children with black eyes
They want me to let them in
So into my room i go to hide under the covers as if that would give me any more protection
Like I said before safety in fabric is a real thing
And if I can't see you then I'll assume you can't see me hiding under my sheets
Why can't angels gone bad leave me alone
And I don't want to go home
Because when I'm in my dark room its so loud I can't hear myself blink anymore