My heart
unpeels itself
in slow motion
ribbons elegantly drift
to the floor
once again I am entrapped
in a butterfly dance
as I move towards connection
entrapped in a cage
of my own building
stewn all over
like carnival confetti
utter joy at the beginning
a true celebration
and then…the explosion
a fissured opening as
painful as a birth
I am all at once
A part of the cracked
and steaming earth
In the darkest corners of my mind,
I search rooms at a
mysterious party
as if in a dream
Who do I look for?
I pass each space
Couples on beds
in their thrusts of passion
beckon me to join
Despite my burning up
I ignore
I know that I must reach
The open field
sit in sweet solitude
place my hands upon the runes
of my heart
explore its mysteries
and then
only after I am sated
by my own passionate
embrace of mind
only then,
with fire in my eyes,
will I be able
to run freely
to you
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We must learn to love oursleves before we can be truly open to love from another