"just tired"
she muttered

but you could tell
it was not just a lack
of sleep

but a lack of hope
and happiness

that made her
act the way she did

day and night
i am always tired

but at night
i stay up just late enough
until i am exhausted enough
until i can fall into my bed
and into immediate slumber

because i can't stand
to lie in my bed in a dark room
alone with my thoughts
for so many hours

i find that
i spill my heart out
to anyone who gives me
the slightest bit of emotion

silly me

thinking they actually care

I felt so much for you, and it's clear you felt so little for me. Emotionally, you make me feel like ****.

No one else has ever felt this,
And at the same time, I know everyone has.
I'm so far away from home and it's lonely.
But tonight as we drove home,
You fell asleep on me and I couldn't help but
Think of how much I love your hands.
Is that weird?
Your hands are so familiar,
They have a piece of home in them,
And when I hold them.
The loneliness goes away.

What do you do when it hurts
You fight that slipping feeling
Because the last time you fell
You nearly never made it back

When you can feel them crawling
Nesting inside of your mind
Waiting until they are set free
In your path of self destruction

Keep pretending you're in control
That you don't need any help
So you just keep it to yourself
Hoping that tomorrow is a better day

But you're still slipping down
To where darkness is waiting
Ready to claim you once more
And this time you won't find the light

Still you continue to cry inside
Pretending you're wearing a false smile
Scared to admit depression creeps
Waiting like the blackest of clouds

You shout in your head "why me"?
But your inner self isn't listening
You just want to rip open emotions
Only you keep feeling so alone

Drawn to take the easy way out
You know it'd hurt the ones you love
So you carry on with a brave face
Wishing blank thoughts far too late

This once beautiful soul, is filled with sorrow, fear, depression... My spirit glows dim, no longer bright.