I have no idea what I'm doing
I'm clueless on what's happening
I only know one thing with certainty
It's that you were supposedly  my infinity

From the moment you walked through that door
I knew that there was so much more
As soon as you said hello
I looked forward to our tomorrow

Months passed, we grew close
We knew each other from our head to our toes
The more time spent with you, the more I fell
I guess I was under your spell

I managed to decode your complicated pieces
And one of the things I realized is
You needed a hand to hold through life's disasters
A best friend and not a lover

You needed a wall, you needed a shoulder
Someone to lean on anytime and whenever
You said I gave you strength and power
And that you see me as a sister

That pained me in more  ways than one could imagine
In reply, I gave you a warm grin
I was your friend, a sister and nothing more
But you are the gallant knight I adore

Accepting that we would never be more than friends
And since I don't want our bond to end
Even if it's hard for me to say...
Dear best friend, we are better of  *this way

i was wondering,
what was i thinking
when i decided to fall for you?

but then i realized,
i didn't;

i didn't think,
nor did i decide;

i just fell,
deliberately.