I think I have Restless Mind Syndrome.
I have not had it diagnosed but it should be, I might need to suggest to my doctors to add it to the medical books.
I think on second thought if I made that suggestion, I might get a strange look.
I wonder if the doctor would think I was a hypochondriac.
The condition gets worse when I hit the pillow and try to sleep, and sometimes troubles me to the point were I become an Insomniac.
I think and think and think and my thoughts seem to swim;  so much so that it is hard to keep track of were my thoughts end or begin.
If I was a drinker I might reach for some gin.
In cases like this it seems like my train of thought seemed to have derailed long ago.
The symptoms of my condition seem to be getting worse each year, one example is that when I try to write something down such as a phone number the numbers get messed up between my mind and the paper; It would appear that I have dyslexia because some numbers get reversed.
I get so frustrated to the point of tears at times, and fear that I am on the verge of losing my mind.
I think of all the things left to do, or think of things I should have done better, and I wonder what is the matter with me, when I think to much I fear insanity; I wish that I had a more normal mind.
I hope someone can find the cure for my Restless Mind soon before I run out of time.

Have your bad day.
I'll be either strong enough
For us both, or
Weak with you.

These are the times
Of butterflies and honeydew,
Adventure and laughter,
******* of the kind

That makes the left side of
Grown men numb.
Popcorn and sofa cinema,
Good days and some not so.

Go ahead. Have your bad one.
It comes with the package,
And I don't need you to be tear-
Free, to love you.

Stain my best shirt.
Worry me with a frown.
Cry me an ocean of tears, be
Afraid that I'll leave, shake
If you must, with your every fear.
Just don't ever believe that
I'll drown.

Have your bad day, princess.
Have a year of them.
Just make me aware of them.
I'm the knight in white at
Your side to stay.
Challenge me;
I need scores of dragons
To slay.

her blue eyes were pools
which he immersed himself
to swim in their beauty

There was a troll under a byte
The computer bridge of sighs
He/she/it had nothing to do
But spread rumors and lies.

The women may look like Grendel
The men may look like orcs
But they have real cool avatars
So you don't smell the pork.

They hide and lurk until they see
Someone who's writing's art.
When they see a heart of light
They surface like a shark.

I was just a little lamb,
Walking o'r the brook
Minding my own business
When the Jaws of trollhood looked.

He/she/it saw a broken heart
That yet still had a light,
So he/she/it came up from the deep
And thought to take a bite!

But the monster didn't see
A very important thing.
I was not alone
But in the company of The King!!!

So when the horrid troll
Thought to make his bid
Jesus then EXPOSED IT...

YOU DON'T MESS WITH HIS KIDS!!!


SoulSurvivor

I need to take a break from Hello Poetry to get caught up with my study.
I was experiencing technical difficulties, technically the computer and software was being difficult,
I am now swamped with homework and need to catch up.

I wish miss all of you and your wonderful poetry.
If there is a poem you don't want me to miss message me and I will add it to my list of poems to read upon my turn, I yearn to read the wonderful poems of yours my friends.

I'm very very happy,
That's how I was made to be.
Oh, why the long face?
Did people judge you of your race?
Sit with me, we shall confide,
If you've ever had thoughts of suicide.
Hello, I will try to fix your of your cry,
Of the day when your boyfriend made a lie.
What's this? Your girl broke up with you?
There there, I'll help your heart find one that's true.
Come one, come all,
Let me help you get up from your fall!
I love you no matter who you are,
And we will run to lands of peace afar.
There's always another day,
Hopefully, in the next one, you are not so astray.

And still I dream of stepping back into yesterday
Where time flowed so freely golden with serenity
We would sit in pine scented grove and sip lemonade
Our talk tranquil as sun dappled creek murmuring in quiet wood
Never arguing or complaining but flooded with blissful reverie
A time bygone and peaceful, learning to know each other again
Listening to the background symphony of cicadas and katydids
Poignantly nostalgic with yearnings of bygone days
Watching velvety dusk deepen into shades of whispering night
Relishing each breeze laden with moss and murmuring pine
Anticipating the dawn awakened by drowsy robins and wood thrush
Skies east to west stained with strawberry hues and dreams renewed
And still I shall dream on

**~Hilda~

~Shape shifting into a new me,
Perfectionalist is all for you.
Valentine, never depart.
The song we sing holds our memories.

Cancer crisis, different view,
The world forgot who I am to you.
Moment to moment, unexplanatory feelings.
Choose our destiny, and choose it carefully.

The beauty of undying faith,
Corageous in colors new.
The world forgot who I am with you.
Loving pain, destroying life,
The days of sorrowful strife.

Mend the pains, wash away,
Sickness and crisis in every way.
Hold time back, make it longer,
The days he has when he is stronger.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Help me, faith, not to love anyone else,
Close my mind, shut me down, abandon all.
Don't you dare let me fall if he goes.
Make me strong, as strong as him.

Red bands, hospitals, emergency rooms.
Sending my future in flames to fumes.
Undying faith, where do I cry?
Maybe never, so tell my why.

Why do you do this to me?
Why oh why?
I am not mad, just a little confused,
From the days I've been beaten and abused.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Help me, hold me, keep me strong.
Remind me it is with him I belong.
Oh, hold me, keep me strong.
Does anyone understand my song?

Death is his worst enemy,
For me, my worst is not dying with him.
Undying faith, if he goes, don't let me!
I am on knees to all of your mercy.

Undying faith lives in my heart.
It is where it goes that tears me apart.
Carry on, my world, forgetting Magicath,
Don't just assume we will ever cross paths.

Undying faith, do not fail me,
Future, present and all of history.
Undying faith, do not let me down,
My royalty lies with his crown.

Lead me, guide me, close my heart,
Like a door that's locked, never to open.
Locked forever, kept away, secretly hidden
In my soul for him.

Please help me, please hold me, please keep me strong,
If in this sick world it all goes wrong.
Even if he doesn't leave Earth, which he won't,
Don't let me fall for another, please, just DON'T.

Help my heart stay all for him,
God, that'll be hard, as I was made to love.
Or rather, was I made to love?
Or made for him?
I don't think the world will ever know,
My heart is telling me yes, you are telling me no.

Undying, undying, undying faith,
Is the reader asking, Who Are You?
Undying faith is all I have left,
If something goes wrong and I have to stay strong.
The day has come, no, it must be a mistake,
You drag me as I hear the morbid news.
Shrinking, hulking, beast is me,
For who I am for all of eternity.

My heart sinks, drowns and shatters.
Almost as if nothing else matters.
Or maybe it doesn't.
Just whatever happens, help me keep my vow,
To love him absolutely forever, especially now.

He's slipping away from me,
Time passes too slowly,
And quickly at the same time.
I'm melting, sobbing,
Looking for someone to mend my heart.
And by then it's too late,
I will have wanted someone else.

Dying, dying faith, you have failed me
In the Future, present and history.
Dying faith, you let me down.
As I fell in love with a faulty crown.

It hasn't happened yet, so don't let it.
Undying faith, don't put me in a dark pit.
Save the love so it shall never fall,
And be there to resue me when I call.

Oh, dear Magicath, don't let me forget,
Don't let me forget who we are together.~

Got caught up in this thing called bliss
Trapped inside this euphoria
When indulgence was in my grip
Light and Dark is on its fast forward phase
When all senses comes back to you
You'll figure out that something's missing
Then you'll realize what you willingly gave
Just for the sake of fun
And when the source is out
It won't recognize your being
What's left of you is all you had
The feeling of some part of you is empty
Indulged by some to taste the pleasure
After you found out you lost
There's the regret creeping inside you
And you.....can never take it back
It was never meant to be given back
Presence of loneliness will slowly haunts you
Denying will only lead to failure
Faking it won't even save you
Longing will linger


So there you go......alone.......


Smiling for the better times,
And sobbing after being left behind

True forgiveness is not just  forgive and forget
True forgiveness is to forgive and remember
It is an act of will to let go of the hurt, whether or not the other person deserves forgiveness
The Forgiveness frees us from hate or other negative emotions that can hold us bound
Forgiveness can be like a bridge sometimes opening up an opportunity
for some relationships to be repaired, even if they are not I choose forgiveness