Maybe I am so jealous
That the essence of it
Leaks from my pores
Or maybe
I'm so tired of being a part of nothing
That my urge to be a part of everything
Is overwhelming
To the point
Of obsessive compulsions
To the point
Where it feels as though
Death has taken a seat at my doorstep
When all else has but failed
I am left with my anxiety
And I can't explain it
And no one understands
So I am alone

I wish that for just
            one second
I could show you my love for you
How when you first open your eyes in the morning,
I feel as though I just plunged into an ice cold river
and when your mouth curves to smile,
candles are lit in the darkest spots of my mind
and when you drag a single finger across my back,
every tiny hair on my body stands straight as a soldier
and when I hear you say my name,
It's like a chorus of angels singing hallelujah
You almost make me believe in God
because someone as perfect as you had to be created, and not an act of science.

I think about my baby
And how she's all alone
The many things I'd do to her
I have to make it known

I'd give her kisses deep and soft
Her tongue will taste so sweet
With my hands on her hips
Our kissing will create a beat

Then clothes will come off
Things will grow in passion
Her body will feel like silk
Her skin better than the highest fashion

She will make me guide her
Right over to our bed
We will lay down and kiss
Make me feel out of my head

I will travel down her belly
Worshipping every inch
She will shiver and she will shake
The sensation making her flinch

As I make my way down
She naturally spreads her legs
I fit right in-between them
This point is when she begs

I kiss the very part of her
That is the most private
Her moans reassure me
That she truly, really loves it

Her **** sounds of pleasure
Make my job so rewarding
I could do this forever
It will never get boring

As I continue my loving
Right on her sweet spot
She moves in sync with me
Giving me all that she's got

I take her to the highest place
I go right along with her
We have a lot of ailments
But we are each other's cure

She explodes and it tastes so good
Her hands are on my head
And she pulls me to her
Heaven is what we have in our
own
little
bed

I'm sinking into the sand that will never let me surface to the sea
never let me surface to the top of the waters, where i can breathe in the stuff that makes me, me
I'm lost in this smothering scandal that drains my soul of its life
i can't get out of this unbreathable stuff,
its ******* me down,
and its shrill taste is tainting my life

I'm stuck in this mess and ill never come out
I'm stuck in this mess; will i be stuck here for life?

it took me
one second
to fall in
love with
you

it took you
two seconds
to find out
you
wanted nothing to do
with me

I do not want to be yours.
Let me be.
Leave my skin
  my stormy thoughts
  my chilled and fearful heart.

Let your imprint fade away
The taste of honeyed lips..
Rich amber colored eyes
  looking into the very depths of me.

Oh, release me..

Let me forget, please (please)
Let us fade beyond vague memory,
that souls being no wiser
  can breathe this everyday air
  cleansed of heady perfume.

Do not steal my life
  the color of my paints
  the soul of a melody
  the joy in moment when I am not with you.
Do not persist.
Let me be.
Leave my skin.
I do not want to be yours.