I'm a ******,
there I said it.
I'm not ashamed,
but I'm not proud either.
I don't know why I am this way,
it just hasn't happened to me yet.
I want to though,
with someone who truly cares about me.
I fit the image of the stubborn ******,
who wants his first time to be "special."
I want to look back on it
with no regrets,
doesn't everyone
feel that way?

Last night I
dreamt that
I loved
somebody
so much
that it
brought me
to tears
when I had
to wake up.


Why can't I
feel sincere
emotions
about the
people I
know in
real life?

I only love
as thru my
dreams.

My college
has dropped me
for lack of
payment.

Being a dropout
by my 21st birthday
was not part of the
plan.

Right now
I'm just a guy
with a dead-end
job.

I hope
you read this,
it's my cry for
help.

A small ladybug
flew on my
kneck,
I felt her
creeping on my
flesh,
she was a
sign of good
luck.
I wish I'd
just set her
free,
but instead I
left her to
die.
Why do I
hurt things I
love?

I know
I have
good friends:
that when
we go
bowling and
I roll
a strike
they cheer.
Then when
I roll
a gutter
ball they
still, cheer.

Don't give up
on romance
just yet.
Reflect on
all the moments
of unrequited love
and believe
when you find
the one
they will
adore you
back.

What's gone has made me what I am
So I shall not fear what's ahead
But put trust in what will be, will be
And choose to live instead

I refuse to live in the now, worrying
What may or may not be
But take this moment in time
And live it totally

There's no time like the present
To breathe deep and feel alive
Living in the here and now
In each moment as I rise and thrive

Now is all there ever is
It's the only time that's real
So as the future takes its course
I’ll leave the past to heal

Peace prayer  
For Christmas 2018.

Peace within you,
Peace beside you,
Peace below you,
Peace behind you,
Peace in front of you,
Peace above you,
Peace all around you.

Posted by Philip.
December 24th 2018.