What god sits on your throne? Will they save you when you're broken and alone? Will they forgive you for things you can't atone? Because my God produces endless love shown
His heart so big he adopted me as a child And loves me despite being unruly and wild He loves that I'm unique and self styled He forgave my sin when I defiled
He believes in me even when I can't He let's me talk to him even when its just a rant He straightens me when my life is on a slant He strengthens my faith when it is scant
He revealed himself to me and made me a man Ask yourself is that something your god can? Do you worship or are you just a fan? When you need someone where have you ran?
Break the ideal of life across my spine Break my back and leave me a physical ******* Let my mind be,sully yourself on my physique Just let my mind be,nothing is sacred Its all erroneous, eroding our atomic fabric Energy displaced,trapped in mortal phase You live and die but once But you stay dead **forever
My method of existence is somewhere between drunken rambling & existential crisis The later obvious to most has lower cash value but heavier mental prices Id very much like to have the average mediocre view Then again I like to reflect on the deep thoughts I've been through So I'll guess this life suits me and makes me what I am Not a vane numb shell, but the kind of being that give a ****
"I can't do it" "what do I do?" "I can't do it!" "what do I do?!" Six days of these words being murmered from my mouth Asking nobody really but myself. I know there is no answer to my question, Its a neurotic state of desperation I feel And I have no guide to show me the way out of the darkness that is consuming me. It will get worse no matter what happens Such is the abyss that I'm relapsing into, the joy of the stinging. I will not stop until I've cut out the sickness But I often feel as though I'm trying to bail water from a sinking ship. A good captain always goes down with his ship I'm just not ready to accept that I'll drown. I want to be indifferent to the issue but I can't, so I'll just keep bailing until I submerge beyond reprise. *there is no reprieve here
It's getting to that point more & more Where existing in this life is just a chore I wish I could turn to my friends and not make them sore Not die inside right to the core Life has become day to day and what for? The anxiety to pierce my head and bore Like scars on my arms that for years I wore But deep down I know I'm not free until I walk out that door I'm losing my own personal war Against demons that have left my mind poor Just destruction,angst and scenes of gore That's why I chose to put it all down in lore
I am going to hack a wound so deep it could end me I'll do it in a place where none can see Just incase it doesn't cease me to be But I'll try **** hard to be set free
Tormented,I could no longer bide Rips in the flesh,I peer inside With lesions of despair so wide That from it I cannot not hide
Deep wretched feeling burrows my soul Tears into the depths,I've set my goal Clawing out guts as I make each hole Sweet pain of torture shall take its toll
Today is the day inside I wish to die Though we don't always see eye to eye You must be sure I have my reasons why So good day to you feelings and goodbye
Things seen,cannot be unseen Things said,cannot be unsaid Stitch by stitch it comes undone Just like the stuffed toy flung into a box to be forgotten I'll undo my own stitches from now on
They say,time heals all wounds But aging also makes you weak and frail Falling apart,lost and alone Enjoy each moment before Chronos makes a fool of you As he does us all
From the sadness blast an eruption Of self destruction Pulse quickens,hands tremble Logic begins to disassemble Reflection resembles a wild dog starving I begin carving
Deeper Deeper
Bring me the reaper Drag me out of this misery and plant me in a grave Free me from the ******* to emotion,I'm a slave Fiery whips of self hatred across my back Mind screaming
Attack Attack Attack
Until it fades to black And I wake up from this being And constant visions seeing Nowhere to run always fleeing
Drink Cut Drink Cut
But I don't die Leaving myself a ****** drunken mess Serving only as a warning to others That this is the wrong path
Today is the day I sail away But I must say Thankyou for letting me play
I have not a regret And with these words you may not forget In online code it is set If you want me this is your best bet
I loved you all so very much But the pain is so strong I can't deal with its touch Like a rabbit I'll be free from the hutch The quick way out,drop clutch
Get inspired or intimidated Metal outlook is reciprocated You don't wanna lose when you could have made it You know the game and played it Sucesess that you coulda tasted If you move on from getting extra faded Dreams and actions should be amalgamated Through all the doubt and fear to be waded
Kind hearts are so beautiful I'd do anything for you please stay Leave me with good memories Love me forever
My minds a bit messy Everythings better with you
Sometimes I worry I'm not good enough Laughter between us makes it better Ordinary people will never understand us Will you grow old with me Lifes been so much better with you around You're my everything
When my life turned to darkness Hell is leaving the light on When sweet love fades to black Know that I didn't choose to be gone And baby if you hear me Know that you're my one Oh,baby please hear me Because you aren't second to anyone
even though I'm feeling rough I can't ever have enough And its pretty tough Loving you I can walk away I need you're loving every day This ain't a game to play I know you move in a different way.
But I'll still be loving you oooOOOoooOOO loving you
I put a message in a bottle and set it out to sea On the paper was inscribed "shipwrecked,could die,help me!" I waited there for days,the only thing I could Then I got a bottle back,message read "well,that's not good!"
Sometimes nobody gets the message and replies without comprehending what's been said.
Id like to say a thousand things But I know to well what trouble brings My heart is heavy sorrow clings You cannot fly with broken wings
For my son no way to measure love No breadth or length or height above Its controlling I dislike and I've grown sick of Destroying trust,closeness and things thereof
Time spent between anxiety and elation Permanently tied to anger of their creation destroy my life to cause frustration But you have no chance of my retaliation
The answer was there all along But the urge to keep looking was too great I cannot settle while there is adventure to be had Take my hand,let's find a new tomorrow
There is a fine line between heaven and hell The line is so blurred I can no longer tell Much like the angels,from grace one third fell A fortune as such is perplexing,oh well
The sorrows black hole as love turns to hate Scrambling frantically emotions negate Lift up the heart for the wish to elate It clearly takes two of pure love to equate
The love of money Trumps the love of peace Why love your neighbour When you can ****,pillage and fleece Force them into poverty Make a country decease So I'm waiting for the day That it'll finally cease In a house of cards That can no longer increase We can own our lives Rather than rent on a lease
It's safe to say,"keep your hand on a piece", When the tyrants catch ahold they won't want to release.
The pounding of my head,only silenced by the pounding of my heart. I wish it would stop beating,the ache has become so unbearable. I will still it by any means necessary. Thoughts race across my mind,I've been left behind. There is no reprieve. Gather yourself for the last day,make peace with those I wronged.