my god
what kind of god are you
all i wanted was to be your
heaven
all i wanted was to be your
star
how could you lie to me?
you taught me that the stars in the sky were
brilliance
benevolence
all i wanted was to be your
star
but i can see through your lies now
spread across the vastness of the sky stars are
beautiful
but stars are also
alone
they are born
writhing in pain
screaming with fire and fury
and they die
wrapped in shrouds of cold and darkness
out of reach
millions of years away

my god
what kind of god are you

Why is it the "love" I felt with her
Felt quick, we always remarked
"I can't believe it's been this long
I feel like it was yesterday..."
Yet this "love" I feel with you
Feels slow, but evenly paced.
We always remak
"I can't belive its only been this long
It feels like forever."

Thinking of you brings waves of tranquil anxiety.

Over the years
I've built this home inside of my mind
To put away the thoughts and fears
The for sale sign allows me to leave behind.
Soon the prevailing wind
Will soon bring vacation to an end,
I'll return to find a cracking foundation
Crumbling walls and stagnation.
I'll search for answers from the beginning
The cracks in my concrete grow
But you're the one filling them, I hope you know.