There's a spark in the darkness,
A faint glimmer of hope,
Someone to dull the ache
So you know you're not alone.

A moonbeam, silver streak of light,
Bursting through the black
To ease the troubled mind,
Kindling your heart until your faith comes back.

The warmth spreads
Like waves across the sand,
Lingering like fog
Inches above the land,

But nothing in pitch can last.

The distant glow,
The perfect summer night
Grow dimmer and fade
Keeping just out of sight.

You strain to see
The light in the dark,
The burning sensation
That tears you apart

The semblance of joy,
Of something exciting and new
Temporary at best
Like a shooting star, a lovely view.

Here one moment,
Gone the next,
A flash of light
Swallowed by the swirling vortex;

A dank void, a gaping mess,
Clinging to what might have been,
Filled with hope and restlessness
Waiting for the match to be lit again.

Dressed up with nowhere to go,
A bad feeling in your stomach, your heart sinking low
Waiting patiently for the phone to ring
With the name of the boy who makes your heart sing
Only to find that the call would never come though,
Would never reach your ears--if only he knew...
Knew how much it hurts,
How long the pain lurks
In the shadows of your heart, in the depths of your soul,
Driving you down even deeper into a hole
That you dug, full of sorrow and doubt
Terrified of losing something you can't imagine life without.
Even though it seems lopsided and unreal
And you know **** well that there's so much more YOU feel...
When he treats you like this,
Forgets you exist,
It's hard to believe there's anything there at all...
So, I'll lay back and let myself fall,
Spiraling down, watching your sweet face disappear into a cloud...
The silence of your heart never seemed so loud.
But I'll keep straining, listening
With my positivie thinking
And maybe one day you'll be able to save me from sinking...

Fade away slowly without a trace,
Close your eyes to find a happier place

A place where you don't have to hide,
A paradise so lovely, buried deep inside

Home of your heart where nothing could be more true
Where you have a chance to try on a new shoe

Just to see how it fits for a bit
Until you wander back to the growing pit

The void that is your world, something like Hell,
The abyss that makes you long for your shell

The solace you create behind closed doors
The imaginary pink and purple sky with golden sea shores

A place you long for in your dreams,
Slipping through your fingers and bursting at the seams

Clinging to a false hope that not everyone is the same,
Enough to break your heart, to make you go insane

Especially when you realize you're the only one who's different,
Floating alone on an island so distant

From everyone and anyone you believed to be close
That end up forgetting you, treating you like a ghost

I'm struggling across the span,
To bridge the gap but I don't think I can

How can something be fixed when no one thinks it's broken?
I'll take my lonely island and leave you with a token;

A semblance of life beyond the reality,
A life that I pray the world will one day see...

Now you see it,
Now you don't.
You can try to get inside
But accept the fact you won't.

My heart is hiding
Where only a select few can see
The people I grow to love
And who can endure the real me

She's behind four walls,
Safe under lock and key
Tending to all her wounds,
Burried under miles of secrecy.

The light burns her
To remind her why she's there
With tired, crimson eyes
And years of pent up despair

Because even a glimpse,
Just the tiniest peek
Makes people tune her out
And turn the other cheek

For no one can deal with
Problems that aren't their own
No one extends a hand to help;
There's no love, no compassion shown.

Hidden behind a smile
My scarred heart will stay
Living in fear when someone
Might try and take her away

From her beloved sanctuary
Just to cause her more pain
When the truth is revealed
That no one can give without gain.

Retreating alone to lick her wounds,
My heart will remain behind a closed door
Mending what's been broken
So many times before

Waiting patiently day and night
Until her tears run dry
Hiding until she has the chance
To break free, spread her wings, and fly...

What is life but a downward plight
Struggling to find your way and do what's right
Working hard to pay for your needs
While listening to other cries and pleas.
For a life of tedium is not a life worth living
The world is corrupt and less people are willing
To help their fellow man, give the shirt off their back
Conviction, these days, is what humans lack.
The ignored cries for help while the majority weep
It's no wonder none of us are able to sleep;
Dealing with our mundane, uninteresting existence
While the demand for more of us becomes most persistent
Until all you can do is relax and cry
While the universe continues to bleed you dry
And what is left of you but a token?
Gone in due time with the words you left unspoken

I wonder: Will there ever be a day
When I'll wake up and be okay

A day when I'll want to get out of bed,
A day when I'll be able to forget everything you said.

For now when I wake,
The only thing I feel is a hollow ache...

Deep in my heart where I keep your memory
Blinding my judgement making it impossible to see

The people around, the people I could meet
Because I'm just too busy staring at my feet

Thinking of you, and everything you are
Thinking of how to hide the scar

That you created, deep within my core
My red, tear-stained eyes become tired and sore

Because you are all that's on my mind.
Perhaps I'll stay trapped in this time

Day after day, hoping that someday
I just might be okay.

Let's start out together, just you and me
Side by side we'll be as happy as can be

In the begining there's no need for fear
Because if you have any doubts he'll always be near.

But as time goes by, things begin to change
Moments between you become awkward and strange

The distance of his heart becomes greater
He never makes time for you--you always come later.

You cling to hope because you can't let go
There has to be a way to let him know

That  you've never felt this way;
Never wanted to be with someone everyday

Never feel like yourself when he's not around
Never thought anyone else's voice was the most beautiful sound...

But if his feelings don't match your own
There's no way that you won't end up alone

Because he's the one--you know in your heart that it's true
But for him there's someone else, someone not at all like you;

Someone who can be exactly what he needs,
Someone he looks at and actually sees

And you'll have to try and live your life
Try to wish them well while you're burried in strife

Knowing you lost the best thing your heart ever knew,
The man that no one else will ever compare to.