What is it in you that makes me so vulnerable?
What is it that you do that I can’t get enough of?
What is it that you’ve said that makes me
catch my breath every time?
Masungit man ako, but still I have a heart,
a heart that beats your name,
a heart filled with love only for you.
I barely say it, I often express it
through pagsusungit because
I cannot find the right words to say.
To tell you HOW MUCH I love you
for no words will ever be enough
to express how I feel.
I don’t know how to tell you
that I fear of each day of having
to be far away from you,
that I dread the idea
of the possibility of losing you
to other women.
And I am afraid of having
to wake up tomorrow
without you loving me, and
me not loving you.
I can’t stand those thoughts,
but I shall admit that
they linger inside of me
because I love you this much
that I am afraid of the many things
that could happen out of this doom
that our relationship is going through.
I hope you understand these things
I’ve been trying to conceal through my childish acts,
sa pagsusungit ko, specifically.
Hindi ko sinasadyang magsungit,
I’m not aware of it sometimes, but
whenever you confront me about it,
that’s the only time I realize
and ask myself why.
I hope I gave you the answer,
I hope this clears us out.
I love you, if I am to be blamed
for loving you, then I shall be guilty.
If I am to be accused
for the crime of loving you, then
I shall face the sentence bestowed for me.