For so long now, I have been trying to understand God's will.
So sometimes I ask HIM for silver, then I get a bronze instead.
Then I decide am going to stoop a lil' low and ask for a Vitz, then instead, HE gives me a Range Rover.
Yeah, am human, sometimes  just throw tantrums at HIM, I mean HE is my FATHER right?
I am persuaded to think that sometime HE just sits on the THRONE and just laughs at me....(i get silly with my requests sometimes)hehe

I don't know what plans HE has for me, so the best I can do is actually keep asking....random requests.
"Daddy I want a double door steel refrigirator"..."No daddy wait, there is this other Television set I saw, and you know what, I would like to have it"...
It goes on, and on, and on....from Closet to electronics, to partners...#sigh
HE really hears a lot from me lol.

But I know HE has my best interest at heart yes?
I look at it from an angle of a baby.
When the baby is born, and still growing up, they  can't actually feed on anything yet, steak and corn and all...because they aren't at the stage to eat it yet...however much they whine cry for that meal, they can't get it yet. Not to  mean that at some point when they are fully grown they won't eat.

So sometimes I think God denies me some things so I can actually reach the level where I  can handle 'em.

I mean, if I pray for a life long partner and am still inexperienced in loving and nurturing, why should HE give me the partner, won't I just ***** it up??? That's why sometimes however insane it may sound, I thank God for Break ups. They are lessons...each of them and I grow and learn.

With all said and done, I pray wisely now. For HIS will.
However painful it is, HE is My FATHER.
HE KNOWS BETTER and THERE IS NO LIMIT TO WHAT HE CAN ACTUALLY DO. **

©The Unspoken

Best Friend

He has the basement all to himself
While im at work all day
He watches T.V. and lays around
Without a worry in his head

He eats and drinks when he wants
Takes naps in the afternoons
Jumps off the couch when I walk in
Because he knows I don't approve

He seems so happy when I come home
And thats when he wants to play
He jumps for joy and kisses me
And wont let me walk away

He follows me like he's a child
Thinks I'm the best thing in the world
He listens to every word I say
Then pretends its never heard

This is my dog, he does not judge
And his love is not pretend
He is my true companion
And he's known as mans best friend

Carl J. Roberts

Longing to be in Your Presence
aching to be in Your light
for when You suffered
for when You died
You saved my life
You paid the ultimate price
and as I fall upon my knees
unworthy of Your grace and glory
The love of God is placed before me
and you kiss my eyes
and I am born again
I am forgiven
And my God be to glory
I am saved from sin

My eyes hurt
Maybe it's from staring at the computer
for so long
Maybe it's bad for my eyes

My eyes hurt
Maybe it's because I'm tired and didn't get
enough sleep
Maybe it's bad for my eyes

My eyes hurt
Maybe it's from the mascara I just started wearing
to get attention
Maybe it's bad for my eyes

My eyes hurt
Maybe it's from the hard music I listen to
to make sense of stuff
Maybe it's bad for my eyes

My eyes hurt
Maybe it's because I feel like crying but I'm
keeping it in
Maybe it's bad for my eyes.

Julie,

I can not be there with you now,
But you'll always feel me near, my dear.
Look deep into your heart and soul.
Let the love around you forever grow.
Turning sixteen is such a big milestone,
Always know you're never alone.

Grandma Kirby

Thank you..
My sweet one..
I will always remember you,
Grandma..