drowning in caffeine
breathing the nicotine
my blood cant circulate - your love will stimulate.
the ****** of death in **** will simulate
your touch , my need
as we spiral in to sin

separation , depression , paranoia
anxiety - the absence of my sleep
aggression , desperation
toxicity - of a drama we are in
discoloration - i can't control the spin

screams - muted by bitter pills
our dreams - induced by the  acid
capsuled lives - longing self destruction
your embrace - disconnection
release me from what is real

obsession - for what we cannot fix
frustration - for what we can't control
memories - of what we used to be
delusions - of what we could have been
isolation - thoughts of being free
now voices dictate what i should feel
digging through my skin - opening the wounds
put your fingers in

remembering the days when we held
an illusion no drugs could replicate
i can't forget.
exchanging promises of never letting go
was it all in my head?
i can't escape the hole.
i walk the road alone.

The prince of procrastination

Zero dominion over any nation

Constantly failing expectation

Completely ambiguous to retaliation

Others he does cause frustration

"******* lazy",a good translation

Forget to pass joint when in rotation

Consider this an affirmation

and so, just like that, you were all of me,
every part of my soul's anatomy

Alcohol and strawberries
will always  remind me of you.
my friends take my phone away
when I'm drunk,
because those are the times i always
want to call you.
I threw up this morning
and the taste came back.
I cried for two hours.
at least it's all out if me.
we kissed in graveyards
and i gave myself to you,
the bruises on my chest were your way of saying
“i like you.”
i would’ve let you destroy me
if you’d asked,
but when i remember
how you kissed me against walls,
i wish i had faded into them.
you were the only reason i had to stay.
and i know oregon will not save me but-
it has less ghosts.
i want saying goodbye to hurt less.
but it’s not that easy.
i try not to care,
i stop smiling when you call,
i say i won’t keep in touch when I’m gone.
but i still cry at 1 a.m.
because you will not find it in your time
to call me.
my little tree,
i love you so much,
but your branches are stretching away from me.
i can’t reach you anymore.
go on, reach the sky.
i will stay on the ground for a while,
one day i can reach the heavens, too.
even if it means,
**forgetting i love you.

comes from
the reconciliation
of
heart
and
mind

©IGMS

If only the pain you put me through would happen to you.

I'll be like
Every other poet
And compare you
To the stars

Because you shine
So bright and
Very beautifully
Just like them

But you and
I both know
Behind that glow
You're dying inside

I surrounded myself
in the walls
of her
heart

and suffocated