A time forgotten Because we went separate ways. Caution i have now Did you intend for me to be Cautious? Everywhere I go I get a feeling of Fear. Not because of the wrong but Because of being hurt. God! You still Have me In your grip. Juggling these feelings that still remain. Kite flying these feelings. Longing to be rid of these feelings. Moments turn to days. Nothing is helping. Oh!! Perhaps i should go? Or maybe Question myself? as to why i still Think of you. Registering that it is time to go. So i drop that rose you made in the Trash. Under the sadness of letting go is Sense of Victory. Watching it land no more Xoxo's You are no longer there in my Mind. Because we never Zinged.
Restless mind Restless body Restless soul Eyes crying a river Every night A lullaby to sleep it seems A nightly routine Feeling of loneliness Feeling of doubt Feeling of sadness The need to just shout A numb mind A face dried with tears Only one solution Make the hurt my heart feels Go away A slice for my mind A slice for my body A slice for my soul A life full of lies A life full of disappointment Never one to give in But one to feel the consequence of considering One slice for lies One slice for disappointment Why do I do this to myself? Cause myself so much pain? I wish I could end it all The hurt The doubt The pain I should take one for the team right? Let's see... Maybe they'd all be better off without me...
I've been here for 20 years And this world is still so hard to understand I've come to realize though That I will never ever understand Because not everything has answers I've beaten myself up trying to figure it all out But when the answer simply isn't there I've learned to nod my head and walk away Creating a new mind set To get as much experience as possible Without any understanding Because I don't think anyone understands So live without reason Act without understanding And smile not knowing why