Run
Wild, free.
Away from here.
Lost in this world,
Run.

Self spun nightmare,
Neverending fight there,
Never thought I might scare
Myself some days.

Thought I had it all down,
Wrapped up, tightly wound,
How could I be unfound
In this dreadful maze?

The moon returns
An adytum for me
Its haunting beams
So softly speak
Whispering a gentle promise
To hide and caress

Do you remember the nights of screaming cries
Of pleas to dissolve within those sheets
Destructive thoughts that felt like home
When dawn broke
It cracked the sky
Marking an eternity passed
I hate the light
The break of day
Its promise never as sweet
For it reveals all I am
So rich in sin

Without hope to forever live
Within that darkened sky
In gentle night and moon's dark guise
The day breaks as it always does
Staring into the eyes of the sun
My gaze is stuck as it speaks my sins
I am blinded by the unveiled truth
Forever to live within the darkness  
Without the burden of my soul

Lie down, dear,
And secure those precious eyes.
Mind will sway and finger the waves.

Take it easy, my love.
Spiraling tears will pass,
And the clouds will part only for you.

Sunshine, brighter than the sun.
Dreaming has never been so marvelous.
Part your lips and flowers bloom.

Soaring over the sea.
The valley swallows you whole.
So close but so out of reach.

Embracing astonishing joy.
Smiles mirroring beauty.
The clock strikes twelve.

Blue to gray
And green to brown.
Love, have you drowned?

Autumn's last leaf holds on.
Missing your mesmerizing embrace.
Ever so sweet.

Toss and turn.
Flip through the pages.
Touch feet to ground.

Rise and shine.
Blink to life.
Dream versus reality.

The night is darkening round me,
The wild winds coldly blow;
But a tyrant spell has bound me
And I cannot, cannot go.

The giant trees are bending
Their bare boughs weighed with snow,
And the storm is fast descending
And yet I cannot go.

Clouds beyond clouds above me,
Wastes beyond wastes below;
But nothing drear can move me;
I will not, cannot go.

After hours on the ocean

Our little sailboat is slowing

The subtle waves are losing life

I guess it’s time we got to rowing


The stars beneath us are withdrawing

The fish around us, packing in

Nothing but the sounds of settling

And ripples where our boat had been


So after all these quiet evenings

Of laughter spilling on the docks

You up and leave me like the waves had done

And leave love upon the rocks

I will be there
When the small hands cry copper red
And the night closes in
Like his hand around your throat.

I will be there
When the purple-black-blue
Pervades the fleshy pink in-between
You think everyone sees.

And when the yellow soaked shorts
Clash the scarlet-splattered shirt,
I will be there, scooping you up
In arms soft as feathers,
Strong as steel.

There need be no more fear.
As long as I'm living,
I'm with you.
I'm here.

and sometimes getting away with it
doesn't get rid of the guilt
the shame. the fear.
the knot in your stomach
that clenches your
soul
hurtful with anticipation
waiting
for the fall

I’m not sure where I belong
Is this world crazy or just me
Sometimes I feel like I’m doing everything so wrong
But then there’s the other me
The person I strive to be
She is courageous and strong
Determine to do all that is assumed wrong  
And sometimes I see her
And all I want is to be her
I tell myself why can’t I break free
Be who I want to be
Do what I want to do
But at the end of the day
I must awake from this fantasy
Because no one is ready for me
No one is ready to truly accept people who are different  
So I’ll put on smile
And compose myself
I’m out of the box
That is easy to see
But I stay within guidelines
Because society would never accept me
And when the world is ready to open their minds
To accept and recognize that we are beautiful and unique

To embrace each individual’s originality  
Only then will I get to be me
I will get to shine
Until then, unfortunately, I will stay within the guidelines
Drinking another glass of wine
Throwing up a peace sign
Smiling and laughing on all the cue times
But never saying what is truly on my mind