Dark n Beautiful: Favorites

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

b e mccomb

i keep a red
second place
ribbon on my
bulletin board
to remind me that
i wasn't good enough

i keep defeat in
my back pocket
and failure
on my skin.

(i didn't realize
how nice it was
to actually be
good at something
and i didn't realize
how easy it was
to stop being
good at something)

took the things
i was good at and
cashed them in
for a quieter night

i can't eat
can't sleep
can't write
can't design

bake a pie
write a poem
cross stitch
crochet
i'm not
bad at it.

i still have
hobbies but
it's not like
it used to be
i'd rather
be cleaning
at least i can
do that well

(isn't that
a little odd
considering that's
exactly what somebody
a little bit too close
to me was feeling
when his world got
turned upside down?)

i'm just not
good at anything
not anymore
but it's my own fault i'm sure.

Copyright 8/5/16 by B. E. McComb

#depression #growingup #failure #movingon #talent

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

“My Mask”

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Demons

“My Mask”

I put it on, everyday.
I tried not to make mistakes.
Even though it’s full of cracks,
I still sit up and put on my act.
And though no one ever wants to ask,
I still get up.
And put on My Mask.

;(

#sad #emotion #emotional #emotions #depression #depressed #hiding #hide #imfine #imokay

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Down the rabbit hole

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Q

Down the rabbit hole

Maybe it's where my head's at
But I've been interpreting things weird.
Things are not as they seem.
The thoughts reappear and disappear
Not at will
Not at will
What does that mean?

My head's not where it's at
It's drowning in strange thoughts
Drowning drowning
Draining
then down the rabbit hole
We fall

#rabbit #hole #bipolar #depression #twisted

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Funny love

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

LadyM

Funny love

It's so funny.
I'm laughing at myself
for not seeing before
what I see now

The human mind
is a funny mind,
goes out of focus when you find
somebody whose flaws you don't mind-
or see
Because love is blind

But I guess
This isn't love,really
Well,not at first sight
Because I've seen you before

And now my sight
has changed.
Like I see you with different eyes,
I just don't understand
how I didn't realise
it before-
You.

Your'e the same,
Yet my vision proves me wrong
And now I lay in bed
stuck writing this song ,

'Cause I can't sleep.

It's funny , I guess
How one moment
can make you forget
everything else...

Is it love?
Well, not really
But my mind is in a mess

Is it love?
I don't think so,
It's just funny,
I guess

There's nothing more unusual than seeing somebody for the 10th or so time, but then you see them differently. Like you've never seen them before. I find that funny :P Humans are so weird

#love #funny #crush

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Untitled

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

KW

Untitled

His voice, his smile, his laugh
     was dancing around her
                                     rambunctious mind
she remembered everything about him,
          but his smile made her fall in love
                                                          with him.
    The way his lips parted and the corners
curled up
                        her stomach fluttered when
             she saw it,
    but now, when she stares, she feels
                paralyzed
                                                  still
                         she can’t breath
  He’s gone but her mind, oh her mind,
         keeps racing
                                 blasting
         roaring.
                           She just wants it to end
             why won’t it end?

#end #him #thoughts

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Goodbye forever

Jun 2018 Dark n Beautiful

Mahdiya Patel

Goodbye forever

Baby I think I have the power
Let us heal
Let us be whole
Let us talk our selves into existence by being great
By becoming undestroyed by what has been the greatest creation
You are magic and I will not alter my perception of you by making you less because of your choices
You are greater than what you do to other people
You are you and your vibrations are mighty
They are not on my wavelength and that is why they scar me
But the battle is not defeated it has been signed in a peaceful treaty where we split the treasure
The treasure being us completely
We can now reclaim ourselves by leaving this comfortable war
The safeness must end and we must face what we fear most
The raw us .
We must discover the cravesses of our flaws and embrace them how we embraced eachother
We are not monsters we are light
And I’m going to write about what you have unlocked within my brain
The system of my mind has been broken by your manifestos of who I am
I must take your mighty text and write my own manifestos of who I am and through this I will heal
By myself

I love you eternally
It started with beautiful words with the rebirth
Let it Rest In Peace with beautiful words too , because above all this safe haven was contentment

Goodbye my forever spirit
My always energy
I swear to always hover around you with light and to guide you on your journey with the love I have gifted you