Are you frightened?
No?
But you're silent
So
I guess it's something else

Despite his incessant
******* and moaning,

he wanted to.

She smiles sweetly
Her nametag reads
SOLITUDE
And she follows you
Through crowds
Whispering in your ear
Quietly
Yet drowning it all out
"I am with you"
She smells so sweet
As she gently places fingers
Around your shoulders
And you stiffen
"Relaaaax"
You relaaaax
Where did everyone go?
Her fingers tighten, tighten,
Massaging away the crowd
"I am with you"
She turns your shoulders
You walk towards a blackness
Blindingly bright blackness
That burns the eyes
"Here"
She is hissing
Fingers around your shoulders
Digging in and biting down
Fingernails slowly sinking
In and down and in and down
"I am everything"
The blackness deepens
The blackness thickens
The blackness burns
"You are nothing"
Something presses to your back
A ****
A hard, sharp, thin ****
Pressing to your spine
Harder, harder
Growing against and into you
Slowly piercing, ever growing
You cry out
"I will ******* to DEATH!"
Her **** gores your spine
Searing and scrambling
Your guts and lungs
"YOU ARE NOTHING"
The bloodied, pointed head
Emerges from a burning hole
Up through your chest
Pointed to the blacked-out sun
This is the end
The end
THE END

We all just want
So badly
To be SEEN
And HEARD
And ACKNOWLEDGED
That we forget
To SEE
And HEAR
And ACKNOWLEDGE
Each other

I've stood in this
Field for hours
But all of the flowers
Have an even
Number of petals.

A girl
Alone in a room
Drunk
And lonely

Watching The Lobster
Drinking raspberry Smirnoff
Feeling so forlorn

Words
Actions
Feelings
Philosophies

The pain she has caused
The lives she has
affected

They circle the drain
Like the poison drenches her liver

A slow death
A ffection
A tonement
A fire

One man to harm her,
And to scold her,
And to charm her,
And to hold her...

Given the same choice,

She'd be a finch

I
Only
Wanted
To
Be
Burned
By
Your
Passion

But you warmed me with your
Kindness

"I just want to kneel at his altar every night of my life."

Ringring

Ringring

Ringring






Ringring

Ringring

Ringring

­

No answer.
I guess you're still asleep.

Take my chin in your hand
Eye to eye
Whisper your secret
With the set of your brow

I'll never hear it

K
i
s
s

M
e

And I will
Melt
Into your
Eternal Punishment

I will
Kneel
At your
Altar of Sin,
For I am

Yours
.
Yours
.
Y
O
U
R
S

To use
To have
To keep
If you want me

Write your secret on my back with your nails

I'll never see it

love me...
(That's the other fantasy)

Love me
(Don't just **** me)

L O V E
M E
A N D
S H O W
M E

THAT I'M MORE THAN JUST MY HOLES

THAT I'M MORE THAN JUST YOUR *****

THAT I'M MORE

Love me,
Touch me,
Love me,
Kiss me,
Love me,
Breed me,

yes
<3

Nope.

I can't
Find the
Words

They won't leave their
Amorphous shapes
As I try to
Catch 'em

At the end of the day,
We cannot tell
If we are
Lucid or
Mad

I know
I'm
Being
A *******
Child
,
But
Knowing this
Doesn't
*******
Help
Me
!

I'm just a weak person!

There is only you
With those hands
And those eyes
And those lips

I bet you bite hard
And pull the skin with your teeth
To remind your victim
Of your ability
To easily tear the flesh

'Murica is gettin' cold
And dark
And grey
And sad
But, there you are

In the blur that is Fall

Everything dies
To desolate the earth for Winter
And, here I am

Made alive by you

Through the cold
Maybe you will keep me warm
Maybe you will keep me
From freezing to death

There, in your shame
Cozy and warm
Until the Spring
When I can step into the sunshine
Out of your embrace

Would you want to keep me?



Well?

Drip
Drip
She waits for no one

Drrrrrip
Shhhh
She hears you

Satisfied with any port

And
You
Are the storm

Ol' girl-
It looks like they
Dipped you in rust
Or have you just been here a while?

I swear
Yesterday
You were shiny
Silver, free of oxidation.

I think I am
Alone, but
I'm actually
In bad company
Because my thoughts
Abide with me

Yes, dear-
but what do I do
about this
*******
ache?

1:46am
4:46am
Two time zones between
I'm trying to s l e e p
Maybe it's too late
Maybe it's too early
I don't know much
But I know
That I'm lonely

Even if I'm not alone

Everything swirling around me in ribbons of colored light, making rainbows in the air

I'm dizzy

I'm really actually pretty stupid when I think about it, but they tell me I'm so smart

Don't trust anyone

We can't trust the thoughts or feelings we hold because they are made of air and wishes

It feels good

To give myself to the feeling of longing and perceived need and lust

But
I
Get
Hurt
A
Lot

Be.

I can't sleep
When I think about
Your ruthless race of men

You could say
That I'm just bitter
But hear me tf out-

They've said,
The respected among you,
That I inherently
Think
I'm supposed to be
Stupid

They've said
That my skin
Causes
Irrational and violent
Aggressive
Hypersexual behavior

You've believed them
Because
Let's ******' face it-
You trust each other
Ugh

But I'm
Just playing
The RACE CARD

Ya know?
The worn-out card
I've had since birth
That works so well
At what?

I'm not sure...

My coloring
Has earned me praise
For "rising above"
Above what?

I'll tell you:

Rising above
The white opinion
Of what is real
And what is fact
And becoming what THEY see
As an anomaly
Huh.

My RACE CARD
Is full of punches
Redeemable for
A lifetime of
***** looks

Why do I do this, again?
Oh, yeah-
I'm angry

I'm angry at Rick
I'm angry at Stephen
I'm angry at Jim
I'm angry at Donald

But that's natural

Like the Fact that I'm
Less Evolved
Less Intelligent
Less Civilized
Naturally

Black-on-black crime
Is out of control
In this country!
Pull up your pants
And take care of your children!

But I **** white boys
To the dismay of proud sisters
That don't ask me why

Here's why:

They are e a s y
And w e a k
And I don't mind
Seizing my *******
And their self-esteem
Because they know
Who's ******* who
By the end of the night
Their *****
Are MY s l a v e s
My ****
Is their M A S T E R
Truly, this is ¡JUSTICE!

I will think on my
Hypersexual conquest
My feast of white flesh
With triumph!
The only victories
I claim

And I
Will sleep
Less

I'm paying my bills
I'm dancing my dance
I'm hopping along
I'm fighting for my
GOD-
******
LIFE

You're looking
And seeing
The dance
But
NOT THE FIGHT!

A whirlwind
A tempest
A high storm
The two of us
Could have been
A force to change
The landscape
Of the world

I won't say it didn't sting
To learn that you love her

But I could kick myself
For not seeing it coming

It's just that everyone tries so hard to pass themselves off as very different from themselves, and I just wanted to drag you into yourself.

There was
No mercy
In your
Creation

It screams and thrashes
Nocturnal, writhing
Hungry for itself
Contradictory, insane
A little death
A massive tremor
Two backs
One beast
Are you ready to fuse?

In the end
We can pretend
It never happened