He promised happiness, but we got strife.
Eternal paradise, but we got life.
He promised the chosen, but they got fire.
He promised redemption, but he's a liar.

I wait for you to unblock me, to unstop me, from feeling all this blasphemy. I wait for you to share the same feelings as me. I wait for you to like me, me, me, me. Me as I am or who I want you to see me. Either or the same girl blends well, bleeds great.

I post another picture, “ Love the life you live.” As I swallow the last pill.

And please keep telling me all the things you hate about yourself, so I can learn to hate them about me too.

On patio
of leaves and earthly floor, I sit.
Taking breath
to enhance lungs.

Scents golden
enter nostrils
permeating consciousness
as birds reverberate.

Sun plays its beating drum,
sending rays divine outward
caught by senses for warmth.

Wind blows
with gentle hug,
as airs woven blanket
coats cellular beings.

I sit in admiration
for moment
while four legged friends
scurry making pathway for eyes.

And as self rises glass
to honor life,    
I drink frothy unicorn milk,          
with fairy friends,
savoring tomorrows dreams.

One day I woke up
The fire is gone
the lights are out
I can't talk to anyone

One day I woke up.
The world told me I wasn't good enough
all those years of hard work
I thought I was tough

One day I woke up.
The dreams I had for years
was killed by serpents in my head
I looked down at my dream's graveyard in tears

One day I woke up.
Worthless like an empty bookshelf
I can't dream anymore
I don't want to fool myself

One day I woke up.
Uncertain of the road to take
Staring blankly at the ceiling
I can't get up.

One day, I don't want to wake up.
I let go of the dreams
I let my demons win
I quit.