I have drifted around
The fringe of your life
Occasionally popping in
For a chat, or a hug
When courage struck me
But I always faded quick
When the fear returned

You see, I know myself
All of my flaws
My inadequacies
And my great many failings
So I always have felt
That I wasn't good enough
To waste your time

Your beautiful
Which is overrated
When compared to the extreme interest
To be found in your thoughts
Your sadness
Your history
all things which I wish to become intimate with

So perhaps someday
I will make a move
And invite you into this little world
I call home
But until that day, I shall live at a distance
Fading in and out of the periphery
A ghost, or a hint of a promuise

The path to hell
They say it is paved with good intentions
I was never quite sure what it meant
Or who they were
But it felt right
So I did not question it
And walked on

Words are a funny thing
Things so similar in composition
So different in reality
Like ******
And heroine
One a dark hole threatening to destroy a life
The other a strong woman waiting to save you

They said the path to hell is paved with good intentions
So I let her try to help
I thought she meant well
It certainly seemed that way at first
But her presence was a poison, weakening me subtly
Destroying all of my independent strength
Making me reliant on her

******, heroine
Only one letter different
But by definition, they are worlds apart
Or so I thought
In my naivete
Life has taught me otherwise
I know things now

At least with ******, you know what you are getting into
It doesn't have a pretty facade
An alluring smile
It is a type of hell
But an honest one
One that if you commit to, you do in full knowledge
Unlike the heroine that killed me

Because **** me she did
Someone I saw as a hero at first
Turned into a villain
By the fault of nobody
Simple circumstance destroying all
The path to hell is paved with good intentions
And you can get there via ******, or heroine

Labored breaths
Forced out of your
Collapsed chest
Caught in the land
Between life or death
Spending every moment
Fearing that nothing comes next

Drops of blood
Splatter the clean white tile
A monument to your death
That won't last a while
This day will be forgotten
Stricken from the archives
Of a world, that does not care

Everyday and every night
I stare at your name
A box open, thinking of all the things i could say
Something witty, hoping to draw a smile
Or something flirty, hoping to draw a blush
To the beautiful face of the beautiful girl
That has my thoughts in a scramble

I have never been this unsure
Of how to approach a girl
And the thought of you frightens me
Because I don't know what you've heard
About the things I did, but worse
The things I would never do
That were spread around like the gospel truth

I want you to love me
Because two is better than one
And our pair would be the happiest around
But I can't pull the trigger
And set the wheels in motion
Because this heart can't bear another rejection
So I am begging God, that you, darling, will take a chance on me

You were
Born as a rain
Drop
Fall
      Fall
            Falling
Into this pit
Of
Absolute Misery
Despair
Without hope
Desperate for
Love

I was
A firefly
Fading in
And out
Trying to save
You from the evils
Of a cruel
World
But failing
Because the
Darkness always
Came back to
Me

Deep in my mind
There is a box
Padlocked with a key
That I fear I have lost

Inside is all of the things
Needed to bring me joy
Friendship, love, peace
Locked away from a sad boy

These religious fanatics just don't seem to get it
They claim to love His teachings
But they just don't practice
Saying God hates ****
And that they all go to hell
Well if they read the ******* bible
I wouldn't need to tell
That what they say is wrong
And contradicts the teacher
John 3:16, whosoever believes
In Christ and his love
Shall never ever perish
But live on forever, in the kingdom of heaven
So when you tell me I'm a sinner
For the man that I love
I'll throw up this *******
And give him a hug
Because until you learn the error of your ways
You're judgement ain't worth ****
God loves me
I love God
Just ******* deal with it