got lost and confused
by the tint of green
in your eyes
that would make fresh, summer grass jealous
and St. Patrick pass out
on his own celebration.

see i'm still learning how to be okay
with things I cannot change about myself
but I don't think it's ever been easy
loving parts I've never asked for,
but was dropped on me like
the feeling of highness
from those hits

the thing I don't understand
is how alright
how content
how proudly
I would be able to love you
when I never asked for you,
yearned for you,
but only stumbled upon you.

every time i'm around
and hear the sky open from the grace of your laugh
it is as if you
are wooing me closer and closer to heaven
making me feel like
a good man
who's met his guardian angel
something i'll wait
a whole lifetime for.

There's courage in me I just can't recall
A pride that is floating me in the sky so high
So I'm chopping my wings cause I'm trying to fall
I know a hard ground will but make me cry
I might lose my feet and it might do to crawl
Yet it does me no service if I don't try
I lose nothing, and I gain nothing at all
It might help, it might help to fall

I’m amazed by how dazzling her eyes are
Coupled with a perfect nose without a mar
Lips as sweet as candy
Smile that all would fancy
I am proud to call her mine
Because she is an ensign
Of beauty and pulchritude
Nevertheless she carries the best attitude
The world is a better place with her
She is so vital like the breathing air
And her smile is what glares the earth every morning
Her absence would leave the world in a great mourning
Thoughts of life sans her is my biggest nightmare
The day I lose her my life would be blare
Vapid was my life
Till she arrived with her life
Full of liveliness and zestfulness
Ultimately, she’s become my angel of happiness

What have I become?
I'm sick of your tough love
Cause it is just too much
Trying to live up to what you want
Look at me (pathetic)
Searching through my pockets for more apologies
Cause I swear that you always win
You told me I'm an idiot and you hate me
But I know you love me
So show me your heart
I know I let you down with the drugs in my mouth
I know I let you down with the anger I keep
I have to let my guard down show you the real me.

What have I become?
When I met you I was sweet like bubblegum
But you turn me into someone I don't know
Cause I love you more than you could ever know
Look at me
Clenching my fists begging on my knees
Look into your eyes to make you see
That I am still the girl you love you don't hate me
But you can leave
If you really want
I cut my heart strings burn this to the ground
If I had a gun I'd shoot myself
I know I let you down with my reckless heart
You said I am too much for you
But all my love is sincere, it's true
I'd do this all again if I have you
By my side.

- A.W.