She loved me so much,
I was spoon fed love,
With lips sewn shut.

Her words spun silk,
through a rusted cage of hanging hearts.

I saw her in the final scene of a movie I’d always been meaning to watch.

So I begged for her.
She came-
Holding planets and stars-
And in the blackness of our eclipse,
she then begged me to leave **

The lens through which you see the world is yours alone,
no one else sees exactly what you see,
Or how you see it,
Your universe is yours -no one else’s.

Be as beautiful as you like,
but don’t always expect the world to return the favour **

How do we grow in the fires,
Burnt by an infinite flame,
Should I write my name in the ash…
As for now,
the past is the present,
Has the beginning become an eternity?

Yet as we grow,
and the roots creep deeper,
Will our orchard sway to these chants of affirmation,
glow in its broken mosaic,
Will our chants be heard,
Even at all..

Maybe when the first fruits fall..
They’ll Kiss the dew drenched grass quietly in the morning mist,
Maybe then our pain will catch a glimmer,
A fragrance,
A taste,
No more hunger for thunder,
No more names written in ash **

Fatherless child,
Childless heart,
Childish mind,
Hopeless start,
Love is sore,
A Frightened chance,
Children at war,
Where hearts should dance **

I’m dying to live,
But how?
I don’t even know what life is!
My idea of it made me worthless.

Thinking is a sandstorm!
Devouring all meaning.
Yet Sometimes,
In a brief moment,
I think
that I’m happy,
But
Happiness,
is a feeling,
not
a thought.

So I ask myself,
Do I really want to live?

If so,
then first
Maybe
I should find the courage,
    to let myself die **

You found me washed up,
I’d fallen at sea,
Searching for an island,
I’d dreamt into being-
I was sure it was safe from all harm.

Half alive,
you dragged me up and into the dunes,
Began to resuscitate me,
with nothing else, but the sureness in your eyes.
My heart danced,
Yet my head stood still.

We tangled our threads,
I held your throat, with electric hands,
Wrapped up in our own special place,
You were my fire in the rain.

And as the fires roared,
Love soared,
So I jumped from my own skin,
With fear In my hands,
Strangled my self to death
Putting myself out,  
trampling upon the embers of us,

      With the same old boots i had worn before   you saved my life x x

A Face without eyes,
A slow dance to a song without notes.
I’m Floating in space,
My love howls into silence
No smiles to be found down slippery slopes.

Oceans of sin,
I swim and i swim,
For fear of what lurks on the land.
Hold my hand in the dark,
We can live with one another,
as the storm fiercely greets golden sands.

Sideways, i smile at the moon in the night,
Its glare looms over my heart,
A bird with clipped wings falls cold on bleak wind,
And plummets..
right back to the start x x