Gavel in hand
and eyes that cast shadows
on my face
Who are you?

The world is full of double standards
unforgiving
holding ever so tightly to
a false image of god
Hateful
Inhumane

Curse you robots accustomed to dogmatic belief
Your counterfiet
Half assed
Rehashed
Evolve already!
my mind trails....
down different paths
curse me
crucify me

I love to love
built to need another
to feel
to think for myself
to love being a women
and the power that comes with it
My conscience
clear

How's yours?
Guilted into life
Worshipping death
**** off the ones that disagree
metaphorically
and play your role "right"
In the big machine

I am more than rust or grease
a lever a pully a tool to please
and the day I die I'll rest with peace
knowing I operate differently

Spare me the moves
of a sligh tongue twisting
and contorting vague riddles
excuses of promises left undone
wit misused as the shadow's gun
a sad recollection when the problem was solved
a web of lies a tomb of wrong
how eloquently crafted
the lies dealt and spawned
I see you now
a fake a fraud
but no good sir I will not run
after all the fun has only begun...
and the winner takes all.

I once had stars for eyes
a draw a pull inescapable
and you would drink from my river
and bath in my waters

At my lowest beneath the surface
I can be so sharp and jagged
and my easy floater couldnt hack it
his feet searching for shore

The current strong
as I pushed him along
A ride not soon forgotten
and mercifully I spit him out

But he'll still have to face my serpants

I weave through the crowd
realizing how tiny I am
faces blurring together
my smile jaded
watching people unwind
and ditch their clothes

One of many Key West festivals

I can feel his eyes hateing everyone
looking at me
his hand firmly wrapped around mine
hes not used to this kind of thing
and like a pit bull he looks out for me

We watched as outsiders
and it felt so good to be with someone
I  love
I cant help but see duval as a sea of lost souls
A place where paradise took too many drugs

I look into your eyes
soulfully
my mind at times falters
to insecurity
I just knew that if someone
eles could see what I see
They'd try like hell
to steal heaven from me

Once she was called storm
her wrath was pure fury
yet cleansing and vital
her nature can be unforgiving
but she would always settle
At times her calm was just
an illusion
The eye of a systematic
cyclone

Once they called her raven
feeding on dead sheep
coercing with wolves
adorned in mystery
hidden behind her long black hair
whispering messages from the gods

Once they called her firefly
her interal beauty shinned in the darkness
although by day she looked rather average
by night her light was pure inspiration
and many tried to catch her as she passed

Many names
many places
many loves
many decievers

but even at her worst they rendered
her beautiful

she's "Too crazy to live,too rare to die."

And all aspects still live
in my heart and mind
a spirit that never dissipates
with time but morphs
into a new name or kind.

I have no palate
for the colors of the rainbow
beautiful yes
meaningless to me

The color I love most
is grey
the uncertainty within it
the lack of say

Its where wrong and right mix
in a stormy display
no need to argue
the subject is grey

If I were brave I'd speak my mind
consequence failing to enter my sights
just let it all go and know that I am right
but my mouth is silenced with reason

At times I wonder if I have too much consideration

Why conscience?I suffer so

Never acting on emotion
knowing it would feel so good...

all my anger
all my fear
all my sadness

filed away in tiny cabinets

Is it strange that I hate my logic?

I am open to falling from grace
My insides misplaced as I accelerate
Free falling further and faster
antisapating the bottom with tremendous fear

The enlightenment sure to leave me breathless
Knocking the wind right out of me
But I welcome the shock
With awe

I never had trouble admitting when I'm wrong
Because I am only human we are destined to fall
while resisting this notion you seem arrogant and small
A matter of the sun and the moon

We can't always bask in light
We must delve into our darkness
and find our heart through challenges
A change in perspective is always progress

Clinging to the edge of sanity
I allow my anger to cradle me
Robbing me of the sun shine
but keeping the pain from
engulfing my mind
you have pushed me way too far

And you are my blood ...
At times I curse my veins
and I strain to maintain
Balance
but your nonsense out weighs
my patients

So badly I wish to leave you
but I am trapped in your web
Woven in scars
God ****** I do have heart!
Even when I dream of writing you off...

Seldom do we recognize
the importance of communication
A very simple resolution
Empathy could change the world
Alittle understanding could end a war
A true man isn't afraid of his feelings
his heart inhereit in all his dealings

Pretty reckless
discerned
unmasked
Anna's reflection
is the opposite of mine
duality noted

Shes fanged and raged
held within her cage
which just so happens
to be my flesh
and I cant bare her mess
Die Anna! Die!

I love the blues
the melancholy
never fails to capture my
despondent state of mind

Not something relished
but has become an obsession
those low chords strumming
harmoniously

A splash of liquor could
amplify
The pity party
The speakers high

Even if I could disguise
I do not dare hide dimise
because I dont have a fashion sense
and I cant stand negligence

She crept through the bedroom
and tip toed down the hall
carrying a secret
no one knew at all

When she saw result
hands trembling
she began to sulk
wasnt ready

Feeling hijacked
and at an end
her morals collasped
beliefs shaken

In a twilight she woke
having to face the day
Knowing deep down
nothing would ever be the same

Tomorrow anew
Tonight no less than a shadow
of today's downfall or accomplishment
Yesterday is gone
a tear soaked in my pillow
Theres always hope on the horizon
May you wake to the sun
peaking through your curtains
Smile

Bring me a piece of your heart
and I'll write you a poem
for better or worse
Forever its yours

The shock of the unexpected can be
debilitating
sometimes it feels like we are just
strapped in for the ride
Its hard to accept the facts of life

At times we just arent ready to
catch that curve ball
but it barrels twords us none the less
you either play the game or die in the process

That shock places you beside yourself
forcing you to examine from a higher plane
how do you deal with the hands of cold fate?
feeling like your mind is at stake

The only solution at the end of the day
is to rise above the change
much easier said then done
especially when your coming apart

You can only hold onto your heart

A ring
welcoming
the smell of fresh coffee.
Intimate conversation

is white noise
to the melody in the mundane
coffee order of his familiar voice
that captures mine.

Although I’m earnest while saying hello,
her grin holds a thousand secrets;
the few words I manage seem small,
but she continues to collect them for her tip jar.

Hidden in line, he's disguised his affection.
She awaits his arrival, his orders; they share
silence. An unfilled cup and connection
swept away, unnamed, a new cross to bare.

Twisting around my neck
My weakness
Cutting oxygen to my wit
I fall face first into your grip

Only if for a night
Just one more delight and spite
So obsolete I ignite
Dancing like a puppet in flames

Collecting regret while painting roses
Red were my cheeks when I met the mirror
Reduced to a pile of ash
Remaining faceless

Round and Round we go
On this merry go round
riding our horses
feeling alittle ill

I turn to the operator to find
a snarling beast
I pleaded with him to stop
but he cant seem to understand
compassion

Higher and higher we fly
on this jet plane
always trying to reach a new altitude
or esteem
but the machine is failing and compromised

Faster and Faster we race
in elegant cars
to reach the finish line first
oh we want to win!

Our tires are spinning but
we've only reached desert
so we continue barking until
another bone is thrown
a new elegant car

We keep yelling and yelling
crying and dying
seeking help for these deep seeded tramas
and with the trusted gentle voice we hired
once again we agree to sedation

In all honesty
The truth doesnt set any one free
we are comfortably imprisoned
and controlled
always barking for another bone

Plastic,extensions,cosmetics oh my!
High heels and gel
Perfumes and bells
Ah! The great lengths
and lows we reach
to achieve that image
from some big shot magazine
you tell me what's real

The seasons interchange
Replacing the next
Bringing forth new chapters
as I reap the past

I find myself reaching a new rebirth
Every year I die
Every year I am reborn
I take moments to look over
What this year has brought

I've noticed I'm more grateful
to be with the ones I love
and my faith is rekindled
by the fires of my soul

Time gives clairity
We lose we gain
and we learn too quickly
Things never remain the same

But I've found it with in me
to form and to shape
The very mold which is life
I've mastered destiny

You deserve so much more than what you settled for
I cant even begin to understand why you accept
the beatings and curses
Any man who is capable of such things
is no man
and I cant wait to hear how he fairs behind bars

I love you even though we've never met
for sharing these moments with me
and relating to my lines

Even though we've never met
I feel so close sometimes
My fellow reader I cherish you
and I hope all your dreams come true

Because by reading and enjoying
my work
You are fufilling mine

Your eyes speak a thousand words
of love,lust, and acceptance
I allow myself to be vulnerable
as you reach my soul and caress it

You kiss my forehead so tenderly
the sweetest gesture I've ever known
every touch brings harmony
every word consoles

Sensations rise and fall
as I melt into serenity
I watch your breath quicken
exciting me uncontrolably

I wish I could stay in this moment forever
with you
entwined as one enjoying our youth
I am yours now and forever

The truest love I've ever known

The smell of lilac still lingers in my memories
Hundreds of fireflies dancing in the twilight
Easter hues took over the sky
Burning cedar lights up the night
Keeping the bugs at bay
I stare into the flame

Bongo beats vibrate
Summer's fragrance sending a quiver up my spine
Every sense stimulated
The peace held in those nights
is something that has stayed with me all this time
Treasured

She walked along the side walk slowly
watching the cars go by
All the while there was an unshakable feeling
that she was held in someone elses design

Since she was young like everyone
it was engrained how to think
how to act
how to dress
and with in such a vast and astonishing world
there were so many limitations

She stopped for a moment and took off her shoes
but could only feel cold pavement

Naked body scanners
Internal checkpoints
Peaceful protesters maced
GMO unlabeled
Depopulation through vaccination
Half of America under sedation
..I can barely stomach today's headlines

Lost in a spiritual tragedy
I watch the epidemic spread
and suddenly I am surrounded
by what they meant by "Wonderland"
As I kept silent and observed
The terror grew

My pace quickened as I passed
glossy eyes and desperate breaths
People clawing
crying out
a disease
a plague
someone eles let down

To the doctor its a signature
a job
a check
Experimentation
I see them all playing god
messing with human nature
Its a script indeed
The downfall of a generation

Corruption invades for unlawful gains
and lies are scripted so eloquently and fluidly
trickling down on you and me
Our eyes full of mouthwash
as exhausted history repeats
and like a lost little lamb
I dont know what to believe

He is a strong and mysterious  phenomenon
possessing a magnetism captivated in awe
Alluring and indispensable
I wavered in irrestible charm

His touch is like a sensual dream
much too rare to be a reality
his primal way made it impossible to restrain
and I found myself howling at the moon
beckoning to ode to wolf

His voice just like a whisper
ears keen to the sound
I'm falling yet never hitting the ground
I was held prisoner within his gaze
I watched his lips
mind lost in haze

Eager to be freed from his intensity
my body strained from the immensity
I fell victim under his spell
I could barely breath
inhale...exhale...

He grinned as he sensed infallible frailty
A merciful beast he walked away
and I transformed to suit my need
and continued on howling

Consumed and unleashed

The snow came down silently
flickering underneath streetlights
and although the night seemed quite serene
my feet dragged across the ice
I shivered uneasily uncaused by winters spite
but rather the notion of saying goodbye
A grief I cant disguise
I saw your figure approaching me
as my heart let out a sigh
little did I know that vision would
haunt many long and lonely nights
I looked into your swollen eyes
and tried my best to make it right
But we both knew all to well
that if that pain was withheld
It would explode and poison our minds
That last kiss was greatly missed
my lips ached for weeks sometimes
and as I watched you walk away
my heart was locked in dismay
unsure of how to survive
to this day my mind goes back to that
place much like a sad tune becomes entangled in your mind
The night when the earth seemed to stop all together
The very worst night of my life

Lives have been taken
Loved ones are gone
As our heros tried to
save them
They were lost
As the fog lifted and
The clouds rolled a
burst of silence went
through us all
No one could speak
Not even flinch
We could still hear
screaming inside our heads
and in our minds we ask ourselves
What just happend?!
The answer?
No one knows

Juicy,Ripened,Crimson
Skin so smooth as if I picked
It right out of a painting
Autumns Orchards are flourishing
and ever so prosperous
I sink my teeth into the
luscious fruit and sinned
with the warmest grin
Ah! Heaven!

Its just a smile or a one liner
The stranger who holds the door
It's waking up to a kiss or being sprayed by
a cool mist on a hot summer's day
It's watching the sunrise or the moon eclipse
The baby passing you in a stroller on your way
As insignificant as it may seem
these are the things
that make it worth starting my day

I watched the horizon swallow the last rays of light
Its curve like a woman's hip
Nothing left but the stars,moon,and distant drums
To the beat my body succumbed
The pulse consumed and enraptured me
The tide came in and urged my feet
how could a lady deny such mystery
as the blackened waters submerged my body
I became weightless and free
drifting off into tranquility
Silver shimmered as far as the eye could see
and I lost all fear of drowning

I closed my eyes and drifted back
into the frosted grass and colored leaves
of my childhood memories
crows carrying an obscene melody
as the wind whispers tales of winter
the trees bare the flowers withered
rodents and birds can sense the shiver
busily preparing for the everlasting division
death falls over the land like a plague
and I walk with a smile as the colors rain
respectfully silent as the lushious greens
reduce to compost below my feet
the bountiful summer once again has met its match
as the sun fades off into the distance

Soundwaves Break
Vibrating through as
his heart swells
Building up sensations
an unignorable spell
Releasing an excitment
so divine he slides
out of his hiding
and begins to rise

I woke with a startle
Panicked by the short and shallow breaths I was hearing
Was it happening?Had the day I'd feared most arrived?
Her body once petite
Now a vessel
carrying something far more precious than you or I

A moment barely passed before she tapped my shoulder
and like clockwork I scrambled for a pen and pad
recording the times
Frantic by the results we drove quickly
almost missing stop signs

The labor was a success
but she was not considered blessed
For the true labor pains were soon to come

We had three days of bliss
and as if that baby boy never exists
he was torn away and
dismissed from her aching arms
and placed into a life much simplier for him
A tale for an adoptive Mother and Father

As I rest my weary head upon my pillow
your scent still clinging to me
I need your arms so desperately
to warm and comfort me
All worry disappears in the embrace of those
sweet arms
Forgetting troubling times and the hurt
held in these scars
come with me into this night
sooth the rageing seas with in me
Fight the dawn and keep it from
bringing on these troubling days
stay with me forever in this darkness

His eyes are woven like dreamcatchers
within them lay my deepest desires
hidden messages and captivating images
The rythem of his heart
is like the ****** of my favorite song
The kind of note that leaves an impact
on the soul

I am unwitting when it comes to Love
The ways are just too stunning
for my disfigured hands to clutch
and I hate to see one bare my wounds
Their lies and their mistakes have become
your misfortunes
The past has consumed,erased,and displaced me into
an endless cycle in which it rules

I live in my own fantasy


Where insincere compliments are accepted
and sincere compliments are rejected
In my own little world I can always escape
the true realities of myself there by
mirroring myself
always in opposition of that which is I

Sometimes we must **** who we are today


to become who we are meant to be tomorrow.

I tripped a wire and
set off the bombs
devasted my skull
blowing out my eardrums
I wish I could escape the
massive flame but it burns within
My temple caved
as I march to the sound of a
broken war drum
The warrior has disappeared
lost in the smoke and fog
...I've lost the battle today

I could rid my eyes of this pessimistic view
I could buy into the latest design
I could distract myself with a goal for gold
but a little voice tells me I'd be better off dead

I could give everything of myself and work
myself to the very bone
I could aim to set off and save the world
I could bend over backwards to earn your praise
but alittle voice tells me I'd be better off dead

I could've,should've,would've
but never did..
because if living based on such artificial things
and I am forced to strive for the "American Dream"
Dieing would be ever so awe-inspiring

Remember one of the many things on this earth
that is infinite and never to be measured is a womens worth
It is so great that it is unfathomable and is never to be forgotten.

Love in the keys is like a mosquito bite
Its an itch you just have to scratch
yet in the end there are no traces it ever exsisted
But if you dig at it deep enough
it leaves a scar
every now and then
You'll hear a faint and haunting buzz in the night
Its a pest!

Looking through the lens
everything seemed so perfect
I snapped the shot
and captured the moment
So it would never be forgotten
Now it sits in an old dusty album
Under a stack of newspaper
and I havent looked at the **** thing in years

I've been wandering aimlessly
in search of serenity
The scenes are evanescent
Time forever fleeting
Recycling the seasons
As I grow...
Uncertain whether its love or fear
that fuels my pace
As I race with the downward wind
sure to hit the pavement and curse it
On my way I pass fading faces
At a glance or by the bump of cold shoulders
My unsettled heart can flee to great places
but the scenery can not correct the loneliness
which plagues it
A lovers touch can fill this void
but its nothing more than a temporary placebo
An illusion of a cure that reminds me of no more
Than how impermanent everything is