Remember when we were three?
When we used to run around my backyard with our grass stained knees?

Remember when we were six?
We were attached at the hip, with our matching outfits and silly tricks

Remember when we were nine?
That summer we spent our days making sandcastles on the shoreline

Remember when we were eleven?
When my parents got divorced?
I moved out of the neighborhood, and it seemed like you moved on from our friendship for good

Remember when we were thirteen?
When you started acting mean?
You started ignoring me at school
I guess that's when you started being "cool"

Remember when we were fourteen?
When you said I looked bulimic, with a disgusted look on your face
Guess what, that was the case
I could have used a friend, I wasn't well
Your words hurt like hell

Remember when we were fifteen?
When you took that pregnancy test?
To get boys to notice you you were always getting undressed  
I tried to ignore the rumors  
But they were about as glaring as a tumor

Remember when we were seventeen?
And you got that DUI?
Because you decided to drive drunk and high
I wanted to shake you
I wanted to believe that it wasn't true
That my best friend was now a stranger
That she would do something so dumb, putting herself and others in danger

I miss you
I miss the girl you used to be
The one who was so funny and carefree
We used to be two peas in a pod
But now when I see you things just feel odd
When I'm with you I might as well be alone, but I guess that's part of us becoming grown

Isn't it strange
How people change?

Let me break something down for you
Your cat calls and whistles leave me feeling cheap
and blue

No, they do not make me smile
Honestly, they make me feel quite vile

I was not put on this earth for your viewing pleasure
I am not some object that you have the right to just sit there and measure

Based off of what? My body? My face?
You are the reason I feel the need to carry mace

A woman's worth should not be determined by her appearance
How did this idea ever get clearance?

She is much more than what meets the eye
So next time you want to utter your lewd equivalent of a "hello" or a "hi"
Stop, and ask yourself "why?"

Sometimes,
I wish I had amnesia
Because then
Maybe I could forget the past
And the secrets that haunt me
At 5 am
Would finally let me be

It's been 6 months  
Since I've knelt down on the cold tile floor
To rid myself of my dinner
All in the name of being thinner

But the thoughts persist
Even though I try and resist
They insist and insist and insist
Why do they have to exist?

You're fat they say
God, I wish they'd just go away
I pray and I pray and I pray
That they disappear one day

I'm afraid I'll never be cured
All I want is to feel beautiful, to be self assured
But I've never felt more obscured
Then I think of how much I've endured
And how much I've matured

I will not be consumed by this disease
It will no longer bring me to my knees
And I know it won't go away with ease
But one day, I promise you, one day, it will seize

Remember that night we kissed?
It seemed your tongue just couldn't resist

In that moment, time stood still
God, your lips gave me such a thrill

That's a place I'd like to revisit someday  
And maybe even stay

So what do you say, can we repeat the past?
Maybe this time we'll even last

I was fourteen that summer
We only spent a week together
And it may have only been a week
But God you made my knees weak

And I remember the moment I first saw you
So tall and slender, with those big brown eyes
You sat down next to me on the those front steps
And now every time I see those steps
I still think of you

I was shucking corn when you offered to help
Your southern drawl was so enticing
I handed you an ear, and your hand graced mine
God your touch took my breath away
You told me you liked my shirt
It doesn't fit me anymore, but I keep it anyway

I remember that night around the bomb fire
When I pointed out the small dipper
You looked over at me with those big brown eyes
You told me I was like the small dipper
I'm still not really sure what you meant by that
But it sounded romantic, and I smiled

The day you left I didn't move
Knowing that my whirl wind romance
Had run its course
I saw you one year later
But all I could offer was a meek hello
I wanted to say more
But then you were gone
And I was left wondering

I wonder what you thought of me  
If you were as anamored by me
As I was by you
If I made your heart smile and your ears sing
As you did mine
If for that one week
You were as in love with me
As I was with you  

It's been five years
But my thoughts still come back to you
I wonder what's become of you
I wonder if you're in love
I wonder if you're happy
I wonder what could have been

I heard you live in Germany now
How's the weather there?
Anyway,
Thanks for that one week
And thanks for the music suggestions
You were right,
The Rolling Stones are awesome

P.S, you made an excellent bocce ball partner.

It's been 20 minutes you say
It's just coffee you say
You're so indecisive you say

My favorite color may change with the seasons
And I may not do everything with rhyme or reason

I may fall in love with every book I read
And I may not always know what I need

I may be a different girl than I was a short time ago
And there may be a lot I do not know

My life may be one big question mark
Like a tree that has lost it's bark

But,
If there's one thing I know the answer to
It's who I want to stand in the grocery store with
Staring at coffee choices for twenty minutes, just enjoying the view
And that person,
Is you