Is anything too hard for Me?

Trials are for learning to trust Me

Not about being abandoned by Me...

Cj 2016

Tonight
I turned
a corner

the  understanding
listeners
heard me.

Cj  2016

Piano music on Friday nights
German Chocolate cake for dessert ,
Candle light
Sugary , Plum wine with Cherry -
tobacco in a favorite pipe
Faraway lightning in Alabama skies
Pecan brittle , Storybooks , Fairytales
Gin Rummy , carrying young'uns to bed
The final smoke from the front porch rail -
in the company of a million stars
Trying to work a bit of magic on a red guitar
Time is a rambler indeed , a loner , impatient -
locking eyes with no one
One last song as the wind precedes the storm -
once more
Settle in for another day
A night then a few more years
So forth and so on* .....

and you came back again,
and then the thoughts come back again,
and the world turned to **** again,
and my life felt worthless again,
and the coffee tasted bitter again,
and everything was bitter again,
and the voices came back again,
and I cried in my room again,
and I pictured all my mistakes again,
and I found my old photos again,
and I forgot how much I missed being loved again,
and I remembered all the terible things you did again,
and I cried even louder again,
and then my mistakes the followed came back again,
and my eyes got weak again,
and I thought about my friends again,
and then I figured they hated me again,
and everyone hated me again,
and no one came back to save me again,
and i'm alone to save myself again,
and I don't know how to again,
and my life feels meaningless again,
and its getting so hard to hold on again,
and I don't know who I can trust again,
and I'm not okay again.
and everything was wrong again,
and this keeps happening again,
and again,
**and again

In 'Natalie' , wildflower speckled August
Herons sail portals of sky blue as Cinnamon -
butterflies farm lush scuppernong arbors
Redtailed Kings patrol their sun-laced piedmont sheriffdom engulfed in songbird tune and Sugar Pine perfume* ....

when I woke up,
to the drip drip drip,
of the falling rain,
I knew what had happened,
People surrounding me,
but my mind was somewhere else,
I felt like I was missing something.
then I realized,
I was missing someone..

You are the one

Who let me see the sun

Gray is not always be

The color of the clouds

That the nature plows

Whites and oranges I could see

Because of the heart shape

You've sketched in me



For you my dear, I've learned

To save for rainy days

Valued what I've earned

You truly gave me strength

To face the war of any length

Like I hold an arrow and a bow

Because of you I've answered

Many questions how



You gave voices to my song

Come with me sing a long

I don't care if our tune is wrong

My blood, my skin, my all

I see it within you, my soul

Indeed you are like me, my child

Whenever I think of you

Simply, I smiled



7-5-2016

Mysterious_aries

my breath flows in and out
my heart drums on