You know it's not worth it
I just keep on hurting
My body's tumbling
My hands be fumbling
Never stopping running
Pain
Shame
Fighting through it
Thinking My brains to blame
My body ain't ever been tamed
You know I'm drinking all of my thoughts
Keeping it
So bottled up
I know I'm not tough
And this is rough
But how do I keep pushing on
When all I've been doing
is collapsing
And you think I want this
Well
–YOUR WRONG

You're on your own again,
Take a walk on that endless green glen.

It snows heavy over our missing puzzle pool.
I need some fresh air for my burning young heart, for it to cool.

That blindfolded searching, turns into a flu
What would it take to hop on that time machine, making it all undo,
To feel the stillness when the erasure happens to that stuck tattoo?

It hurts my chest when i realize one more lie, the more i find
Cannot even drink five bottles of Baileys to drink you out my mind
The last lesson branch i must hold on tightly is that our bond and that it was glorified...

Permanent boundary
A calming presence
Your constant resilient voice

Throughout my tireless journey

Whether it be
A mirage in the desert
To the lions den

From the deepest depths
Of my pits of despair
Your devotion to me

Has never wavered

Not for a moment
And sometimes I lose focus
On what’s truly right in front of me

Humbled in the most

Unexpected ways
Increasing gratitude as
I’ve battled the seven seas

Salvation came at a hefty price

Stubborn as A doorknob I am
Picking up sticks
Trying to build a fortress

I declare your inherent greatness

My calming in the eye
Of the most vicious storms
Life has

Challenged my faith

Yet no matter what
I have to trust in you
Completely without compromise

Warfare in a spiritual realm

In overwhelming numbers
Can bend a soul
And the mind can truly hamper

Your progress throw you for a loop

A broken will
May not stand
The test of time but you surly will

But I want my song

Sung loudly throughout eternity
From the top of my lungs
To outlast all my troubles and doubts

Wash away all my fears
And let your resilient strength
Shine upon me when I am at my WEAKEST

it was dark and tender
my dad next to me
I was five
so free
at the driveway
we be

at some point
of the night
we looked upon the sky

I don't know why

we looked at the north
I saw a star so bright
with the colour of light

I looked him in the eyes
and said
“that's…grandpa”
flying so high

he said “no”

that's the northern star
it will always be
the brightest of them all
it's there when you seek
a guide to peek

when you've traveled so far
where no one can fish
when you wonder
‘Is this… ?’
or
‘What if…?’’
remember the star
that's it

A priest arrived by ambulance
to bless our sudden kiss

A doctor brought his bag but cannot
treat such things as this

My jewelry is just colored rocks
like pretty polished hollyhocks
in silver settings gone to curls
the same as any other girl's

but I could be your only love.

A flautist played our melody
in notes so fine and clear

That summer brought her midnights close
so that the moon could hear

the notes, the song so marvelous
the player played so long for us
the priest laid down his holy flask
the doctor blushed before he asked

if I could be your only love.

An urchin took a photograph
of you in uniform

You gave me spice and chocolates
to keep my fever warm

and lucky is the lucky bird
who calls and calls a wafting word
In this peculiar pregnant dawn
his curious and constant song

that I could be your only love.