i made you
turn the doorknob for me
me
me with hands full of squishy pumpkin guts
wash them clean to get them messy
again
sculpting a friendship out of a fractured romance
you, with your broken shovel still planted in my backyard
sliding your hands over me, no friction
like a pool stick in between our chalky fingers
the thunder of knocking down bowling pins
sounds like atom bombs in an empty arcade room

how dare you

Body of ocean, milk and sky,
We are tangled in the hope of night.
The lips of the milky way, creaming us,
Stains and is **** with a taste keening;
All is creation.  My meteors crash
Into your ruptured Earth.  I flame
Upon your must and moisted furrows
And my toes are locked, rooted in yours.

Body of ocean, milk and sky,
In the deserts of the day you are true
Oasis.  The curves and waft of your sands
Seethe and sodden my barren plains,
Are erasing all my wandering memories
Of an endless sky and now your eyes
Are the only stars I know, and your skin;
A sheet that holds the heavens shimmering.

Body of ocean, milk and sky,
Your ******* are the heaving of grasses
And wind, loft and laden in the rounded
Hills, a hoard of ****** bread, bountiful,
Ripe and strange.  Your hair is an endless
Savannah, your valleys are gold and honeyed
With milk, seared, filled by my penetrating sun.
In passion we play; low on earth and deep in sky.

YOU LEFT ME BECAUSE OF THE CIGARETTES I SMOKE,
NOW MY LUNGS ARE BURNING MORE THAN EVER.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH IT HURTS.

I SAW OUR FUTURE SO CLEARLY

IT NEVER OCCURRED TO ME THAT I MIGHT HAVE ONE WITHOUT YOU.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND IT HURTS.

I KEEP REMEMBERING OUR NIGHT TOGETHER-
WE STAYED OUT TILL THE SUN CAME UP.

BEFORE YOU I WOULD GO TO SLEEP HOPING IT WOULD BE THE LAST TIME I CLOSE MY EYES-

YOU GAVE MY HOPE.

I LOVED THE SUN AND I LOVED THE MOON.
I LOVED THE STARS AND I LOVED YOU.

GOD KNOWS I WISH I STILL HAD YOU.

MY HEART ACHES AND I CAN’T BREATHE.
I’VE CRIED LAKES AND I STILL HAVE RIVERS TO FILL.

IF MY TEARS WERE RED,

YOU’D SEE HOW MUCH I BLEED FOR YOU.
IF MY VEINS WERE BLUE,

I’D SLIT OCEANS FOR YOU.

I’M SO TIRED AND SO NUMB.

MY WORLD IS SO QUIET.

AND IT HURTS TO KNOW YOU’LL NEVER KNOW WHERE I’M COMING FROM.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH AND MY PAIN RUNS DEEP INSIDE OF ME.

CUT ME OPEN AND LET ME BLEED.

I’M SO SICK OF THE PAIN AND SO SICK OF THE RAIN.
I’M JUST AS CLOSE TO RUNNING AWAY
AS I WAS TO YOU.

I DON’T KNOW HOW TO COPE BECAUSE I DON’T KNOW HOW TO LOSE YOU.

I’D GIVE ANYTHING TO LOOK INTO YOUR EYES ONCE MORE-

TO FEEL YOUR HANDS AND SEE YOUR SMILE.

YOUR BEAUTIFUL SMILE-

I’D TEAR OCEANS APART AND SPIT AT THE SUN.

I’D SHINE LIGHT AT STARS AND BREAK MOUNTAINS TO CRUMBS.

JUST TO SEE THE SMILE THAT TURNED MY HEART INTO AN ORCHESTRA OF DRUMS.

I’M FALLING APART AND ROTTING AWAY.
MY GOOSEBUMPS ARE STARTING TO ACHE.
MY EYES ARE TOO TIRED TO WAKE
.
MY LUNGS ARE TOO BURNT TO TAKE
ANY MORE OF THIS PAIN-

AND MY HEART WILL FOREVER BE YOURS TO BREAK.

‏-want me like i want you,

Did you know?
That it's raining down the halls?
I started a fire,
And set off all the alarms.

So moisture sinks into the carpet and it remains there,
long after we've cleaned up.

So whatever hadn't burnt,
Has begun to rot.

Two blackbirds on a high line
Screaming obscenities at the rising sun
I wonder what they're saying?
The nape of her neck, whole milk and henna hair
Making love in the cotton cotton cotton
Tea is best shared among lovers
Hot or cold we sip from the same cup
My love, turn on that darkness, a steady drip
Fresh melon on your lips
I want to lick them
eternally
Just kiss my back, my ear, me
It's all I ask
Let me into your watercolor soul
Paint my heart in shades of ocher, teal, and meridian
Any color will do
As long as I paint with you
You alone

Even though you are away
I will still stay
Waiting for that one inevitably unexpecting day
When you mindlessly pass my way
And finally,
Abruptly,
Steal my wanderlust soul astray.