Stolen at "hello"
Lost at "goodbye"
Do you think about me
From time to time?

I love you to the moon and back
You're my favorite heart attack

Keeping food on the table
Is what he does
He pays the bills
He's way above
Petty arguments
And silly games
About small things
That stay the same
I'll never forget
The sting of his hand
He reminds me everyday
I literally can't
Not that I want to
I want it to stay
He pays the bills
I know my place

A bad smell lingered in the air
And reminded me of the beach
And suddenly I wanted to run along the shore
Just you and me
But who are you anyway ?
And why are you in my head ?
Oh right, you're just my imagination


The real you is dead

Take my liver
My kidneys too
Give them to a child
That will grow up to
Be something great
Save the human race
Or even have the strength
To keep themselves awake
And suffer another day
And take another breath
Give them to someone
Who will try their best
Toss away my brain
It's got no use anyway
Take my heart
It's yours to take
Cut me open
Take me out
Make me useful
Without a doubt

We're both a mess
But we're worse together
We're both a mess
But we're better off together
I'm bad for you
You're worse for me
We were made for each other
Can't you see ?
You walked a mile with roses
But left them behind
It was more than enough
To change my mind
So please let's just forget
Let's get high
And ignore their calls
All through the night
Driving down dusty roads
Your hand on my thigh
We need each other
You can't deny
We're on our way out
Ready to die
We'll meet each other again
In the afterlife

Karma’s a *****
You reap what you sow
I only know this
I’m good in my soul
I always mean well
Sometimes I forget
It’s just hard to tell
When your eyes are wet
I love the sunshine
And warmth of white sand
When the tears dry
I’ll hold your hand
A thousand times
I’ve thrown you away
Even still
You choose to stay

Dead skin under fingernails
Chewed up lips and dried tears trails
Adrift upon the wave of calm
That followed the storm that rages on
It's subtle now, rumbling in my chest
It won't give me a moments rest
With just the bump of a restless wave
It consumes my body in raging flames
In its glow I still see your name
When everything's gone it still remains

Putting together
The pieces of last night
When have I ever
Gotten that high ?
My phones got a new
Crack in the screen
Watercolor bruises
And cuts on knees
Fumbling around
For wallets and lost keys
I just can't seem
To remember at all
So I'll let it slip away
And seep into the walls

Call me Betsy
See if I give a ****
Haha let’s see
Where you’ll end up
If I outlast you
It’ll be quite fun
It probably won’t happen
So you’re in luck
You better pray
The decisions not mine
I’ll choose the ******* place I can find

There's something lively
About your skin
Raw and pale with a pinkish tinge
It appears
To be well lived in
Laughing smiles
Ocean wind
The color of freshly
Upturned earth
Captivate me
Secret hurt
Lazily chasing
"Nameless hers"
Mystery girls
Different worlds

I won't stop loving you
'Till you stop loving me
And even when you've up and gone
I'll simply draw up my knees
And hibernate for a while
Dreaming of the days
When our love was young and wild
Before you slipped away

I was so scared to loose you
So I followers you away
I followed you to the ends of the Earth
And ascended into space
Now I can't breathe
Without oxygen around me
And you've gone away
I can't go back now
No one understands
Twinkling stars
Glowing hands

Spin around spin around
Count to three
Drag me along
To care for your needs
The older I get
The more I see
It was only the image
And nothing quite as deep

All these demons will soon become ghosts
When we're talking they hurt the most
You're deteriorating, everyone knows
How much longer, how many hopes
I'm running from these shadows
Balancing on doubt
Sometimes I wish I'd never figured it out
I'm hoping and praying that these are just thoughts

Cause when you leave me I'll really be lost

You pull my strings
I move in sync
Tell me what to say
Tell me what to think

Don't say you need me when
You leave and you leave again
I'm stronger than all my men
Except for you

Tomorrow has come
It's a better day
I'm leaving behind the sorrow
That accompanied yesterday

I lied
But you lied worse
You cried
But my wounds still hurt
I loved
And you loved too
I tried to keep my distance
Till there wasn't any room
Our love was forced together
I was completely lost in you
But that was just a moment
In this deep, dark blue

Hair pulled back
Head-achingly tight
Make up painted on
Smoky black around her eyes
There's nothing she's really looking for
Under her foolish disguise
Just someone to lay with
To help her forget the darkness of night

Thunder booming
All around
The perfect cover
For our sound
Gentle rain
Falling on our lips
In between
Every fervent kiss
Wrapped up in
The warm gentle winds
Hungry fingers
Graze lonely skin

I'll never tell another soul
I'll never give the trust away
I wish you would just take me whole
Confide in me like an empty page
A thousand words in black ink's stain
As the thoughts wax and wane
I'll never find the words to say
I just want things to stay the same
But we can't stop the seasons change
Or the moons gentle phase
We can't change our parents' ways
Or the pain that radiates
But in this moment we have the reigns
I could never make you stay
There's freedom that can't be taken away
It keeps us hopeful for a new day
It's the freedom that keeps us young and alive
Without the call we'd surely die
With nothing but what's set ahead
We'd both be better off dead
Maybe that's why we do the things we do
Getting drunk and breaking rules

The memories flood in
At 3 A.M.
All the "oh wells"
All the "what ifs?"
What a convenient time
To have regrets on my mind
There's no where to run
Nowhere to hide
The darkness of the room
Is like an art gallery
In which all my mistakes are displayed
Mocking me
Or maybe it's like
A giant screen
Playing the same scenes
On repeat
Everyone's forgotten
But I just can't
I have indiscernible blood
On my hands
I'll never be able
To wash it off
Or take the paintings
Off the wall

If you can’t recall the past
You’re bound to repeat
If you don’t pick up the glass
You’ll cut your feet
Everyday questions
Aren’t too much to ask
Life’s many lessons
I keep coming back
I love to forget
And wander instead
I’ll wander into something
So much better one day
Please keep looking out for me
I promise in my heart I’ll always believe
These lessons they’re mine alone to keep
I can only hold onto positivity

No one understands
And no one ever will
I've long since given up
Trying to explain how I feel
I'm so tired
I'm so weak
I'm currently feeling
A thousand things
I just want
Everything to pause
And give me a moment
To collect my thoughts

Going fast
Endless laughs
We don't care
If we crash
Life's so short
Yet so long
So who cares
If it's wrong
Let's just live
In the now
Wrapped in the blur
Of sights and sounds

If there's a thousand places
That you'd rather be
Then don't waste your youth
Wasting away with me
If your mind is wandering
From the words on my lips
Then go and run off
With the other kids
The last thing I want
Is for you to feel like I do
And I feel like I trap you
Every time we hang
So please don't drag this out
I won't beg you to stay
Just please save yourself
I'm wasting away

I don't feel well
But I'm not sick
I've just got aches
And pains in my chest
I've just got some thoughts
Stuck in my head
It's hard to breath
It's hard to rest
Wide awake
Can't get out of bed

And I'm so sorry for pushing you away
All I ever wanted was for you to stay

I’m too tired
To chase after your love
I’d rather lie down and cry
An ocean
A flood
Rocking so sadly
Rolling deep and blue
A pond
A river
Flowing slowly towards you
A steadily flowing stream
Going straight out to sea
Sinking so slowly
Into melancholy dreams
Undercurrents deep
Yet forcefully strong
In this lonely ocean
There’s nothing to hold on
Sinking so slowly
Into a murky abyss
Where there’s nothing to see
And I don’t exist

I love the tattoos
On your skin
You're so beautiful
It should be a sin
Tracing my fingers
Along the lines
Taking in
The intricate designs
Some may ask
What you've done to yourself
Some think they're ugly
And unprofessional as well
But in my eyes you're perfect
They're the finishing touch
Reaching inside
You ripped out your guts
And with the blood
You painted a scene
Of everything you want
Outsiders to see
You say some don't
Have much meaning at all
Simply inking empty thoughts
Either way
I adore each one
Never change
My only love

I saw you last night
For the first time in a while
It was the breaking point
I couldn't fake a smile
Blinded by tears
I ran down the hall
I burst into the bathroom
And locked myself in a stall
I couldn't even
Manage to cry
All I could do
Was ask myself "why?"
Why here ?
Why now ?
This experience was something
I could have lived without
Finally the panic
Lead into tears
Slowly falling
Held back for years
I closed my eyes
But still saw you
So I opened them wide
What else could I do ?
It took a while
To finally leave
I called a friend
And sank into the backseat
I saw the world
Through different eyes
Tears making a blur
Of buildings and lights
I wish I hadn't
Noticed you there
But I did
And you didn't care

I don't want to forget
But my memory betrays
Everything I've held onto
Is slipping away
It's for my own good
It's been haunting me for years
Pulling at my strings
Lurking in my fears

Staring into the darkness
Something stares back
Small pools of moonlight
Occasionally switching to black
Only to open again
And simply stare at me
This thing in the darkness
Is driving me insane
I tried to call out to it
I gave it different names
The eyes simply gazed at me
The thing silently remained
And in a fit of madness
I screamed into the night
The mirror broke
I was alone
The thing in the darkness was I

Possessions in life
They come and go
Working all night
For money to blow
I stare blankly at the car ahead
Yellow lights, the streets are dead
That’s when I like it best
When no one’s around
I can’t be worthless
When I’m alone I can’t be compared
In the darkness not even shadows appear
My thoughts are boundless
I cannot be wrong
If I don’t speak them into life’s song
Negativity is unfounded
I am the sun
I am not less than anyone

The writing's on the wall
Yet I still can't seem to grasp
The fact that you're gone
And you're never coming back

I'm so blind
I'm so blind
I know it's too late to turn back time
Your beauty's rotting off your face
Worms in your eyes
But I was never beautiful so welcome to my mind
Let's pull off our rotting limbs
Throwing decayed flesh into the wind
I'll put dirt where your eyes used to be
So you can really see me for me
I'm so blind
Can't see the light
In this tomb we argue and fight
I just say yes
I say okay
My fingers are falling off today
As I kiss your lips decay
So many things I wish to say
Infront of the mirror you stand and sway
Let's forget our lives before
Rip off our faces and leave them at the door
You're obsessed with vanity
I'm obsessed with gore
I'm so blind
Not enough time
Dirt in your eyes
The way your lips shined
Over and over in my head
I'll rip out my brain, give it to you instead
I don't want to see again
I just want my old best friend