I've escaped
without a hangover
far too many times
gone uninjured
when I should've
died
I'm no cat
I'm living on
borrowed
lives

what happens when
I have to repay
my
debts?

Electric razor
buzzed to life
across my scalp
as hair fell
to the ground
fresh start
given to me
by a
No. 4
clipper
guard

Scares the
**** out of me
but my best
of best friends
said,
"Grow,
grow and be
free."

Oil fumes
wove with
that burst of laughter
so sought after
by my blood
pumper
thump, thump
my god
what is this?
Can it be
I'm finally
ready to
breathe out
love
again?

Window of
opportunity
stayed shut
minute by minute
waited, wanted
but class finished
and I watched
the elegant curve of
her back
disappear
through the door
the soft pad of her
footsteps
contrasting
with the resounding
thud of my
heart

Five days
deep in
No Shave Novemeber
but tomorrow
scraggle and all
I'll ask her,
"You know that dollar
you owe me?
You can forget about
it
if I can take you
on a
date."

This couch
never felt so frigid
covered in ice
laced with
an
image,
your
dress
on the frosty
floors
as mine
and yours
becomes
ours
.

I still love
dousing
your sweater
in oceans of grey
spilling potion on the
sleeve
making it smell of me
wearing it to sleep
each time I don it
I drain a little more
of you
out of my
memory

Ever felt the urge
To cry but the tears
Just won’t surge?