Cassidy Napolitan

Cassidy Napolitan Jul 2019

it's never too early to pack up your whole life
of memories and hopeless grudges.
Pounds of paint
scraps of metal
half read medical books
screws and nails

I'm moving out tomorrow
and boy am i excited
to pack up my belongings.
I'm excited to stop crying in this room
about a future that's unforeseeable
and a past that's unchangeable.

I'm excited to ***** the backyard with my hands
with potting soil and dream seeds

undergrad pains growing

Cassidy Napolitan Jan 2019

Refuse to be Used

I need rehab from you, and I’m sorry
but this isn’t healthy.
Admitting being a problem is sobering
And I hope you can recover from my withdrawal.
I’ll be busy detoxing myself,
For everyone after you.
But mostly for myself.
I hope you remember how great you are!!
As I try to forget all the poison you gave me
I'll be cheering you on from a far!!
& revising the scripts I tell myself
So that one day I'll believe again
that I'm better off
without
This
Pain

#bittersweet #communication #pain #breakups #rebuilding

Cassidy Napolitan Nov 2018

starve my demons

I know not what I am
But I sure as hell am scared
Sometimes I catch a glimpse
and wish I had not dared.

I haven't been myself I mumbled,
it's been a short 4 years.
Yet everyday I am humbled!
to be honest with my fears!

Surviving off whats left of my self loathing
are the devilish voices that I used to feed.
Watering my mind's garden is refreshing
and THAT'S the energy that I need!

This piece has a very surprisingly optimistic point of view by the end of it.
edited.

#selfdiscovery #selfloathing #demons #optimism

Cassidy Napolitan Nov 2018

Dear Introverted boyfriend

I don't want to be made
to feel broken
For wearing my heart out on my sleeve.
Stop making me feel broken
for wearing my heart out on my sleeve.
But I would like to thank you

For making me feel complete.

I have finally noticed

That I am all that I need.

You have pushed me closer to myself

Cassidy Napolitan Nov 2018

superficial

be with someone who starts a fire
brings the kindle
glows when you are near
and brags about your warmth
not someone who retreats
when you crackle

be with someone who wants to sink deeper
than the choppy surface
behind your sarcasm
beyond the distance
and still sees your worth
not someone whose scared
by your preferences

#opposites #attraction #bittersweet #melancholy #pain #differences

Cassidy Napolitan Nov 2018

my eyes

i am washing my face
he still wont look at me
i am dancing to his music
he still wont look at me
i am timidly talking to him
he still wont look at me
i am watching him talk with you
he watches you so carefully
i wonder what he sees
when he holds your gaze considerably

dear boyfriend, i'm here too

#anxiety #rage #jealousy #apathy #confusion

Cassidy Napolitan Oct 2018

There's a hurricane a comin'!

The room is shaking
Oh wait that's just me
Shake me from my delusion
It's me I'm really good at fooling
Wanna watch me break free
From my own insanity
There is a whirlwind in my heart
Its tearing me apart!
And I can not see past
All this broken glass

Haha I'm anxious