i remember it like yesterday, rather, week or two ago
i said i can't, no wait, she said you really ought to go
denied and bargained, screamed and cried
regretted calls but never lied
we were children then, all our time to take
but **** that, we're older now, and only phones will break

skip a chapter, maybe two, and go back to the start
time distorting to pass time, love life being smart
i have no words, no grains of sand
not a ******* thing in this whole land
i was a child then, all my time to take
but **** that, i'm older now, and only cars will break

waiting on impatient tables, waiting on impatient life
waiting on some therapist to figure out my strife
along came someone, someone new
someone random, someone blue
i was a child then, all my time to take
but **** that, i'm older now, and only lungs will break

i could say i'm doing fine but you know that's just a line
and lines are better kept for that **** screenplay of mine
i'll finish it, in all's good time
and come up with one more good rhyme
you say we're children now, we need more time to take
i guess we're not too old for these ******* hearts to break

tail
and
wing of
thornbirds
vault
through
this
heaven
the
scent of
breckenridge
blue sky

his storm was over.
     and i was sitting alone on a driveway
wet with rain and rough on my thighs
     your hand was there to pull me up
and you reminded me of the sunrise
     after a year-long night
365 days spent -
                             wasted
                                            - on someone who left me nearly destroyed

     but there was a single sprout of life left in me, a tiny lick of green to prove i was more than he could ****
     and you spent long days and longer nights
nurturing that inside of me -
     that sprout of hope that no one else could find

                 and i hope we're standing together one day
                      years from now
                 with your arm around my waist
                      and your face smiling a foot above mine

     someone will ask how we got so lucky
and we will know the answer


                   you showed me sunshine when i knew
              nothing but storms
                   you saw me at my worst and you stayed
              when no one else did
                  you cared for me when I was all
              anger and hate and sharp edges
                  you taught me how to trust again
              until i was almost human


     the sprout grew into a garden because of you
and all of it is yours

so many people want to die
and it makes me
want to cry

I was thinking 'bout my life and how it's gonna be
Left it up to God, He put it back on me
went lookin' for direction but I'm just your average Jane
don't like all these decisions, the unknown mystifies my brain

I pondered over all the things I've done before
thought I could walk on water, knocked on every door
nothing much was scary then and nothing much was out of place
Walked by faith, and left the rest to Grace.

I'm thinking that my life here is beyond halfway
I found myself with bills I can't afford to pay
playing hard was easy yeah, but paying back is hard to do
tracing all my steps, it seems they always lead me back to You.

When I said that I would follow God, I meant it too
stayed away from magic, idols, and taboo
and doing the right thing, the only thing that mattered
You planted the Word, and by the wind those seeds were scattered.

Turned my back on old religion, not the way for me
well you can keep your catachism and your rosary
never being sure your gonna get into the promised land,
God showed how much He loved us when He took the nails in his hand.

Your raised me out of darkness way before I'm dead
left the puzzle all undone, and lit the way instead
I'm thinking again, but far much higher this time
It's not my will but yours that I am hoping to find.

I've got some time to spend and time is on my hands
I wanna do your will and follow your commands
I know it's not by might, and not by useless power
But by your spirit I will serve to my last hour.

And as I'm on my way, just doing what I do
I'm gonna try my best and kiss it all to you
Well I make mistakes and I've seen some wicked days
but out of every darkness, your faithful love, it lights my ways