I miss you
I love you
I hate myself
I wanna die
Just **** me now, wait
I'm to big to cry

I would have never stopped to realize
How lonely I would be
I would have never thought the day would come
When you would grow tired of me.

Your voice wasn't as sweet
Than the day you said goodbye
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because now I know I'm too big to cry

If I knew then what I know now
You'd still be kissing me
Instead there's someone else's lips
Where mine used to be

I wish I could say hello and wish you well
Each time I pass you by
But you'll never know how much it hurt
Because now I know I'm too big to cry

You never looked so happy
As the day you walked away
I used to say, "I love you"
But that I could not say

I can't forget you
No matter how much I try
You'll never know how much it hurt
Because now I know I'm too big to cry

Pink, purple, red, blue
The flower colors so bold
Now that I have you

I'm in love with you, and
all of the things that hurt and sing
when it comes to loving you.
Tell me you feel the same way, too.
Who needs friends when we're together.
I know you'll never leave me,
Because we're meant to be forever.

You drive me mad with love
You drive me mad with fury
It must be real
My feelings are so strong
It's as if they're foreign
Like I've never felt this kind of love before
Perhaps I haven't
Perhaps you are my first
My first true love
My only
I love you, darling
Please come here and hold me
The waiting has made me crazy
My imagination is my sole companion
Dreaming of you through the day and night
I'm obsessed with you
Blissfully addicted
You're my drug
High on your love

Carcinogenic gasps
between photogenic thighs
create esoteric muscle movement
that moves me inside.
Your parents are therapists,
and mine choose not to be alive;
the words they say
don't work for moments we hide.

Jesus Christ before the sunset rust,
if I'm so alive
then why do I lust
absence.

There's a place
where I'd like to drown
every Saturday.
The water's warm
and thick in my lungs
and I'm no longer afraid.

Colliding with epinephrine,
your neck thrusts forward;
you kiss the steering wheel.
"Do you know
how much
you mean to me?"
Your eyes meet mine  
before disappearing in the glass mist.
I love you.

I sit alone in the dark.
My eyes have darkened,
To a color never before seen.

Demons
Screaming,
Scary thoughts
Bleeding wrist,
I am incomplete,
Torn

I'm Broken
This is now how I live

My hands are cold
My lips are purple
This is how i die