it’s cute how my eyes chase after his face
how it is the only thing can be defined by them
and when our eyes accidentally met
they create such affection that can't be helped
but me and he can never be we
cause our faith puts too many brakes on our hearts
that might as well breaks them apart

Why
Why did I let this all happen to me
I thought I had control
I thought you were gone for good
But you came back again
You came back and tricked me
But this time it was more intense
This time it left scars
Scars that will never fade
And I'm not even mad at you
all I can ask is
Why

Have you ever dreamed of infinity?
Everything that you've ever wanted,
A sweet dream it is of mine!
For you give me in a sight
Stories and songs so perfect!

New beginnings beckon me, I feel,
How does one build love?
They travel to places uncharted
And find tales, novel and pure!
Just as my eyes open,
A tear rolls down my cheek
And poems for you follow in a mist!

It is a favour I can never fully return,
Not everyone would understand this obsession,
It is one of the dreamers, prophets and hermits
I pray you understand it too....

Have you ever dreamed of infinity?
Everything that you've ever wanted,
A sweet dream it is of mine!
For you give me in a sight
Stories and songs so perfect!

the past built your pride
pride is your fault now
walk around
head high
heart closed
eyes open

you've never been so fake
or maybe the right thing to say is real
i'm not sure anymore

before your eyes were the deepest
your heart was the most beautiful
and not just my heart
but my soul craved you

you controlled me
in the most beautiful
terrifying ways

i loved you tragically, yet truly
my soul bound to the words we shared
the tears i shed
the screams i muffled

my soul bound to you
my existences fueled through you
my heart yearned for you

who i thought you where became my universe
my world
my everything

now you remain just another soul
in the vessel of a man i once loved with the purest of loves
of a man who captured my soul
and then so violently
tore it apart.

The monster that lives in me,
Jealousy growing by each moment,
Makes life seem too greet for you, while I am drowning in pain.

I don't want to imagine your hands with him intertwined.
I don't want to imagine you with him sitting together, laughing and kissing,
While I am left cold.

Jealousy grows each moment I hear you calling his name smilling.
I hate it when I happen to see his pictures all over your phone,
Because you never once had a single picture of me there.
I feel poison burning in my blood stream.

When I think of how happier you're with him and not me, anger and hatred grows and I become insane.
Oh! I wish I could forget you completely.
I am still madly crazy in love with you .......
If only I never met you.
Nothing hurts more than to see you dancing with another man,
While I still crave for your love.

Sometimes...
The emptiness of words is all I read
The silence of music is all I hear
A blank page of mystery
Sums up my life
With a muted cry
And a single tear

Sometimes...
I give up all my defences
I have nothing to lose
And nothing to gain
Nothing but aches
With a muted cry
And a single tear

50 steps and I will knock
On your door I will mock
Please hurry I cant wait
Open it now and feel my hate.

Undress me as I devour you.
Slowly, gently feel every bit of me.
******* flesh and hear your scream.
Try to make me stop if you can.
But I wont. This is fun, I wont run.

We are near on our satisfaction.
Make it faster, lets go deeper.
Moan in pain, as I moan in pleasure.
Finally its here! Don't stop. I want more.

I wrote a poem about you
yesterday. At least, I
think it was yesterday.
It could have been the day
before yesterday, or
the day before that.
I wouldn't know.
I stopped putting
the dates on all my poems
because they only reminded
me of how many days
I was wasting missing you.
Or maybe I just stopped
remembering what day
it was, so that I could imagine
that time wasn't carrying you
away and leaving me behind.
It's funny that I'm
suffering so much, when
I was the one who left you.
I will never make it off of this
sinking ship of ours.
I am drowning
in my own escape hatch.

Trapped inside this place called home
Never allowed to wander alone
Four more years am I'm on my own
Can't you let me get a taste of the real world?

Hours and hours with nothing to do
Watch TV
Read a book or two
Same routine,
Day by day
Mommy, Daddy
When will you let me out to play?

Go out with friends
Have a smile
I promise I won't be gone a long while

Won't you have some faith
Have some trust
Know I won't do the things I must not
Your teachings are always playing in my head
So mommy,
Daddy
Can I go out with my friends?

There was a bottle
that she knew of, which
she filled to the brim.

24/7 I want to hold you in my arms
24/7 I want say love you any time
But I have to move on
You've moved on while I was crying
My heart aches
Soul bakes within the sadness of the moon
Why did you break me...