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Train tracks
strewn with
bits of broken glass
That shimmer in
The cold winter sun.
I think about jumping
In front of
The next orange line train

Alone and lonely
The darkness takes me.
I'm searching for shooting stars
in the night sky
but the street lights
are too bright
and the clouds are
too dense.
The rain falls
slowly, it beats
******* my window
pane.

I'm tired
But sleep is only temporary
I'm sick
But meds only help for now
I'm dying
But right now I'm still breathing
Please, help me
But we both know you can't

sometimes I just sit,
wondering...
what is it that makes life so meaningful?
especially for the kids who get bullied or tormented
what makes it special?

Then I realized I am special
because I respect those kids not bully them
because I believe and act like myself
because I know whats right from wrong
because I am true...

I was there, and so was he
I guess I was tired of my feelings
I needed someone to see

I called; I texted; I got no reply.
I needed something to replace the desperation. Don't ask me why...

He was there, when you would not be.
or perhaps could not...
That part was unclear to me.

I accepted his embrace,
but longed for yours instead.
He couldn't take your place.
He only shared my bed.

But you, whether or not you're aware,
You possess my heart, my passion.
To be honest, it's rather unfair.

No promise made and I pull away from him.
I couldn't return his kiss; only you swirled through my brain.
I don't know why I didn't stop him.
Only this is clear:
I was in his arms, wishing it was you
that I held near.

I almost texted you last night.
My fingers were wrapped around my phone.
I wanted to reach out to you,
So I wouldn't be alone.
But then I remember the last thing that you said.
You love her too much to leave, but if she were gone.
You would choose me instead.
I don't think you realize how much I was in pain,
All those times I waited for you.
Knowing you wouldn't come, fearing I was insane.
She wasn't there then, and I let you in.
I see now I was foolish; I wish I had turned you away.
But it's too late to pretend that it didn't begin.
My efforts were worthless--
No. They were wasted.
If only I had known you weren't worth this.

eyelids heavy with sleep
as my heart races
and dreams await

but I cannot sleep
because my mind races
and my heart awaits

There’s a conflict
Brewing in my brain,
A coffee stain
Soiling my new shirt.
If I open up my heart
Will it hurt?

Another hundred
Million sighs,
Sighed.
Another hundred
Million days
Gone by.

Raindrops fall
In the orange glow
Of the dim streetlight,
As I question all I know
I watch them shimmer
In puddles at midnight.

I believe in first glances
And second chances,
That the third time is a charm

If in the end I stumble and I fall
I know it was worth it all.
I'll have no regrets.

I put all my faith in a feeling,
All my heart in hoping.
But somehow I always end up heart broken.

Is this how it ends?
No 'happily ever after',
Not even just friends?