Life in bittersweet New York

Aug 2017

Lea Loveit

To my unborn
Know it is my fault
Know my heart is torn
It was an unguarded vault

I take all the responsibility
Put me away
All agressive humility
I don't know what to say

I wanted you to be great,
See you smile wide like a boat,
And give you the world to create
and opportunity gloat

You were a surprise
I didn't find out
or know you were Alive
Till I met that route

I was afriad
every ounce of doubt
came into my body and raid
with criminal filled throughout

I put my soft hand over my belly
The pain was a claymore
Struck deep through the jelly
Then I proceeded to see the gore.

Then I was in mist of knowing
That there was a you
And you were growing
until i saw the red hue

Red all over the white toilet and floors
I squat to sit as the clench of my face starts
While my back leans against the door
Aware you might of just developed a heart

Although you weren't in my plans
I know you were with me for cause
Right now I could of fit you in my hand
But for now I'll put my life on pause

Now an empty exhibit
Because you are gone
Now please visit
but also let me move on

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Take Me Home

After a long day of work
You're someone I can rely on
With your subtle quirk
You left me with a smile once I'm gone.

We first met oddly
But you were in the route
Taking me home. But honestly
With you I know little about.

You have a wide range;
A degree, a job.
In a settling - wise age
My heart you already rob.

The whole ride home
you capture my mind.
No where to roam
Just enjoying this time

You're what I saw when I close my eyes,
Someone I hope to see again.
You intrigue me like the skies
And my heart you temporarily mend.

As unrealistic as you and I sound
You have security that reminds.
So I'll wait around
For the random signs.

Ruminating over you
And you're voice that has an alleviating tone
Even though you have a clue.
Thanks for taking me home

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

When

During the cold,
your jokes made me warm
even when my world folds
and it's the worst storm
you are there
making me smile
with the slightest glare
within our mile.

Where you're near,
I'll make sure
I have no fear
Just love to the core.

In my dreams
I see us,
You and I,
Nothing but trust.
Everything feels so real,
but none happen when i wake
and my heart you steal.

When will our love happen?
Then my heart will suffer kidnapping.

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

I Can Feel You

It’s cold.
You can press your finger on the window
And you’re warmth is so gold
As you **** out the 0° below.

So far away
Yet I felt you
So close today
Like you were next to me, it’s true.

Last night I felt you next to me
I even said your name
Because I thought you would see
And nothing will ever be the same

Lastly I woke
And you were near me last night
I wish you could have my hair in strokes
But you were my knight.

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

a cup of tea

you're warm
i grasp my fingers around you
and bring you close
because you are true
this feels like love
or i think it is
because you're sweet
with a tasteful bliss
never get cold fast
you are served for anytime
i just wish
i had you all the time
come in many flavors
but you, babe
you are the one i choose
you are my fave
in sickness and in health
good times and bad
just make sure
the sugar is just a tad
because you
are perfect the way you are
i pull you close
even though you're so far

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Cold Days

One winter day
He leans in to me to say
3 words aloud
Because our boat is about to drown
Like Ice melting
Our cuts are welting
Into a scab
That was once a stab
Silly sticky skates
Rolls on our date
He says, my baby blue
I love you
Love love love
Is this true?
Love love love
Or is it a quick fix like glue?
But falling for his eyes
And not realizing
My lip touches his
Forgetting out troubles
But now our love doubles

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

The one that got away

No this isn’t a katy perry song
But lets figure out what went wrong
From the mistakes
Just for our sakes
When I wanted to die
You’ll make me want to shine
When I want to hide
You’ll take me for a ride
When i feel hate
You’ll show me im great
But why are you gone?
You weren’t next to me at the break of dawn
In another life?
Would we make it right?
Or would you be there on the other side?
Waiting for me to be your bride?
But you left
With the rest
I can’t be here alone
I can’t even call you on the phone
You haven’t left me instructions
And so far its been self destructions.
I see you leaving
And im just here grieving
But before was I naïve
Did you have a plan up your sleeve?
Before all the plans we made
Did our love just fade.
I don’t want you to leave just stay
Don’t be the one that got away.

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Miss understood

I was only 16
with so many dreams
So many days for my life time
So many nights to see the stars shine
Tonight I want to throw my hands in the air
Give up because life isn’t fair.
I know, I am young
Its our time to have fun
But when you have no one
You’re practically done.
With one person hanging on you by a thread
You’re mood its red
To understand as to be understood
Isn’t the same, And usually im miss understood
That’s the name I get.
To capture my heart in you're net
Someone can talk to me
But not see
The brokenness inside
Instead they walk on by
My selfish ways
Were on every never days
That’s how often I thought of myself
That I left me on a shelf
Im probably much too late
But I can ask… was it fate?
I know there may not be another one of you like this
So hurry while you can give me a kiss.
But instead you found someone new
So now my mood is blue
Sad
Now I need words those so bad
Everything is fine but I wish I dead
My heart for days… it has bled
Through my eyes
I can’t see what was wise
When you find true love
Its something you can’t get rid of
But I see feelings change for some
Was I dumb?
For thinking I could
Im just miss understood.

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

A Balled by Aleyah and Danny

Laying on the springs of the soft new bed
Thinking about the future, what lies ahead?
Will it be perfect or the fairy tale ending?
But for now life is pending
Who’s to tell how it comes out to be?
Was I blind by what’s In front of me?
Was it lies you told me
Is it gonna be me through all this grief?
Or was it the truth?
I’d give anything for you to hold me and tell me I love you
Your lips against my cheeks
To feel you constantly
And your chest against my heart
With Our skins touching, let us make some art
Cause lately I’ve been so alone
And without you, it doesn’t feel like home
You’re my longing desire
I’m the sun you’re its fire
But why aren't you here with me now? Your Love is what a require
Just a little bit to inspire
So I can move on in life
Not stop it with a knife
Not wanting to die
But to be with you and together we can lie
Cuddled up together as time flies by
It’s already tomorrow and we’re still on today
There’s no time for sorrow there’s only time for me to stay
Let’s enjoy the time together, no other on our mind
Let’s walk away and hold hands and leave the others behind
In a big house made for us two
Where we can stay for the night and I can show my love for you
There may be other people like us
But were so different from the rest
These strong feelings so hard to express
That’s how you know I love you and you’re the best
Nothing less
It’s not a test
So lets forget the mess we made
And hold each other instead
And kiss until my heart fills with red
I can’t get you out of my head
Not a second goes by with out you in my thoughts
Without your love id be lost
Loving you is what I do evening morning and noon
Don’t leave me now it’s too soon

Me and my Best friend made this poem from our hearts. Although it was hard to make it was easy in our hearts <3

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Inspiration Not Desperation

To be inspired
Is one’s desire
To be desperate
Is basically separate
From something you don’t need
Craving but no feed
Someone is calling but you leave
Making it harder for me to breathe
Taking my breath away
Like a stormy day
With nothing left to say is mine
Not even my nonexistent heart line
Its hard to say
But next to you I want to lay
To be encouraged to love
And to be appreciated of
Everything I do
Because it’s from my heart and true
The key to love is inspiration
Not Desperation

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Summer uprise

We wait all year
For a time that leaves us quick.
And what we fear
It consumes us till we’re sick

We meet
We talk
Before we make the big leap
We must slow down and walk

Caring for one another
Forgetting about “never again”
All the good feeling we rather
Than just a heart to lend

Up all night just to talk to someone
Hours a day
And we’re never done
We connect, so there's so much to say

Secrets now told
For so many reasons
Although you love the cold
I love and miss the summer breathing.
Words so real
In this moment in time, ill find the words to say
The words that I feel
Before you leave me today.

I swore i'd never write again. it's what happens when you have feelings you don't want to share. i swore..... i'd never pick up the pen. its happening again.

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

I can’t believe im writing—again

My stage name
Are used by strangers.
It’s similar but not the same
It protects be from the dangers

When I speak
Its who I want to be
Not who I am, the real me
What I say, makes me weak

My support
Is the heart of my muscles
A place without sort
And mostly struggles

As my want waves
I see my dreams in front of me
Realizing that this saves,
Saves me from changing into someone I’m trying to be

Every time
I relapse
Paper with a pen on the side
This is true love, perhaps

Lea Loveit is my stage name. This was not by lea loveit. it was by me... Aleyah Llovet. it holds significant meaning. I say my stage name meaning lea loveit. This is the only poem by Aleyah Llovet unless noted. either lea or aleyah its still the same person--me. i thought you should all know what i actually mean. if you're confused id be happy to explain! just comment :)

Jan 2015

Lea Loveit

Smoke

The words slip out your mouth
Like the smoke of a cig
Warm like a house
Smoke hallow and big

All the toxins stay in you
While your lies show me
What you really do
And the monster you’ll be

Words need oxygen
Something you lack
Saying it without confidence
As you start to attack

“smoke isn't good”
They teach
“Sometimes I thought it was and that I could”
But, you should practice what you preach