Climbing a spiral
stair
inside an ever narrowing
tower
no power
weak knees
trying to reach
the top floor
balcony
but my feet are
disappearing
help me
help
me

When I just
turned thirteen
life was a dream
wonder abound in
the air
I didn't care
that was all in my mind
now I think too much
and waste my time
how did I become
so much
less
when all I wanted
was to be
more

Drifted
slipped
fell
from a goal
that could fulfill
my soul
phone call with mom
asked what was wrong
and what course in life
would make me feel
better than alright
before I could think
words formed
"English Teacher"

If I awoke
one day to find
the past six years
were but a dream
I would rejoice
and change all
the things
I've come to
regret

Awoken
by pounding on the door
at two in the morn
stumble up
fumble with the lock
two of my dear friends
hammered and in shock
that I answered
Both beautiful
despite their state
before I could say,
"Hey"
They kissed my face
and bit my neck
hugged me
to and fro
I know they were
drunk
but those were
the first kisses
I've had in months
and months
I fell asleep
with a
smile

Had my wisdom
ripped from me
today
mouth jumbled
in a slew of words
verbs
slurs
slept deep
flying with the birds
not knowledge less
but none the
wiser

A cold wind
blows at my back
shouting its frigid
yells into my sails
making the anchor drag
sweeping the deck
in salty brine
I've come to know
these elements
with a one man crew
setting sail
toward something
new

I've come to feel
completely
ordinary

Torn
between
trying to
love
and knowing
in a year
I will leave
again

Once a week
I get caught up
in thought
and lost
so lost
What is this all
for?
Why bother with
a sandwich shop
community college
and being poor?
the only thing I understand
is how to write
and
play chords
the rest of this
seems
so
.
.
.
meaningless