I'm tired of chasing after you.
I'm tired of wondering if you love me still.
I'm tired of believing you care.
I'm tired of wondering if you dare call me up and sigh that you miss my face.

I'm tired of you disappearing for 7 days.
I'm tired of your endless digs at me.
I'm tired of defending your case.
I'm tired of waiting for you to miss me.

I'm tired,
oh so very tired.

*-c.a.

"You look tired."

"Have you been getting enough sleep?"

To tell you the truth my system's out of whack.

All because of you and our video chats.

I've been up all night with you,

8 hours of no sleep.

Talking about things, just you and me.

-*c.a.

long dresses and pigtails
clips in her hair and tiara on her head
glitter on her eyes and lip gloss on
little pink shoes and white lace socks
do you like her?

cigarette smoke and ***** breath
smeared mascara and red lipstick
high heeled shoes and black fishnet tights
long black hair and cold dead eyes
what about now?

locked in her room and broken down
slashed wrists and matted hair
empty pill bottles and full of oblivion
goodbyes said and hellos forgotten
well it's too late now.

*-c.a.

I don't know why
but you're perfect to me.
I think your eyes are a specialty.
I think your laugh is a wondrous thing.
I think that your smile is an invitation to proceed.
I think that you and I were meant to be.

But then I think,
am I right for you?
am I good enough?
I also wonder if,
I annoy you
or I you wish me gone.
My thoughts won't let me love
but my heart's on my sleeve.
I really just wish that you and I could be.

*-c.a.