The way it’s rainin’
It’s just like forgettin’
Pain that lasted a lifetime
Because it was swept away by your love

The way it’s rainin’
It’s just like rememberin’
Love still works
When you decide to let it in

It’s rainin’
Like never before
Summer can wait
For as long as it takes
For the rain
To bring you to my door

An old creek bed still knows what to do
You just have to give it what it needs
You can let your heart dry up
Or let it rain and see where it leads

It’s rainin’
Like never before
Summer can wait
For as long as it takes
For the rain
To bring you to my door

The way it’s rainin’
It’s just like livin’
In her garden
With flowers she planted long ago

aflush with nerves

brush against me

little death

flash of heat

unsteady beats

kiss me?



so consuming
waves washing
heavy breathing
clouded mind
pulsing heat
fingers brushing
nerves tingling
panic rising
kiss me?

That moment
Our hands
Touched

Linger

Your eyes
Bashful
Looked away
Stage left

(To what?
Believe me
I've studied
The still-frame
In my mind
Ever-aging)

Then
You pulled away
As did I
Because the world is a cold place
When it's just us two

I'm too overwhelmed, I can't be helped
I just want to be able to breathe
I want to smile, I want to laugh hard
I want to be able to feel joy
But I can't, I'm stuck
In this rut called my life
I don't know the reason anymore

I don't like what we have
I feel like there's no point
I care for you, more than  you realize
But I can't keep doing what we are
I want you, ***, I do
I'll even go as far to say I love you
But it's a charade if I keep going
It hurts too much to know
You don't see me as I see you
I just can't keep fooling myself

Tell me a secret
Tell me a lie
Tell me I'm special
Then leave me behind
Whisper a phrase
That makes my heart skip
Hold me so closely
And let us touch lips

Maybe it's time to think things through
You love me, but do I love you?
Something's giving me reason to doubt
Now I'm confused, do you want out?
I guess what I'm saying is something seems new
Just not sure it's me, but not sure it's you.

Plaster a smile onto your mask
Fake that you're more than okay
Pretend the night is beautiful and young
And fight the urge to run away
Face your fears with more than angst
Find a place to keep yourself safe
And if anything goes completely awry
Get out before anyone knows why
Your secret needs to stay untold
The things you know cannot be shown
Be sure to hide behind that mask
And fool those that wish tonight was your last.

You say you understand me.
You claim to know me.
While you still know,
nothing.

You will insult me behind my back,
then pretend nothing happened.

I am just a pawn,
of your little game.

Maybe I had hope,
Maybe I saw something,
but now I see something else.

What am I chasing?
What am I running to?
What do I see at the end,
of this ever narrowing hallway?

A Small Light?
Or Satan's Play?

Is it worth finding out?

My Heart says yea,
My Brain says nay,

Am I about to snap?
Am I about to break?
Am I about to collapse?

Nay,

Strong I will stay,
against your little play.

I will continue through.

Through this ever closing narrow hallway.

I will finish this race.

For the sake of my sanity,

I will discover *You