I could never hide in shadows
Lurking and lingering
A wall flower
I could never blend in with the crowd
I could never wait for my moment
My mind says my moment is now
And if I fail
I could never be unhappy that I tried

I could never hide my anger
Seething and boiling
A volcano
I could never keep from erupting
I could never count backwards from ten
My mind says I've been wronged
So be wrong
I could never accept the damage done

I could never hide my hope
Growing and calling
A spring flower
I could never help but reach for the sun
I could never accept that this is all there is
My mind says something more
And I reach for more
I could never have my life be any other way

I could never hide my love
Sweet and binding
A summers morning
I could never keep from singing louder than the birds
I could never keep from you
My mind says my love will save you
I dont know if it can
I could never believe that it can't

As I buried my face into her neck.
As I wrapped my arms around her chest.
It felt like nothing could be better at this moment.
It felt like taking my last gasping breath.

The scent of roses and blossoms ignited my soul.
And it was that very moment after which I never felt alone.

You, were beautiful.
Majestic for all I could say,
Nothing had never been so perfect.
Nothing that I could portray

Like the harmless moonlight,
You put ease to my heart.
Like the chirping sound of birds on a Sunday morning.
Like a beautiful life I wanted to start.

There's so much love between us,
Love that we don't need.
It's a delusion in our heads,
A delusion bringing us to our knees.

We believe in things that are non existent,
And by 'we' I also mean me.
We believe them to our death,
Things that we never see.

Things that seem ethereal,
Things that seem like heaven.
Things like, love.
Something that works like venom.

It kills you, but not once.
It heals you, but to play more.
It's bruises cannot be seen,
But this is what you asked for.

Because You did this,
You opened the door.
For the day you fell in love,
Was the day you declared war.'

some days the weight of the world
sends us tumbling from our apartment windows
too fast for regrets to catch us
but the concrete will cradle you and
rock your fluttering heart to sleep

You used me,
Like a soulless piece of meat.
You used me,
As you burned me in your heat.

Your eyes full of lust,
As your demons were thirsty.
You agonized my body,
As I pleaded for mercy.

I shouted in pain,
I cried and I yelled.
But No one heard my voice,
No one came to help.

And then,
We were caught.
They said it was my fault!

I, am the one being abused!
Just look at the pain in my eyes?
You say I'm guilty,
As you're fooled by the devil's disguise.

Why did you leave me here?
Defenceless and alone.
Why did you not protect me?
Why did you not keep me home?

It's not my fault,
This is all on you!
You abandoned your daughter!
There was nothing I could do.

I have a question.

Did you know of the dirt under his fingernails when he buried his secrets.

Did you see the stains of my blood on his shirts.

The ones with which he wiped my body as I lay motionless on his bed.
Knowing that you still call me a disgrace,
Why don't you **** yourself instead!

But now, I'm going.
Somewhere far away.
To start over again,
Where no one would judge, nor will betray.

Somewhere near heaven,
Right next to a river.
Where God will be my guardian,
And I will be safe forever.

Today I leave this world with nothing but bad memories.
Today I leave this world with broken dreams and stories of miseries.

Goodbye to the parents I never had,
Goodbye to the monster who killed me but I'm glad.
I'm glad I died,
It's better than being eaten from the inside.