Isn't life an exploration process!
I felt like the Universe demands me to explore it
Every atom made that could be.
And I am going to explore every
Rock
Sand
Clay
Cloud
Individual
Birth
and Death
With tremendous Love and Passion only
For who are we here humans
Just pilgrims
Of passage
Here on this earth
Only here for Day, Months and A bunch of Years
So Tell me to Explore
And I will reply to You
To Explore this Life as well
To live it Deep
With Love, Calmness and Patience
Explore with Love!

At times, I feel haunted
Depressed, sad, up and down together
It’s like being haunted by some ghosts around me that cannot be seen
Except in my dreams or that I can hear only when the clock reaches midnight
I feel unhappy
At times careless too
All the feelings inside of me looks like choked in my throat so
I cannot breathe properly, nor rest, nor live
Have all these turned artificial to me?
For how long?
Too many rhetoric
And my sight only rest on the grey sky
The blue one does not seem to arrive yet!

I am a troubled woman
Sitting on a black chair
Drawing some strategies on the map of my life
Moving some pawns
From dark spots to white spots
From white corners to dark corners
Giving orders subtly to my credulous pawns
And I suddenly take the shape of a Baphomet
Making them do what contributes to my kingdom
I little mermaid Queen called Bahin Ji in my dreams
Is to execute these strategies
For I woman on my black chair
Can't allow my little self to fail
For the dream is too big
And the sky so high
And my beloved mother so down in her grave
So the moves need to be the right
Dark brain, sly mind
I advance and reign on my little plot of Land!

I realised after bouncing back that
It was too beautiful to be true
Too wonderful to last, so I sighed
The only thing I could do when you ended
All that made US, All that made you and I
 ONE
So, Only the nice pictures left, the pain feels
lighter, a little pinch in my heart is still here
But still more bearable and manageable now
It appealed so much like the "it  was meant to be"
     Perfect
The thing now was that, I hit a stage when I know
my worth and the reason why I could not insist was
that I was very much ready for someone who wants
To hold on to me, who is ready to receive all that
I could give, you were not ready, or wanted a pretense of
         Freedom
I cherished  this whole experience, of finally hitting
somebody that completes me, embellishes me, doing
everything to complete my happiness, I might be
writing these few words, so that in two or three years
these would be the words of, how I am feeling now
on this bizarre but still wonderful 1st of October so
   Quiet
You gave me joy and peace, and the very experience
only true lovers can go through, when midnight hits
And it's all I can take, the good and the great, how
could I take a piece of the cake that I am used to eat
       Whole
So, I walk away, I would not have given my friendship
To whom removes me, the so unique love I so asked
        For!

You are so much of one of the Skeletons
That I carry around everywhere I go
Deep in my Heart and Head
A ring, its your number
This voice
A
blessing to my ears
All of a sudden Rushing Feet
"I remember this girl, our co-worker
Why even when you don't work
K always says your name"
or
even calls me your name
Astonished face of mine
"I don't know", replied I softly
You are a beautiful ghost of my past
You
How to drop
Someone who follows me in that downfall
When an unfair judgement was called
upon me you left it all
because the setting
could no longer be the same
Without the
"US"
It could not be better
this day
soul in the dark
Heart in the sky
Reunited after a while
Blessings of my life
Tears of Gratitude
Two shooting stars
Doing the round of the earth
From the second
The door behind Us
Was closed.
Skeleton
Hidden one from a beautiful past
I
Wait
For
The
Next
Dance
!
K.

"By nature, shall most of the common mortals, expresses love and admiration of whoever is a leader of a political side or a monarch, for all little butterflies want to be here when the sharing of honey and good grace, will be"
From the Petty

Shall you Lord of Heaven and Earth
Speak Greatness upon me
For I Clay
Desires your potter hands
To lay their sacred Power on me
Then shall You
Creator of what does not exist
Blow some Star powder
Upon me
Let me clay Now be
A little Diamond among the bees
For I am thirsty of your calling
Ignite the power of Love in Me
Emulating scarcely
the Passion of Christ
A Love ToTem
In the Immensity of this unmeasurable galaxy
I shooting star have laid wings in...
I am silently
Fire in the eyes
Awaiting for thee!

For I jagged cloth
Hopes this life will sew my pieces together
Blue, Red, Dark and White
My colours Are
Trying to be a Rainbow
With my Own Flow
With my contrasting
Colours
Trying to make it through this sky
With winds, soft breeze,
At times violent winds
I Jagged Cloth
Can I still Dream of being part of
a Versace piece
I little Rainbow shall Once hit
A completely free blue still
with a litte touch of white cloud.

Laughs and sharing
Of what's tangible or not
An exchange of an eyesight or a smile
A cake, A sweet or Drinks
Disappearing after a simple misunderstanding
How
The Love was Not real
Because
Nothing Real Can be Threatened
and
True LOVE acclaims
For
Forgiveness

When Our Bodies come together,
it is just like you ignite me,
It's all of You and I,
Behind the Doors
Far from the
Eyes...

Silence!
On Mute mode... There's no talking
It's a weight on who wants an
Answer...
When words cannot make a
change...
When peace is settled,
And the Self is
High...
In war time Silence
Is the building strategy
Time...
When the bleeding heart
Heals...
A Momentum of Inner
Glory...
Self- Realisation needing
Silence and Actions
You can Only be Silent
When Peace is the
Queen of Your
Heart!
Silence can only be searched for!
It can Only be Loved,
chased, run after, never touched...
Silence is Power!

I feel less haunted today
Less like the Signalman
of Charles Dickens...
No More morbid thoughts
Less of the "Sheep In Fog"
of the beloved Plath...
Today,
is the Day of the Philosophy King,
I am the perfect leader of Plato
Reigning on my own world,
I am in my 50 Shades Lighter,
It is November and, I am
A Radiant Strong Flamboyant
Shining in the Day,
Resting at night in order
To shine the Next Day,
I have now a free mind
Like a free stage,
And the Ballerina is already dancing,
In a pink Velvet Dress!

Hello Linda,
I hope you are doing well
I hope that you lovely aunt
Is enjoying life, with its ups and
Downs, enjoying every single
second of it- life lovers-
able to breath-able to Dream
I am sitting, here thinking
Of our laughs, how our deviance
match, how our love for each
other, was rare, i feel blessed
Having you- Little Confessions
Shared Secrets- Mockery- Lovers
Smiles- Bad- Sad Days- Escaping Dad
How much we'd shared
It's aunty and niece Love
A Forever Love

My world is not just cozy, pink
With Rose petals on my brain
Night and Day as you desired it to be,
It's Realities and Aims,
Voicing out versus complete silence
It's thoughts and Acts
It's Step forth and Seat for observing the Realm
It's Pauses and Actions
It's of Falls and Get Ups
Walking and Running
It's walking and Now Driving
I am eager To EXPLORE
The Lines of LIFE
The Rhythm of The Universe

When your only Choice is to get up,
        When your only choice is to dry your eyes,
         When your only choice is to be strong,
         When your only choice is to swallow your pride
               and contain your words,
         When your only choice is standing straight,
      And When you Do all of that, that you have
          swallowed all your complaints and your grudge,
       You NOW Know That its UP to only you,
           To Design your Future and
                  Create the Life you want!